Words such as renewing, restoring, repairing, healing, transforming, pruning and letting go came to mind yesterday as I did my thing. My heart was filled with hope and promises and yet I was crying within. Change is hard and it doesn’t come easy at times but it is needed and well worth the sacrifice. Just so you know, it has been a mixture of things going on in my life that are really trying to consume me. I feel as if my cup has run over and it won’t stop. My plate is FULL. I’m not talking about the good stuff either. It’s physical, emotional, spiritual wounds and battles that I have come up against. Not the mere transition of giving up a social network that I am getting ready to speak of. So if you don’t mind, let me talk about Facebook and the course it took me on for a minute. The site itself has it’s pro’s and con’s. While it was good to find and connect with old friends and family as well as playing games that were pretty addicting I must say, I was unknowningly at the time allowing it to sidetrack me and somewhat poison me. You know what? I DID allow it to poison me.
Today’s a new day for me with much in mind. Lord knows I am thankful for another day though I have been going through some things. I must admit that I was supposed to ( in my mind lol ) start writing on this post yesterday but I had things I needed to do to get my girls hair prepared for school this week. That takes time within itself.Well my thoughts were in order and on deck but my hands and body were elsewhere!
While socializing I was having times of doing what seemed right and positive such as speaking life, encouraging others through scripture and just the sunny disposition that I seem to carry through my witty conversations and all, I wasn’t feeding myself all too well at times. I am a nurturer in general and always trying to fix what’s broke or damaged. But I failed to see that I was not helping myself. I wasn’t in a position to be God. Duh Terra, you know good and well that you ARE NOT Him, so why try to do more than you are capable of, placing myself in a position to be overwhelmed, at times sponged off of by others as well as being taken for granted and potentially preyed on by wolves in sheeps clothing?!! I can’t take on the weight of the world and be a problem solver when I am not meant to try and do it all. Yeah you can say that I have truly learned the hard way no matter how many times I was warned in various ways. I never took my Superwoman cape off. Now I have. I am not perfect and I don’t profess to be but I try to do my best to do right. People will be people and I am not knocking anyone because no one is perfect. The best I can do is step aside and let God handle matters his way. Do understand that my opinion about Facebook is just that.. my opionion, my experience and what I need to do to better myself and have a closer relationship with Christ requires me to make changes in my life. Some things become a distraction as well as some people. It’s time to assess and make a decision as to what path to choose to go down.
Many thank you’s to my husband for being by side to help me through this journey as well as being stern though I didn’t like it. He sees things that I don’t and tries to give me a better perspective. Thank you to the friends who have spoke into my life and been a great support when I least expected it and they didn’t even know they played a major part. And my greatest thank you and praise goes to The Almighty for having mercy and grace upon me. I am thankful for his love and patience for me. I am thankful to have a Father who loves me enough to dicipline me however he sees fit. He got my attention. God is an on time God and gives me, gives you what we need when we need it. I encourage you to hold on and don’t give up. I speak this over myself. Applying it, trusting God on his Word and remaining patient is important. I pray for us all that we lean on the Lord with all we have, trusting he will show us, teach us what we need to get us through and keep our spiritual eyes and ears open to change that the benefits of obedience is worth the sacrifice here on earth and for eternity with him in heaven.
2Corinthians 12:9-10 And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my ifirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
( Thank you my dear friend Laryssa for sharing this with me today )
Isaiah 55:8 “For My thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are your ways My ways,” says the Lord.
Isaiah 30:21 Your ears shall hear a word behind you saying, “This is the way, walk in it,” Whenever you turn to the right and or whenever you turn to the left.
Galatians 6:9 And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.