Made to Crave: Praise the Lord

I was made to praise Him. I crave to praise Him even when my flesh doesn’t want to.
For by Him all things were created that are in heaven and that are on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or principalities or powers. All things were created through Him and for Him.”
‭‭Colossians‬ ‭1:16‬ ‭NKJV‬‬
The world is forever changing but God remains the same. I wasn’t sure how life was going to be after my Mom passed away. May 3rd it will be the 1yr anniversary of her going home to the Lord. I can say that I’m still grieving and yet relieved that I’m not in a deep pit of  emotional pain because I have my God to hold on to when the wave of emotions hit me.
I honestly can’t say where’d I be if I hadn’t had the Lord by my side. I don’t know how anyone makes it without Him. Not just during the good times but definitely through the bad.

“Lord help us to seek Your face. Help us to crave the praise that you are worthy of receiving.

Some days I feel like a thread unraveling all the while trying to keep it together thinking on the positive. To think of Jesus and the message of the Cross it’s as if I can see and feel the fibers of my being connecting again. They are broken and busted. Just loose. Heaviness from the weight of affliction has caused me to feel and think that it’s hard to get my life back together. Some of those thoughts are mine and I believe the enemy plays a part in trying to keep me suppressed.

Have you ever felt that way? Is this a season you are currently experiencing? Know that you are not alone. Jesus knows our pain more than anyone. Knowing this I take heart because I know that He is faithful and true and I believe that He will see us through our valleys. (the keyword is through) He saw me through the worse pain I have yet to see and experience. And what seems kinda weird is that when I left my hometown after 2wks to go back to my own home is that I couldn’t wait to get back to my church… to be amongst the saints in corporate worship praising God. I sought God whilst I was home caring for my mother in the hospital, praying for her daily, reading her the Word while she was awake and sleeping and singing praises to Him. Even in the mist of the unknown and unforeseen I craved to praise Him. I did so not just to have Him hear my prayers and answer them but simply because He’s God.

Over the course of a year I’ve cried much, laughed often and sat in remembrance of many things. I’m still here. I made it! God was with me and he still is. My eyes well up with tears right now. It’s that joy that the world can’t steal from me. The Lord has still been faithful and has not left me when the nights become hard but oh I can rise up and praise Him because sweet joy has come in the morning! Life happens. We can’t stop it but we have an assurance to make it day to day with Him if we just lean into his arms and allow him to do what he does best.

I’ve made it (I still am) and I know you can too. Don’t give up on Him. Continue to seek to praise and glorify the Name that’s above all names. Stay hungry. Crave praise and watch what happens.

“Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭34:8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Faith Persevering in Trial

“I waited patiently for the LORD; And He inclined to me, And heard my cry. He also brought me up out of a horrible pit, Out of the miry clay, And set my feet upon a rock, And established my steps. He has put a new song in my mouth— Praise to our God; Many will see it and fear, And will trust in the LORD. Blessed is that man who makes the LORD his trust, And does not respect the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies. Many, O LORD my God, are Your wonderful works Which You have done; And Your thoughts toward us Cannot be recounted to You in order; If I would declare and speak of them, They are more than can be numbered. Sacrifice and offering You did not desire; My ears You have opened. Burnt offering and sin offering You did not require. Then I said, “Behold, I come; In the scroll of the book it is written of me. I delight to do Your will, O my God, And Your law is within my heart.” I have proclaimed the good news of righteousness In the great assembly; Indeed, I do not restrain my lips, O LORD, You Yourself know. I have not hidden Your righteousness within my heart; I have declared Your faithfulness and Your salvation; I have not concealed Your lovingkindness and Your truth From the great assembly. Do not withhold Your tender mercies from me, O LORD; Let Your lovingkindness and Your truth continually preserve me. For innumerable evils have surrounded me; My iniquities have overtaken me, so that I am not able to look up; They are more than the hairs of my head; Therefore my heart fails me. Be pleased, O LORD, to deliver me; O LORD, make haste to help me! Let them be ashamed and brought to mutual confusion Who seek to destroy my life; Let them be driven backward and brought to dishonor Who wish me evil. Let them be confounded because of their shame, Who say to me, “Aha, aha!” Let all those who seek You rejoice and be glad in You; Let such as love Your salvation say continually, “The LORD be magnified!” But I am poor and needy; Yet the LORD thinks upon me. You are my help and my deliverer; Do not delay, O my God.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭40:1-17‬ ‭NKJV‬‬
https://www.bible.com/114/psa.40.1-17.nkjv

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Walking and Meditating in the New Year

Let me start by saying Happy Blessed New Year to you! It’s 2019 and you and I are still here to experience a new day. Again. Alive with the new mercies of the Lord showering on us. His grace is everlasting.

As we look back on last year let us not forget to press on into the new. The old us gone but not forgotten. We’ve gained and we’ve lost. You can take a moment to reflect if you like. Sometimes it’s hard to move on but we should anyway. God would not have us to stay stagnated. We will never see beyond where we are if we don’t walk and meditate.

This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”

Joshua 1:8-9

We can think on the goodness of the Lord and all that we have been blessed with. We are far from deserving but because of His great love for us and He sees our potential we can achieve so much more. I lost my mother 8mo ago and it’s been hard to move mentally at times. To write to you all and share a word of encouragement. Do I want to stay in a pit? No I do not.

I must walk and meditate because this life of mine is not just about me and how I’m feeling, what I want to do/ can’t do (or think I can’t). You are a part of it. Life will happen. There’s nothing we can do about it. This life is just a temporary dwelling. Passing through meeting others, living life and making a difference. I stand in hope that I can and will continue to do so in the name of the Lord. As a Christian I have a duty so I must say and do all that I can for the sake of winning souls for the Kingdom. We all have a date and we do not know when that time will be up.

*Your word is a lamp to my feet And a light to my path.
*Direct my steps by Your word, And let no iniquity have dominion over me.
Psalm 119:105,133

I would hope that we don’t allow the impact of life’s issues good and bad to cause us to lose sight of the faithfulness of God. He’s the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. Staying in His Word allowing it to comfort us, guide us, transform us and all the many other wonderful things it can do for our wellbeing will pay off. Others will see the hope we have in Christ Jesus to see us through every aspect of our lives. Stepping backwards, living in sin and giving up should not be an option.

May we step into the new giving God the praise and honor. He has purpose for you and I. We have much to offer, much to share with the world. May the influence we have in Him be a beacon of light. He is the Word and It is light in this dark world. Be a change, become a hope for the next person so they can see Jesus. I encourage you as I encourage myself to dig deeper in the Word this year. Less of self and more of Him. Pray often seeking to be strengthened to do His will. Meditate on His goodness and allow the Holy Spirit to fill you up with scripture for such a time that you will need to apply it. Whether it’s for self or another the seed planted will produce a harvest.

Today I leave you with a task. Make some time for the Lord. Go to Him with a sincere heart. Pray and ask what He has for you this year. He can bless others through the word of your testimony even while you may still be healing from a hurt. Even if you’ve been blessed greatly and have not given yourself over to greediness overlooking the poor and those in need. Whatever it may be there is still work to be done. There is still hope and an impact can be made.

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my strength and my Redeemer.
Psalm 19:14 NKJV

Walk and Meditate. He will see you through. ❤️

It Is Well with My Soul

………… It is well with my soul.

Words cannot begin to describe the depth of my pain. Grief is something else. We’ve all experienced it at some point in our lives but the only true and faithful foundation and anchor to get through it is Jesus Christ.

You can say what you believe all day long but living it is a test of your faith.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Hebrews‬ ‭11:1‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

My day came when my dear mother left this earth to go home to be with the Lord May 3, 2018. While it was no surprise to God it took my family and I for an unexpected ride. Life came and went by so quickly in the couple weeks that I went home to see about her. Little did I know that I was going home for reasons far bigger than I could ever imagine.

“For we know that if our earthly house, this tent, is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this we groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed with our habitation which is from heaven, if indeed, having been clothed, we shall not be found naked. For we who are in this tent groan, being burdened, not because we want to be unclothed, but further clothed, that mortality may be swallowed up by life. Now He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who also has given us the Spirit as a guarantee. So we are always confident, knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord. For we walk by faith, not by sight. We are confident, yes, well pleased rather to be absent from the body and to be present with the Lord.”

‭‭II Corinthians‬ ‭5:1-8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

He was preparing me for everything that I imagined and told myself that I didn’t ever want to do.

•watch my Mother take her last breath

•do all the necessary things like paperwork to get her ready for burial

•view her body up close in preparation for her Homegoing service

•bury her beneath the Earth’s soil in the very place I dislike going to. The cemetery.

But what I fail to concentrate on (getting better at doing it) is that “for a time such as this” He had me ministering to her while she was still alive. I practically lived at the hospital for 2wks. I made it my business to pray with her and over her, read the Bible to her and to play/sing praise and worship music. I did this every day. I didn’t know she was going to die. I just knew that she needed the Word instilled in her. It’s all I know to do when facing the unexpected. God is my hope and my strength day to day. Through the good and and the not so good days.

Every time she was being taken away for a procedure she would not let anyone wheel her away until I prayed. Her hope and her faith to get through it all was in God. I take comfort in knowing that I played a part in it because of my obedience to Him. It helped my mother during the roughest experience of her life. She could have easily told me to not pray anymore, to not speak of the God who was allowing her to go through such a painful time. But I can only imagine that she understood in that time that God sat and watched his one and only Son be tortured and crucified for all of the world’s sins. There was a purpose in the temporary pain. Jesus died so that we could live. He bore our sins and our afflictions on the Cross so that we could be set free.

I went back home to my own family just to turn back around 3 days later because things turned for the worse. While I can do away with technology some days I am so happy for it’s good use. On my way to the airport my niece FaceTime me because my mother was asking for me. She ended up in ICU. It was the last time I got to see her awake. It was the last time that I knew of that she could hear me tell her that I loved her and I prayed with her. By the time I made it home and up to the hospital she wasn’t responding to my voice or squeezing my hand anymore and yet I continue to pray, read and play worship music.

I was still believing God for the unexpected and yet I was okay if He decided to take her home. While it still hurts, while the tears still fall down my face, while I grieve with such an agonizing pain in my heart it is well with my soul.

So no more pain, no more suffering, no more condemnation in those who belong to Him. Though our earthly bodies will suffer it’s temporary. We all will leave this life in some way but in Him we take confidence that all will be made new in heaven. This is my confidence. This I hold to be true because God my Father who holds the world in his hands holds me and he holds you too. He will see us through.

This trying time could have made me turn my back on God but it didn’t. It helped me get through the darkest day of my life that I’ve experienced so far. For all that I’ve learned and read and lived on this Christian journey it has become even more real when facing such a hardship. Losing a parent is a hard pill to swallow. They played a part into you coming into this world.

I can only tell you my friend what got me through and is still getting me over the waves of grief that consume me at times. Faith, hope, and prayer. Jesus was right there crying with me and my family. He was right there as my mother went through so much pain until she made her transition from this life to her eternal home. He knows our pain and he knows our struggles personally. He lived it and because He trusted his Father we can do the same thing. It’s a choice.

It is well with my soul because I know that God is faithful and true. He is the God who cannot lie and keeps His promises. This is my story… this is my experience of going through the valley. The key word is through. A friend shared that with me. It’s not a permanent destination. We are passing by and through with expectancy to come out.

I can only hope and pray that my words no matter how the flow of sharing differs from my other posts touches your heart and brings some sense of peace and encouragement if you’ve lost a loved one or come at a time when you will experience it. It’s taken me while to write. I’ve started and stopped. Deleted and tried to ignore and avoid. Grief goes deep but if sharing helps someone else I want to fight through it, wipe my tears away and type. This is where I am and this is my truth.

Be blessed, be encouraged and keep hope even when it seems like it’s fading. God can do all things but fail.

~ Terra

“Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.””

‭‭Deuteronomy‬ ‭31:6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

* the song Even If by MercyMe connected to my heart before I knew what was about to take place. I don’t believe in coincidence. I believe that God orchestrated it. All of it. How can I not thank Him for it. Even through pain and loss He has a plan.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”

‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11-13‬ ‭NIV‬‬

http://bible.com/111/jer.29.11-13.niv

Seek Me and You Shall Find

Dear beloved one I come to you today thinking about you and your life. I’m wondering what position your heart stands in today. With all that you may have accomplished in life to this point or even if you’ve gone through some hardships as I believe we all have I would like to know is your heart with the Lord. I asked this question because nothing in this life is permanent. Nothing in this life will complete you except Jesus.

We strive and we strive to attain… we strive to make a better life for ourselves various ways but to no avail we are never truly happy. We just cannot seem to feel full. There will never be a time that any of us can say that we have it all unless we have Christ Jesus in our lives.

Oh how my heart cries for the world as a whole. I can’t help but express how deeply we stand in need of Him in our lives. Not just while we are here in this temporary dwelling here on Earth but also most importantly our eternity. Salvation is very much needed to make it to heaven, to praise, sing, worship and be in the presence of the Most High God never to be in pain again. To never have to worry about sickness, death, finances, sadness, worry, stress and so forth is a blessing. It’s a weight off our shoulders that one sweet day we will forever be free of such things. But while we are here we will unfortunately go through.

Don’t fret dear heart and kick the bucket and throw in the towel. In Christ we can get through life and all that it brings for the good and the bad. Please hear my heart cry for you. Allow your heart and mind to begin to grasp what I’m saying and attempting to convey to you. I love you though I don’t know you. Jesus loves you more. He went to the Cross because He loves you. He died for all of our sins. Every sin imaginable. We aren’t worthy but because of His love He did it. The Father wanted to reconcile us back to Himself but the only way that could happen is by sending His Son to earth to be the perfect sacrifice to separate us from our old life that has been polluted with sin to one that has been washed and cleansed in the Blood of Jesus.

“Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved.” Acts‬ ‭4:12‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Today is a gift from God. The One True God and Heavenly Father. By no good deeds, gifts or works have any of us been given life today. It was by His choice and abundance of love for us that we are here. His mercy and grace runs deep though it should not be taken for granted. I pray you decide to make a change in your life for the greater good. If you don’t believe me try Him for yourself. I won’t turn back to my old life. There’s nothing back there for me no matter how tempting it may be.

“Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭34:8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

I thought of you today as I was listening to praise and worship music. With such profound love I had to write you a letter. Enjoy the song below and allow it to infiltrate deep down into your heart to make a decision. I pray you choose Jesus and the blessed life you can have in Him.

Your future Sister-in -Christ,

Terra

For a Time Such as This

Who knows what lies ahead before you but God. You can be a risk taker by walking up to the door, opening it and walking through. Standing there won’t do much.

Faith without works is dead.

Like Esther, we can choose to do something about a situation we are faced with whether it’s good or bad.

Stepping out into unfamiliar territory can be scary. Even fearful. Ok maybe out of sheer laziness you just don’t want to do it. How about you are simply procrastinating. Raise your hand if I’m taking to you! (I raised mine.)

For a time such as this you may be called out to reach out to an enemy to bless them and pray for them.

For a time such as this the Lord may be calling you out to do a home Bible study, start a mens/womens ministry, go into the mission field where it may be dangerous. Thinking about giving up on love after a messy divorce? He can restore that calloused heart back to one that’s softened to one day bless with you that future spouse that was meant for you.

I can list a number of scenarios but the question that remains is: will you do it? Will you step forward no matter the cost? If God has called you to it He will equip you to get you through it. The Lord had a friend speak into my life many of times about some things and I kept brushing them off. I began to get the same things spoken into my life from others who didn’t know. The Lord even began to speak to me through devotionals.

I was like “Are you serious?!!”

I thank God that He’s loving, kind and patient. He won’t give up on you and the purpose for why He chose you.

God can do all things but fail. Trust Him even when you can’t see what will happen next. It’s not faith when you can see it. Step forward even if you are afraid to. If I can you can too.

Obedience is key. We will never know the impact that can be made in someone’s life if we choose not to move. I encourage you to move forward even if you have to do it afraid .

Blessings to you,

Terra 🦋

Choose Joy

Choose what you will but remember that each choice will either help, hurt or hinder you from growing. I Choose Joy and His name is Jesus. My life, my happiness, all that I am and do is found in Him. No one or nothing else. People will fail you because we ALL make mistakes and are far from being perfect.

Life happens and can change from one minute to the next. Today is a gift from the Lord even if it started off bad for you. You are alive and breathing, right? You have a roof over your head, clothing on your back, food in your mouth and obviously a phone/laptop/computer to read this message. Someone is mourning a loved one who didn’t wake up to a new day, someone is stressing how to make ends meet, someone is worrying over a child who didn’t come home last night.

 
With all that is within you, I encourage you to choose Joy today while blood is still running warm through your veins. You can walk, talk, and live in the truth. You have more than some in this world. You are blessed even if you don’t see it or realize it. 

Jesus and the gift of salvation that He paid the ULTIMATE price for us all is the best thing that I could ever attain. Without Him I could not write something positive even when I am going through a hard day. Without Him, I cannot be the best wife, mother, friend and neighbor to the best of my ability. 

Many are about self but I am called to be selfless and to help others and love on them and to let them know that they too have the freedom of choice. 

Choose this day how you want the rest of your day and life to be. It’s not up to anyone else. You have the power and control to filter what goes in and out of your life. 

God bless you this day and all that He gives you for tomorrow isn’t promised to any of us. 

In Christ, 

Terra 

Wellspring of Wisdom 

Photo credit: Divine Creations Photography/self

Understanding is a wellspring of life to him who has it. But the correction of fools is folly. Proverbs 16:22 NKJV

We all need counseling whether we think we do or not. The Living Word is filled with thought provoking messages to us. 

Question is will we listen. The Book of Proverbs gives us many insightful lessons to gainfully understand and learn that are worth applying to our daily living. 

Are you willing to draw out the counseling that lies within the heart? To overlook it will only hurt you in the long run. It’s not worth learning after the fact. It’s not that someone will need to say ‘I told you so’ in order to bring you shame but to let you know that wisdom has its purpose and that they’ve  learned some things along the way. 

Don’t run from wise Biblical counseling. The truth may be uncomfortable at first because the flesh and the carnal mind does not want to align with it but I can tell you first hand that the Lord knows what He’s talking about. 

This wellspring of Wisdom continues to flow. It never ends and will bring the light of life into you each day as you seek to follow it. 

Encourage and strengthen your heart always in Christ Jesus. Allow Him to take you into the deep. Live and learn to the fullest. 

Give instruction to a wise man, and he will be still wiser; Teach a just man,  and he will increase in learning. “The fear of the Lord  is the beginning of wisdom, And the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. For by me your days will be multiplied, And years of life will be added to you. Proverbs 9:9‭-‬11 NKJV