Through the Pain Lift Him Up

For every sunset there’s a sunrise coming up

Hey there beloved one that’s going through some stuff. How are you today? Maybe you’re saying “I’m just making it/ I am getting by/I am not doing well. I don’t know how I will go on.” Maybe you are just silent. Like me. You just don’t know what to say. But then again if you catch me on a good day and I am thinking clearly I will tell you with a smile that all is well not realizing that I’m still making it, I’m still hoping, still keeping the faith in the Almighty God, still loving others praying them through their situations whatever it may be to include losing a loved one. I can’t keep silent always. He’s all I know and all I trust to believe in to get through every single day that I face.

Grief sucks. Mourning a loved one takes time. There is no timeline. At least that’s what I hear. All of this is new to me. BUT GOD..

He’s getting me through every last emotion and thought that I face since losing my Mom. It’s been almost 6mo and yet it feels like the very day she took her last breath. My chest is literally hurting as I reflect in this moment. Geez. (still going to keep typing no matter what). Through the pain lift Him up. I’m talking about my Jesus. May He be glorified always whether it’s a good day or a bad day.

It’s been a rough few days mentally. Trying to figure out what to do, how do I get back into what I was called to do. Write and encourage. The flesh side couldn’t figure it out. Praying and talking to God having honest moments with Him. It’s not that I didn’t want to write though I’ll admit that I can procrastinate. A lot. Bad habit. Sorry. Grief just wasn’t on my list of things to talk about.

Little by little I’ve received the Word here and there in various ways. The final megaphone moment was through a friend. The Lord allowed me to dream about her in the most simple way. Her daughter was eating a Pop Tart or something as we sat outside in her yard talking it up with laughter. Weird dream but it’s true. That dream turned into me saying that I was going to call her. I got busy and guess what? She called me! The Lord works in mysterious ways I know but He has to be like “Ok Terra, I’m going to speak a little louder for you to know that I hear you. I’ve been hearing you but I’ll make it a bit clearer.”

Long story short, talking with my Sister in Christ, my military connected friend for at least 10yrs now brought clarity to my funk/my stuck in the mud spot that I couldn’t figure out. The Lord gave her what to say to me whether she realized that she was calling me for more than what she thought she was. She lifted my spirits as only she can do by loving me, listening to me, giving me the Word, sharing her experiences, making me laugh all without a cup of tea or sitting physically in each other’s face. A phone call goes a long way. It really does.

Colossians 3:16“Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord.”

“Write what you know. Glorify God for that is what we are here for.” Not her exact words but you follow what I’m saying I believe. She gave me a bunch of nugget truths yesterday that I cannot quote exactly but my heart is filled to the overflow. I can write about what I know. I should not quench the Holy Spirit when I know what I had already been receiving yet wanting to play “Let’s Make a Deal”. My way doesn’t work. This I know but I didn’t want to write about it. I didn’t want to talk about my pain no more than what I last wrote about. I just didn’t want to face the truth. Not then. Not on days that I felt good. I simply wanted to keep silent. I didn’t want weakness to consume through my writings though I knew it could help someone else.

I had to repent right then and there. I was in my feelings but I truly thank the Lord for patience, love and mercy. He saw my pain, met my needs right where I was. But I had to relinquish my hold. Free fall into His arms. This new season is foreign to me. But if I want to be set free completely I have to do what I know to be true because His Word is love and light and I believe it. I know I can draw strength from it. You can too.

“but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough–always available–regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me. So I am well pleased with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, and with difficulties, for the sake of Christ; for when I am weak [in human strength], then I am strong [truly able, truly powerful, truly drawing from God’s strength].”

‭‭2 CORINTHIANS‬ ‭12:9-10‬ ‭AMP‬‬

(sigh) Well my friend I hope my thoughts, words of encouragement by sharing truths in the Lord can help you in some type of way. Jesus is all I know. I said it before and I’ll keep saying. I’ll keep lifting Him up , praising Him and magnifying His Name that’s above all names. Through the pain you will get through it. I know that I am.

Grief sucks. And yet I still move on. You can too. I’ll be praying for you. No matter how far across this earth you may from me God hears prayers near and far and will answer. He’s faithful and never changing. He’s loving, patient and kind. Give Him your cares and concerns and most of all your heart. You will see just how good He is. There’s always a bigger picture than what we see.

God bless you,

Terra 💕🦋

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It Is Well with My Soul

………… It is well with my soul.

Words cannot begin to describe the depth of my pain. Grief is something else. We’ve all experienced it at some point in our lives but the only true and faithful foundation and anchor to get through it is Jesus Christ.

You can say what you believe all day long but living it is a test of your faith.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Hebrews‬ ‭11:1‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

My day came when my dear mother left this earth to go home to be with the Lord May 3, 2018. While it was no surprise to God it took my family and I for an unexpected ride. Life came and went by so quickly in the couple weeks that I went home to see about her. Little did I know that I was going home for reasons far bigger than I could ever imagine.

“For we know that if our earthly house, this tent, is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this we groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed with our habitation which is from heaven, if indeed, having been clothed, we shall not be found naked. For we who are in this tent groan, being burdened, not because we want to be unclothed, but further clothed, that mortality may be swallowed up by life. Now He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who also has given us the Spirit as a guarantee. So we are always confident, knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord. For we walk by faith, not by sight. We are confident, yes, well pleased rather to be absent from the body and to be present with the Lord.”

‭‭II Corinthians‬ ‭5:1-8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

He was preparing me for everything that I imagined and told myself that I didn’t ever want to do.

•watch my Mother take her last breath

•do all the necessary things like paperwork to get her ready for burial

•view her body up close in preparation for her Homegoing service

•bury her beneath the Earth’s soil in the very place I dislike going to. The cemetery.

But what I fail to concentrate on (getting better at doing it) is that “for a time such as this” He had me ministering to her while she was still alive. I practically lived at the hospital for 2wks. I made it my business to pray with her and over her, read the Bible to her and to play/sing praise and worship music. I did this every day. I didn’t know she was going to die. I just knew that she needed the Word instilled in her. It’s all I know to do when facing the unexpected. God is my hope and my strength day to day. Through the good and and the not so good days.

Every time she was being taken away for a procedure she would not let anyone wheel her away until I prayed. Her hope and her faith to get through it all was in God. I take comfort in knowing that I played a part in it because of my obedience to Him. It helped my mother during the roughest experience of her life. She could have easily told me to not pray anymore, to not speak of the God who was allowing her to go through such a painful time. But I can only imagine that she understood in that time that God sat and watched his one and only Son be tortured and crucified for all of the world’s sins. There was a purpose in the temporary pain. Jesus died so that we could live. He bore our sins and our afflictions on the Cross so that we could be set free.

I went back home to my own family just to turn back around 3 days later because things turned for the worse. While I can do away with technology some days I am so happy for it’s good use. On my way to the airport my niece FaceTime me because my mother was asking for me. She ended up in ICU. It was the last time I got to see her awake. It was the last time that I knew of that she could hear me tell her that I loved her and I prayed with her. By the time I made it home and up to the hospital she wasn’t responding to my voice or squeezing my hand anymore and yet I continue to pray, read and play worship music.

I was still believing God for the unexpected and yet I was okay if He decided to take her home. While it still hurts, while the tears still fall down my face, while I grieve with such an agonizing pain in my heart it is well with my soul.

So no more pain, no more suffering, no more condemnation in those who belong to Him. Though our earthly bodies will suffer it’s temporary. We all will leave this life in some way but in Him we take confidence that all will be made new in heaven. This is my confidence. This I hold to be true because God my Father who holds the world in his hands holds me and he holds you too. He will see us through.

This trying time could have made me turn my back on God but it didn’t. It helped me get through the darkest day of my life that I’ve experienced so far. For all that I’ve learned and read and lived on this Christian journey it has become even more real when facing such a hardship. Losing a parent is a hard pill to swallow. They played a part into you coming into this world.

I can only tell you my friend what got me through and is still getting me over the waves of grief that consume me at times. Faith, hope, and prayer. Jesus was right there crying with me and my family. He was right there as my mother went through so much pain until she made her transition from this life to her eternal home. He knows our pain and he knows our struggles personally. He lived it and because He trusted his Father we can do the same thing. It’s a choice.

It is well with my soul because I know that God is faithful and true. He is the God who cannot lie and keeps His promises. This is my story… this is my experience of going through the valley. The key word is through. A friend shared that with me. It’s not a permanent destination. We are passing by and through with expectancy to come out.

I can only hope and pray that my words no matter how the flow of sharing differs from my other posts touches your heart and brings some sense of peace and encouragement if you’ve lost a loved one or come at a time when you will experience it. It’s taken me while to write. I’ve started and stopped. Deleted and tried to ignore and avoid. Grief goes deep but if sharing helps someone else I want to fight through it, wipe my tears away and type. This is where I am and this is my truth.

Be blessed, be encouraged and keep hope even when it seems like it’s fading. God can do all things but fail.

~ Terra

“Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.””

‭‭Deuteronomy‬ ‭31:6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

* the song Even If by MercyMe connected to my heart before I knew what was about to take place. I don’t believe in coincidence. I believe that God orchestrated it. All of it. How can I not thank Him for it. Even through pain and loss He has a plan.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”

‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11-13‬ ‭NIV‬‬

http://bible.com/111/jer.29.11-13.niv

Seek Me and You Shall Find

Dear beloved one I come to you today thinking about you and your life. I’m wondering what position your heart stands in today. With all that you may have accomplished in life to this point or even if you’ve gone through some hardships as I believe we all have I would like to know is your heart with the Lord. I asked this question because nothing in this life is permanent. Nothing in this life will complete you except Jesus.

We strive and we strive to attain… we strive to make a better life for ourselves various ways but to no avail we are never truly happy. We just cannot seem to feel full. There will never be a time that any of us can say that we have it all unless we have Christ Jesus in our lives.

Oh how my heart cries for the world as a whole. I can’t help but express how deeply we stand in need of Him in our lives. Not just while we are here in this temporary dwelling here on Earth but also most importantly our eternity. Salvation is very much needed to make it to heaven, to praise, sing, worship and be in the presence of the Most High God never to be in pain again. To never have to worry about sickness, death, finances, sadness, worry, stress and so forth is a blessing. It’s a weight off our shoulders that one sweet day we will forever be free of such things. But while we are here we will unfortunately go through.

Don’t fret dear heart and kick the bucket and throw in the towel. In Christ we can get through life and all that it brings for the good and the bad. Please hear my heart cry for you. Allow your heart and mind to begin to grasp what I’m saying and attempting to convey to you. I love you though I don’t know you. Jesus loves you more. He went to the Cross because He loves you. He died for all of our sins. Every sin imaginable. We aren’t worthy but because of His love He did it. The Father wanted to reconcile us back to Himself but the only way that could happen is by sending His Son to earth to be the perfect sacrifice to separate us from our old life that has been polluted with sin to one that has been washed and cleansed in the Blood of Jesus.

“Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved.” Acts‬ ‭4:12‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Today is a gift from God. The One True God and Heavenly Father. By no good deeds, gifts or works have any of us been given life today. It was by His choice and abundance of love for us that we are here. His mercy and grace runs deep though it should not be taken for granted. I pray you decide to make a change in your life for the greater good. If you don’t believe me try Him for yourself. I won’t turn back to my old life. There’s nothing back there for me no matter how tempting it may be.

“Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭34:8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

I thought of you today as I was listening to praise and worship music. With such profound love I had to write you a letter. Enjoy the song below and allow it to infiltrate deep down into your heart to make a decision. I pray you choose Jesus and the blessed life you can have in Him.

Your future Sister-in -Christ,

Terra

For a Time Such as This

Who knows what lies ahead before you but God. You can be a risk taker by walking up to the door, opening it and walking through. Standing there won’t do much.

Faith without works is dead.

Like Esther, we can choose to do something about a situation we are faced with whether it’s good or bad.

Stepping out into unfamiliar territory can be scary. Even fearful. Ok maybe out of sheer laziness you just don’t want to do it. How about you are simply procrastinating. Raise your hand if I’m taking to you! (I raised mine.)

For a time such as this you may be called out to reach out to an enemy to bless them and pray for them.

For a time such as this the Lord may be calling you out to do a home Bible study, start a mens/womens ministry, go into the mission field where it may be dangerous. Thinking about giving up on love after a messy divorce? He can restore that calloused heart back to one that’s softened to one day bless with you that future spouse that was meant for you.

I can list a number of scenarios but the question that remains is: will you do it? Will you step forward no matter the cost? If God has called you to it He will equip you to get you through it. The Lord had a friend speak into my life many of times about some things and I kept brushing them off. I began to get the same things spoken into my life from others who didn’t know. The Lord even began to speak to me through devotionals.

I was like “Are you serious?!!”

I thank God that He’s loving, kind and patient. He won’t give up on you and the purpose for why He chose you.

God can do all things but fail. Trust Him even when you can’t see what will happen next. It’s not faith when you can see it. Step forward even if you are afraid to. If I can you can too.

Obedience is key. We will never know the impact that can be made in someone’s life if we choose not to move. I encourage you to move forward even if you have to do it afraid .

Blessings to you,

Terra 🦋

Life & Death Beyond the Casket

While it is an uncomfortable thing to think about because we know that one day it will be us inside of a box/ urn (or whatever choice is made as to where our body will lay) , while flashbacks come to the front of our minds of a loved one leaving us, while tears and heartache choke us up…….

Life and death are occurring every day right here on earth. A spiritual life and death to be exact.

Choices

Which will we choose? People are dying a spiritual death around the globe near and far.

Have our thoughts become synonymous to seeing a lifeless body in a casket while going through the ritual of saying our goodbyes all the while not thinking that one day it will be our turn and that our eternity will be in heaven or hell?

I don’t mean to come off as being insensitive. Believe me because I have had my share of mourning loved ones. I have a heart for people in general and it hurts me to the core when I see and hear about what’s going on in the world knowing that innocent people are dying.

But for those of us that are still alive and breathing we are at times unknowingly walking around the dead. Those that are spiritually dead. And if we belong to Christ we need to ask ourselves what are we doing to help others go from death to life.

This is such a sensitive topic. Death. But it must be talked about. It must be acted upon. Even through the hardest circumstances I can’t help but wonder if a person has salvation. I can’t help but wonder and literally pray that they have received Jesus Christ into their lives.

None of us know the day or hour that we will leave this earth. Question remains is will we be ready to go? One way or another we will be leaving this temporary dwelling.

Earth is just a pit stop for me. My eternal address and home is up in heaven. I pray that yours is too as well as your loved ones. I pray this for the entire world of mankind. I don’t know you but I am praying for you. I am praying for your life while it’s still here on this side.

You may or may not believe in the One True God, you may or may not choose to receive the love and freedom in Christ Jesus but believe me when I tell you that there is no in between. There is no other way to heaven except through Jesus. There is no reincarnation, there are no levels you must pass to receive enlightenment, empowerment or whatever you have come to believe. These are lies of the devil. I’m not sorry to say it. He is the father of lies and will use anyone and anything to trick you. Do know this. Satan believes in God and he knows that he is only a little god. With that said he loses in the end. Actually he has already lost but will continue to do what he does to grab as many lost souls as he can before his time is up.

Forgive my rant. I just can’t stand him. I can’t sit by without speaking the Truth (Jesus) to you in love. If you have a relationship with Him , if you have accepted Him into your life through the gift of salvation I encourage you to keep pressing on and don’t stop. We have a call on our lives to go into the world and make disciples.

If you do not have salvation in your life and have welcomed Jesus into your heart know that it’s not too late. Today is your day. Tomorrow is not promised. Make up in your mind if you want true life in Christ beyond the physical body which will perish one day. Jesus can and will give it to you. Just ask Him!

Overall my message to you is that we need to see beyond the natural eye and the routine that we do of sending a loved one away at a funeral to truly realize that it’s time to get our lives in order, to stop playing Russian roulette with time because we have no control of when we leave this body. Only God has time in His hands and we all have an appointment. Each of us have been given an appointed time of living. May we do our best to live it in Him and not in vain.

Until the sweet day that I will stand before my Lord I will keep praying for you. I will keep praying for myself and this dark world we live in. Times won’t get any better so we need to live it in love and in Christ Jesus until He comes back.

Choose wisely for life and death stands before us all. God bless you dear heart. From my heart to yours I pray you receive what has been written in love and truth for the sake of winning souls for the Kingdom. In Christ we can do all things for it is He who sustains us day to day helping to getting through the ups and downs that life will bring.

“Therefore I exhort first of all that supplications, prayers, intercessions, and giving of thanks be made for all men, for kings and all who are in authority, that we may lead a quiet and peaceable life in all godliness and reverence. For this is good and acceptable in the sight of God our Savior, who desires all men to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth. For there is one God and one Mediator between God and men, the Man Christ Jesus, who gave Himself a ransom for all, to be testified in due time, for which I was appointed a preacher and an apostle—I am speaking the truth in Christ and not lying— a teacher of the Gentiles in faith and truth.”

‭‭I Timothy‬ ‭2:1-7‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

http://bible.com/114/1ti.2.1-7.nkjv

Choose Joy

Choose what you will but remember that each choice will either help, hurt or hinder you from growing. I Choose Joy and His name is Jesus. My life, my happiness, all that I am and do is found in Him. No one or nothing else. People will fail you because we ALL make mistakes and are far from being perfect.

Life happens and can change from one minute to the next. Today is a gift from the Lord even if it started off bad for you. You are alive and breathing, right? You have a roof over your head, clothing on your back, food in your mouth and obviously a phone/laptop/computer to read this message. Someone is mourning a loved one who didn’t wake up to a new day, someone is stressing how to make ends meet, someone is worrying over a child who didn’t come home last night.

 
With all that is within you, I encourage you to choose Joy today while blood is still running warm through your veins. You can walk, talk, and live in the truth. You have more than some in this world. You are blessed even if you don’t see it or realize it. 

Jesus and the gift of salvation that He paid the ULTIMATE price for us all is the best thing that I could ever attain. Without Him I could not write something positive even when I am going through a hard day. Without Him, I cannot be the best wife, mother, friend and neighbor to the best of my ability. 

Many are about self but I am called to be selfless and to help others and love on them and to let them know that they too have the freedom of choice. 

Choose this day how you want the rest of your day and life to be. It’s not up to anyone else. You have the power and control to filter what goes in and out of your life. 

God bless you this day and all that He gives you for tomorrow isn’t promised to any of us. 

In Christ, 

Terra 

Sunday Thoughts for the Week 

Here’s to a new week, new day and new walk. May it be full and bright with joy, love, peace, hope and prosperity.

 Blessings always,

Terra  

🦋 Therefore encourage and comfort one another and build up one another, just as you are doing. 1 THESSALONIANS 5:11 AMP


🦋 Ointment and perfume delight the heart, And the sweetness of a man’s friend gives  delight by hearty counsel. 

Proverbs 27:9 NKJV