I’m Not a Writer or Runner. Am I??

“My heart is overflowing with a good theme; I recite my composition concerning the King; My tongue is the pen of a ready writer.”
Psalms 45:1 NKJV
https://www.bible.com/114/psa.45.1.nkjv

I’m not a writer or runner… but I have something to say and somewhere to go.

Some years ago I gave in to God’s plan to write. To blog. To reach and encourage the nations. It wasn’t my plan but I jumped in with both feet to make it happen. Eventually with both feet to be quite honest because I never heard of a blog nor did I have a desire to write anything past a line or two regarding my thoughts for the people who took time to read. 

And let’s talk about this running thing. Yeah. Umm hmm. I’m not one of those either. But I got somewhere I’m trying to go. Mentally, physically and spiritually. 

“I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 3:14 NKJV

“Don’t you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! All athletes are disciplined in their training. They do it to win a prize that will fade away, but we do it for an eternal prize. So I run with purpose in every step. I am not just shadowboxing. I discipline my body like an athlete, training it to do what it should. Otherwise, I fear that after preaching to others I myself might be disqualified.”
1 Corinthians 9:24-27 NLT

I’m not a writer or runner. Or so I think I’m not and yet here I am. Still writing and running for the Lord. I felt like I wanted to kinda toss the blog aside… maybe even delete it. (Girl are you crazy?!!) I wanted to slow down my run but it doesn’t feel right slowing down or simply stopping in the middle. 

Grief grabbed a hold of me in such a way that’s it’s a struggle some days. So if you didn’t know I’ll catch you up . May 3,2018 my Mom went home to be with the Lord. No more cancer to fight. No more. Not ever again. I told God that I was okay with Him taking her because she belonged to Him and knowing that she had salvation which is a key factor for all of our eternity she would be in good hands. 

With that said it still hurt. It still pains my heart to know she’s not here with me. I can’t call her to talk or laugh or even make trips to visit one another. But I know that she would not be happy if she knew that I stopped writing and running. She knew that there was always something special about me as she used to say. She knew I had a desire to uplift hearts and share Jesus in some type of way. I digress. Forgive me.
I say that I’m not a writer or runner but God knew me and his plans for me before my conception. I really need to pause more often and think about this when my low days strike. “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 NIV


More important than how my mother saw me is how God sees me and loves me and how there is still purpose in and through my pain even in such a season that I endure. I don’t want to stand still as if in stagnant water. It does me no good. I was sitting in church service yesterday and some things that were said struck me and I really must be proactive about change even when I don’t feel like or it doesn’t feel good. 

Life happens and it will continue to do so bringing the highs and the lows, the good and the bad and the unimaginable. But God… 
He is faithful and just and I can testify to that even in one of the darkest times of my life. I still trust Him and I keep hope even when I can’t see what lies ahead. It’s just hard pushing ahead for me at times. Oh and laziness plays a factor too for me. Just keeping it real. (sigh) 

So if you’ve been with me a while I appreciate you hanging in there and bearing with me. If we are new to one another here on the blog I say Welcome and I thank you for stopping by and taking time to read. It’s still my heart’s desire to pray and encourage all that I meet along the way. My writing and running may be different by my heart is still the same. The leading of the Holy Spirit goes before me so I can never take credit. I am just a vessel wanting to be used to bless others. 

I pray that whatever it is that you may be facing that you will begin to know that the Lord will be with you if you allow Him to be. He will get you through it all. I am still seeing it for myself and I can testify that He is still moving in my life and of those I have met /prayed for. Today isn’t over. Keep hope and faith even when you don’t see evidence of change. It’s coming. 

Warmest thoughts, prayers and love in Christ Jesus for you beloved one. Take care,
Terra 
🦋Writer, Runner, Child of God, Wife, Mother & Friend🦋






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Made to Crave: Praise the Lord

I was made to praise Him. I crave to praise Him even when my flesh doesn’t want to.
For by Him all things were created that are in heaven and that are on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or principalities or powers. All things were created through Him and for Him.”
‭‭Colossians‬ ‭1:16‬ ‭NKJV‬‬
The world is forever changing but God remains the same. I wasn’t sure how life was going to be after my Mom passed away. May 3rd it will be the 1yr anniversary of her going home to the Lord. I can say that I’m still grieving and yet relieved that I’m not in a deep pit of  emotional pain because I have my God to hold on to when the wave of emotions hit me.
I honestly can’t say where’d I be if I hadn’t had the Lord by my side. I don’t know how anyone makes it without Him. Not just during the good times but definitely through the bad.

“Lord help us to seek Your face. Help us to crave the praise that you are worthy of receiving.

Some days I feel like a thread unraveling all the while trying to keep it together thinking on the positive. To think of Jesus and the message of the Cross it’s as if I can see and feel the fibers of my being connecting again. They are broken and busted. Just loose. Heaviness from the weight of affliction has caused me to feel and think that it’s hard to get my life back together. Some of those thoughts are mine and I believe the enemy plays a part in trying to keep me suppressed.

Have you ever felt that way? Is this a season you are currently experiencing? Know that you are not alone. Jesus knows our pain more than anyone. Knowing this I take heart because I know that He is faithful and true and I believe that He will see us through our valleys. (the keyword is through) He saw me through the worse pain I have yet to see and experience. And what seems kinda weird is that when I left my hometown after 2wks to go back to my own home is that I couldn’t wait to get back to my church… to be amongst the saints in corporate worship praising God. I sought God whilst I was home caring for my mother in the hospital, praying for her daily, reading her the Word while she was awake and sleeping and singing praises to Him. Even in the mist of the unknown and unforeseen I craved to praise Him. I did so not just to have Him hear my prayers and answer them but simply because He’s God.

Over the course of a year I’ve cried much, laughed often and sat in remembrance of many things. I’m still here. I made it! God was with me and he still is. My eyes well up with tears right now. It’s that joy that the world can’t steal from me. The Lord has still been faithful and has not left me when the nights become hard but oh I can rise up and praise Him because sweet joy has come in the morning! Life happens. We can’t stop it but we have an assurance to make it day to day with Him if we just lean into his arms and allow him to do what he does best.

I’ve made it (I still am) and I know you can too. Don’t give up on Him. Continue to seek to praise and glorify the Name that’s above all names. Stay hungry. Crave praise and watch what happens.

“Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭34:8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Faith Persevering in Trial

“I waited patiently for the LORD; And He inclined to me, And heard my cry. He also brought me up out of a horrible pit, Out of the miry clay, And set my feet upon a rock, And established my steps. He has put a new song in my mouth— Praise to our God; Many will see it and fear, And will trust in the LORD. Blessed is that man who makes the LORD his trust, And does not respect the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies. Many, O LORD my God, are Your wonderful works Which You have done; And Your thoughts toward us Cannot be recounted to You in order; If I would declare and speak of them, They are more than can be numbered. Sacrifice and offering You did not desire; My ears You have opened. Burnt offering and sin offering You did not require. Then I said, “Behold, I come; In the scroll of the book it is written of me. I delight to do Your will, O my God, And Your law is within my heart.” I have proclaimed the good news of righteousness In the great assembly; Indeed, I do not restrain my lips, O LORD, You Yourself know. I have not hidden Your righteousness within my heart; I have declared Your faithfulness and Your salvation; I have not concealed Your lovingkindness and Your truth From the great assembly. Do not withhold Your tender mercies from me, O LORD; Let Your lovingkindness and Your truth continually preserve me. For innumerable evils have surrounded me; My iniquities have overtaken me, so that I am not able to look up; They are more than the hairs of my head; Therefore my heart fails me. Be pleased, O LORD, to deliver me; O LORD, make haste to help me! Let them be ashamed and brought to mutual confusion Who seek to destroy my life; Let them be driven backward and brought to dishonor Who wish me evil. Let them be confounded because of their shame, Who say to me, “Aha, aha!” Let all those who seek You rejoice and be glad in You; Let such as love Your salvation say continually, “The LORD be magnified!” But I am poor and needy; Yet the LORD thinks upon me. You are my help and my deliverer; Do not delay, O my God.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭40:1-17‬ ‭NKJV‬‬
https://www.bible.com/114/psa.40.1-17.nkjv

Faithful Friday Psalm & Hymn

Draw Me Nearer

Sitting in a quiet space reading the Holy Word filling my cup to overflow. I bless Thee O Lord. I praise thy holy Name.

Come Lord Jesus….

Father God,

I thank you for this faithful Friday. Many have come to see it and then many have not. In this hour that we have may we bless Your name. May we fill the atmosphere with praise. Most Holy One, I say that I love You and I need You always. Come fill me, speak to me and Your people that we can show love to the lost. We are Your vessels. Use us today to do Thy will. Please keep watch over us, strengthen us to do thy service. May the words we speak and meditations of our heart be acceptable in thy sight. Refrain our lips from anything that will hurt, harm and hinder. Be glorified Father. We speak and sing praises with a voice of declaration! In Thee we trust and have hope.

In Jesus’ name, Amen

“Bless the LORD, O my soul; And all that is within me, bless His holy name! Bless the LORD, O my soul, And forget not all His benefits: Who forgives all your iniquities, Who heals all your diseases, Who redeems your life from destruction, Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies, Who satisfies your mouth with good things, So that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

The LORD executes righteousness And justice for all who are oppressed. He made known His ways to Moses, His acts to the children of Israel. The LORD is merciful and gracious, Slow to anger, and abounding in mercy. He will not always strive with us, Nor will He keep His anger forever. He has not dealt with us according to our sins, Nor punished us according to our iniquities.

For as the heavens are high above the earth, So great is His mercy toward those who fear Him; As far as the east is from the west, So far has He removed our transgressions from us. As a father pities his children, So the LORD pities those who fear Him. For He knows our frame; He remembers that we are dust. As for man, his days are like grass; As a flower of the field, so he flourishes. For the wind passes over it, and it is gone,

And its place remembers it no more. But the mercy of the LORD is from everlasting to everlasting On those who fear Him, And His righteousness to children’s children, To such as keep His covenant, And to those who remember His commandments to do them. The LORD has established His throne in heaven, And His kingdom rules over all.

Bless the LORD, you His angels, Who excel in strength, who do His word, Heeding the voice of His word. Bless the LORD, all you His hosts, You ministers of His, who do His pleasure. Bless the LORD, all His works, In all places of His dominion. Bless the LORD, O my soul!”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭103:1-22‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

https://www.bible.com/114/psa.103.1-22.nkjv

Turning Point

Hey there. It’s me.. Terra. The stranger on the other side of this message that you are reading. I know we don’t know one another but I just wanted to share some words of truth and encouragement with you because I care about you and your soul.

Why you may ask? Because Jesus loves you so so very much and you need to hear it, feel it and believe it to come to that turning point in your life of surrender to Him. You need Him, I need Him, the whole world needs Him. We can have a life of eternity in heaven and all that comes with being loved, forgiven of all our sins no matter what we’ve done and become sons and daughters. We can have the true meaning of life while we are still here if we turn our lives around for good. Giving up our “old man” to live as a new person in Christ Jesus is worth it. It won’t always be easy but it’s well worth the change.

For too long we’ve grown accustomed to doing what we want to do, say what we want to say and live how we want to live for the most part. But at the end of the day it’s all meaningless if we don’t have Jesus in our lives. Will will that turning point come? There will never be a right time, right day or hour because the next second of breath isn’t promised to any of us.

I encourage you to reflect on your life and ask yourself how’s it all going for you. Now don’t be deceived by the lies of the devil or even your own thinking. How easily we are fooled. No matter how rich you may be, how well life is going for you because you “got this” down pact and life is looking pretty good from your angle you got it all!!! Right?? (Buzzer sound) I’m sorry but you are wrong. Now let’s flip it because you’ll still be wrong if you think you don’t need Him because you’ve struggled all your life, nothing good seems to come your way, you can’t catch a break and it’s as if you are living in hell mentally and physically. You may even believe that the most Holy God is not worth your time. You don’t believe in Him. You are your own god. Then again you may be giving your life to any false god and religion that you’ve known for years so that has to be right. It just had to be. Wrong again and again and again.

It is only Christ Jesus the Son of God who can turn your life around. He became flesh and died on the cross for all of our sins so that we could have eternal life and be reconciled back to the Father through His ultimate sacrifice. He didn’t have to come down from heaven where it was comfortable and life was all good but He did. No other god has done that. God the Father saw past our sins and saw our greatest need. We needed a Savior, we needed to be totally cleansed of our sins. In order for a relationship to be restored and our lives to be transformed and we are renewed in our thinking which in turn changes when we see with our spiritual eyes and love one another while showing mercy and grace because we’ve all made mistakes we must surrender a life of old for a life of new.

That turning point comes in and through Jesus Christ. Give it some thought. And if you believe anything I say in the least bit, I encourage you to pray and ask Jesus to come into your life, make Himself known to you even in your doubt because you want to believe. Step out in faith and try Him for yourself. We’ve all taken chances in various areas of our lives from what we believe on television, to what others tell us, what we’ve seen and heard to even following the crowd. We take chances on relationships without really knowing if someone is lying to us, foods and medications without truly knowing if they will harm us. Right? We believe in what we cannot see or know right away. I say all of this to give examples because it’s true. But at what point will change take place?

Turning Point. Choose life in Christ. I’ve tried Him for myself. You don’t have to believe me. You can try Him for yourself and I pray that you do because care about you and your life. Here on earth and for eternity.

God bless you, God keep you and may you come and accept His gift of Love.

“But the day of the Lord will come as a thief in the night, in which the heavens will pass away with a great noise, and the elements will melt with fervent heat; both the earth and the works that are in it will be burned up. Therefore, since all these things will be dissolved, what manner of persons ought you to be in holy conduct and godliness, looking for and hastening the coming of the day of God, because of which the heavens will be dissolved, being on fire, and the elements will melt with fervent heat? Nevertheless we, according to His promise, look for new heavens and a new earth in which righteousness dwells.”

‭‭II Peter‬ ‭3:10-13‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

https://www.bible.com/114/2pe.3.10-13.nkjv

Walking and Meditating in the New Year

Let me start by saying Happy Blessed New Year to you! It’s 2019 and you and I are still here to experience a new day. Again. Alive with the new mercies of the Lord showering on us. His grace is everlasting.

As we look back on last year let us not forget to press on into the new. The old us gone but not forgotten. We’ve gained and we’ve lost. You can take a moment to reflect if you like. Sometimes it’s hard to move on but we should anyway. God would not have us to stay stagnated. We will never see beyond where we are if we don’t walk and meditate.

This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

Joshua 1:8-9

We can think on the goodness of the Lord and all that we have been blessed with. We are far from deserving but because of His great love for us and He sees our potential we can achieve so much more. I lost my mother 8mo ago and it’s been hard to move mentally at times. To write to you all and share a word of encouragement. Do I want to stay in a pit? No I do not.

I must walk and meditate because this life of mine is not just about me and how I’m feeling, what I want to do/ can’t do (or think I can’t). You are a part of it. Life will happen. There’s nothing we can do about it. This life is just a temporary dwelling. Passing through meeting others, living life and making a difference. I stand in hope that I can and will continue to do so in the name of the Lord. As a Christian I have a duty so I must say and do all that I can for the sake of winning souls for the Kingdom. We all have a date and we do not know when that time will be up.

*Your word is a lamp to my feet And a light to my path.
*Direct my steps by Your word, And let no iniquity have dominion over me.
Psalm 119:105,133

I would hope that we don’t allow the impact of life’s issues good and bad to cause us to lose sight of the faithfulness of God. He’s the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. Staying in His Word allowing it to comfort us, guide us, transform us and all the many other wonderful things it can do for our wellbeing will pay off. Others will see the hope we have in Christ Jesus to see us through every aspect of our lives. Stepping backwards, living in sin and giving up should not be an option.

May we step into the new giving God the praise and honor. He has purpose for you and I. We have much to offer, much to share with the world. May the influence we have in Him be a beacon of light. He is the Word and It is light in this dark world. Be a change, become a hope for the next person so they can see Jesus. I encourage you as I encourage myself to dig deeper in the Word this year. Less of self and more of Him. Pray often seeking to be strengthened to do His will. Meditate on His goodness and allow the Holy Spirit to fill you up with scripture for such a time that you will need to apply it. Whether it’s for self or another the seed planted will produce a harvest.

Today I leave you with a task. Make some time for the Lord. Go to Him with a sincere heart. Pray and ask what He has for you this year. He can bless others through the word of your testimony even while you may still be healing from a hurt. Even if you’ve been blessed greatly and have not given yourself over to greediness overlooking the poor and those in need. Whatever it may be there is still work to be done. There is still hope and an impact can be made.

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my strength and my Redeemer.
Psalm 19:14 NKJV

Walk and Meditate. He will see you through. ❤️

Reckless Love of God

It’s so good to know that Jesus will come after us if we’ve wandered away. Sometimes circumstances will cause us to see things differently. To hear things in such a way that we divert from what we know to be truth.

But the reckless love of God will come after you and me. Thank You Lord. It’s an overwhelming thought that Someone would leave the 99 just to come after 1. We are just that important to Him. Ponder that for a few minutes.

The song below is such a beautiful message of encouragement and full of love that comes to us from God. I pray that it ministers to your heart today. Whatever it is you are facing don’t stop believing that God loves you and does not hear your heart’s cry.

The Parable of the Lost Sheep

“What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep, and one of them goes astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine and go to the mountains to seek the one that is straying? And if he should find it, assuredly, I say to you, he rejoices more over that sheep than over the ninety-nine that did not go astray. Even so it is not the will of your Father who is in heaven that one of these little ones should perish.”

 Matthew‬ ‭18:12-14‬ ‭NKJV‬‬ 

Through the Pain Lift Him Up

For every sunset there’s a sunrise coming up

Hey there beloved one that’s going through some stuff. How are you today? Maybe you’re saying “I’m just making it/ I am getting by/I am not doing well. I don’t know how I will go on.” Maybe you are just silent. Like me. You just don’t know what to say. But then again if you catch me on a good day and I am thinking clearly I will tell you with a smile that all is well not realizing that I’m still making it, I’m still hoping, still keeping the faith in the Almighty God, still loving others praying them through their situations whatever it may be to include losing a loved one. I can’t keep silent always. He’s all I know and all I trust to believe in to get through every single day that I face.

Grief sucks. Mourning a loved one takes time. There is no timeline. At least that’s what I hear. All of this is new to me. BUT GOD..

He’s getting me through every last emotion and thought that I face since losing my Mom. It’s been almost 6mo and yet it feels like the very day she took her last breath. My chest is literally hurting as I reflect in this moment. Geez. (still going to keep typing no matter what). Through the pain lift Him up. I’m talking about my Jesus. May He be glorified always whether it’s a good day or a bad day.

It’s been a rough few days mentally. Trying to figure out what to do, how do I get back into what I was called to do. Write and encourage. The flesh side couldn’t figure it out. Praying and talking to God having honest moments with Him. It’s not that I didn’t want to write though I’ll admit that I can procrastinate. A lot. Bad habit. Sorry. Grief just wasn’t on my list of things to talk about.

Little by little I’ve received the Word here and there in various ways. The final megaphone moment was through a friend. The Lord allowed me to dream about her in the most simple way. Her daughter was eating a Pop Tart or something as we sat outside in her yard talking it up with laughter. Weird dream but it’s true. That dream turned into me saying that I was going to call her. I got busy and guess what? She called me! The Lord works in mysterious ways I know but He has to be like “Ok Terra, I’m going to speak a little louder for you to know that I hear you. I’ve been hearing you but I’ll make it a bit clearer.”

Long story short, talking with my Sister in Christ, my military connected friend for at least 10yrs now brought clarity to my funk/my stuck in the mud spot that I couldn’t figure out. The Lord gave her what to say to me whether she realized that she was calling me for more than what she thought she was. She lifted my spirits as only she can do by loving me, listening to me, giving me the Word, sharing her experiences, making me laugh all without a cup of tea or sitting physically in each other’s face. A phone call goes a long way. It really does.

Colossians 3:16“Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord.”

“Write what you know. Glorify God for that is what we are here for.” Not her exact words but you follow what I’m saying I believe. She gave me a bunch of nugget truths yesterday that I cannot quote exactly but my heart is filled to the overflow. I can write about what I know. I should not quench the Holy Spirit when I know what I had already been receiving yet wanting to play “Let’s Make a Deal”. My way doesn’t work. This I know but I didn’t want to write about it. I didn’t want to talk about my pain no more than what I last wrote about. I just didn’t want to face the truth. Not then. Not on days that I felt good. I simply wanted to keep silent. I didn’t want weakness to consume through my writings though I knew it could help someone else.

I had to repent right then and there. I was in my feelings but I truly thank the Lord for patience, love and mercy. He saw my pain, met my needs right where I was. But I had to relinquish my hold. Free fall into His arms. This new season is foreign to me. But if I want to be set free completely I have to do what I know to be true because His Word is love and light and I believe it. I know I can draw strength from it. You can too.

“but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough–always available–regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me. So I am well pleased with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, and with difficulties, for the sake of Christ; for when I am weak [in human strength], then I am strong [truly able, truly powerful, truly drawing from God’s strength].”

‭‭2 CORINTHIANS‬ ‭12:9-10‬ ‭AMP‬‬

(sigh) Well my friend I hope my thoughts, words of encouragement by sharing truths in the Lord can help you in some type of way. Jesus is all I know. I said it before and I’ll keep saying. I’ll keep lifting Him up , praising Him and magnifying His Name that’s above all names. Through the pain you will get through it. I know that I am.

Grief sucks. And yet I still move on. You can too. I’ll be praying for you. No matter how far across this earth you may from me God hears prayers near and far and will answer. He’s faithful and never changing. He’s loving, patient and kind. Give Him your cares and concerns and most of all your heart. You will see just how good He is. There’s always a bigger picture than what we see.

God bless you,

Terra 💕🦋