It Is Well with My Soul

………… It is well with my soul.

Words cannot begin to describe the depth of my pain. Grief is something else. We’ve all experienced it at some point in our lives but the only true and faithful foundation and anchor to get through it is Jesus Christ.

You can say what you believe all day long but living it is a test of your faith.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Hebrews‬ ‭11:1‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

My day came when my dear mother left this earth to go home to be with the Lord May 3, 2018. While it was no surprise to God it took my family and I for an unexpected ride. Life came and went by so quickly in the couple weeks that I went home to see about her. Little did I know that I was going home for reasons far bigger than I could ever imagine.

“For we know that if our earthly house, this tent, is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this we groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed with our habitation which is from heaven, if indeed, having been clothed, we shall not be found naked. For we who are in this tent groan, being burdened, not because we want to be unclothed, but further clothed, that mortality may be swallowed up by life. Now He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who also has given us the Spirit as a guarantee. So we are always confident, knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord. For we walk by faith, not by sight. We are confident, yes, well pleased rather to be absent from the body and to be present with the Lord.”

‭‭II Corinthians‬ ‭5:1-8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

He was preparing me for everything that I imagined and told myself that I didn’t ever want to do.

•watch my Mother take her last breath

•do all the necessary things like paperwork to get her ready for burial

•view her body up close in preparation for her Homegoing service

•bury her beneath the Earth’s soil in the very place I dislike going to. The cemetery.

But what I fail to concentrate on (getting better at doing it) is that “for a time such as this” He had me ministering to her while she was still alive. I practically lived at the hospital for 2wks. I made it my business to pray with her and over her, read the Bible to her and to play/sing praise and worship music. I did this every day. I didn’t know she was going to die. I just knew that she needed the Word instilled in her. It’s all I know to do when facing the unexpected. God is my hope and my strength day to day. Through the good and and the not so good days.

Every time she was being taken away for a procedure she would not let anyone wheel her away until I prayed. Her hope and her faith to get through it all was in God. I take comfort in knowing that I played a part in it because of my obedience to Him. It helped my mother during the roughest experience of her life. She could have easily told me to not pray anymore, to not speak of the God who was allowing her to go through such a painful time. But I can only imagine that she understood in that time that God sat and watched his one and only Son be tortured and crucified for all of the world’s sins. There was a purpose in the temporary pain. Jesus died so that we could live. He bore our sins and our afflictions on the Cross so that we could be set free.

I went back home to my own family just to turn back around 3 days later because things turned for the worse. While I can do away with technology some days I am so happy for it’s good use. On my way to the airport my niece FaceTime me because my mother was asking for me. She ended up in ICU. It was the last time I got to see her awake. It was the last time that I knew of that she could hear me tell her that I loved her and I prayed with her. By the time I made it home and up to the hospital she wasn’t responding to my voice or squeezing my hand anymore and yet I continue to pray, read and play worship music.

I was still believing God for the unexpected and yet I was okay if He decided to take her home. While it still hurts, while the tears still fall down my face, while I grieve with such an agonizing pain in my heart it is well with my soul.

So no more pain, no more suffering, no more condemnation in those who belong to Him. Though our earthly bodies will suffer it’s temporary. We all will leave this life in some way but in Him we take confidence that all will be made new in heaven. This is my confidence. This I hold to be true because God my Father who holds the world in his hands holds me and he holds you too. He will see us through.

This trying time could have made me turn my back on God but it didn’t. It helped me get through the darkest day of my life that I’ve experienced so far. For all that I’ve learned and read and lived on this Christian journey it has become even more real when facing such a hardship. Losing a parent is a hard pill to swallow. They played a part into you coming into this world.

I can only tell you my friend what got me through and is still getting me over the waves of grief that consume me at times. Faith, hope, and prayer. Jesus was right there crying with me and my family. He was right there as my mother went through so much pain until she made her transition from this life to her eternal home. He knows our pain and he knows our struggles personally. He lived it and because He trusted his Father we can do the same thing. It’s a choice.

It is well with my soul because I know that God is faithful and true. He is the God who cannot lie and keeps His promises. This is my story… this is my experience of going through the valley. The key word is through. A friend shared that with me. It’s not a permanent destination. We are passing by and through with expectancy to come out.

I can only hope and pray that my words no matter how the flow of sharing differs from my other posts touches your heart and brings some sense of peace and encouragement if you’ve lost a loved one or come at a time when you will experience it. It’s taken me while to write. I’ve started and stopped. Deleted and tried to ignore and avoid. Grief goes deep but if sharing helps someone else I want to fight through it, wipe my tears away and type. This is where I am and this is my truth.

Be blessed, be encouraged and keep hope even when it seems like it’s fading. God can do all things but fail.

~ Terra

“Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.””

‭‭Deuteronomy‬ ‭31:6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

* the song Even If by MercyMe connected to my heart before I knew what was about to take place. I don’t believe in coincidence. I believe that God orchestrated it. All of it. How can I not thank Him for it. Even through pain and loss He has a plan.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”

‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11-13‬ ‭NIV‬‬

http://bible.com/111/jer.29.11-13.niv

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Seek Me and You Shall Find

Dear beloved one I come to you today thinking about you and your life. I’m wondering what position your heart stands in today. With all that you may have accomplished in life to this point or even if you’ve gone through some hardships as I believe we all have I would like to know is your heart with the Lord. I asked this question because nothing in this life is permanent. Nothing in this life will complete you except Jesus.

We strive and we strive to attain… we strive to make a better life for ourselves various ways but to no avail we are never truly happy. We just cannot seem to feel full. There will never be a time that any of us can say that we have it all unless we have Christ Jesus in our lives.

Oh how my heart cries for the world as a whole. I can’t help but express how deeply we stand in need of Him in our lives. Not just while we are here in this temporary dwelling here on Earth but also most importantly our eternity. Salvation is very much needed to make it to heaven, to praise, sing, worship and be in the presence of the Most High God never to be in pain again. To never have to worry about sickness, death, finances, sadness, worry, stress and so forth is a blessing. It’s a weight off our shoulders that one sweet day we will forever be free of such things. But while we are here we will unfortunately go through.

Don’t fret dear heart and kick the bucket and throw in the towel. In Christ we can get through life and all that it brings for the good and the bad. Please hear my heart cry for you. Allow your heart and mind to begin to grasp what I’m saying and attempting to convey to you. I love you though I don’t know you. Jesus loves you more. He went to the Cross because He loves you. He died for all of our sins. Every sin imaginable. We aren’t worthy but because of His love He did it. The Father wanted to reconcile us back to Himself but the only way that could happen is by sending His Son to earth to be the perfect sacrifice to separate us from our old life that has been polluted with sin to one that has been washed and cleansed in the Blood of Jesus.

“Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved.” Acts‬ ‭4:12‬ ‭NIV‬‬

Today is a gift from God. The One True God and Heavenly Father. By no good deeds, gifts or works have any of us been given life today. It was by His choice and abundance of love for us that we are here. His mercy and grace runs deep though it should not be taken for granted. I pray you decide to make a change in your life for the greater good. If you don’t believe me try Him for yourself. I won’t turn back to my old life. There’s nothing back there for me no matter how tempting it may be.

“Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!”

‭‭Psalms‬ ‭34:8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

I thought of you today as I was listening to praise and worship music. With such profound love I had to write you a letter. Enjoy the song below and allow it to infiltrate deep down into your heart to make a decision. I pray you choose Jesus and the blessed life you can have in Him.

Your future Sister-in -Christ,

Terra

For a Time Such as This

Who knows what lies ahead before you but God. You can be a risk taker by walking up to the door, opening it and walking through. Standing there won’t do much.

Faith without works is dead.

Like Esther, we can choose to do something about a situation we are faced with whether it’s good or bad.

Stepping out into unfamiliar territory can be scary. Even fearful. Ok maybe out of sheer laziness you just don’t want to do it. How about you are simply procrastinating. Raise your hand if I’m taking to you! (I raised mine.)

For a time such as this you may be called out to reach out to an enemy to bless them and pray for them.

For a time such as this the Lord may be calling you out to do a home Bible study, start a mens/womens ministry, go into the mission field where it may be dangerous. Thinking about giving up on love after a messy divorce? He can restore that calloused heart back to one that’s softened to one day bless with you that future spouse that was meant for you.

I can list a number of scenarios but the question that remains is: will you do it? Will you step forward no matter the cost? If God has called you to it He will equip you to get you through it. The Lord had a friend speak into my life many of times about some things and I kept brushing them off. I began to get the same things spoken into my life from others who didn’t know. The Lord even began to speak to me through devotionals.

I was like “Are you serious?!!”

I thank God that He’s loving, kind and patient. He won’t give up on you and the purpose for why He chose you.

God can do all things but fail. Trust Him even when you can’t see what will happen next. It’s not faith when you can see it. Step forward even if you are afraid to. If I can you can too.

Obedience is key. We will never know the impact that can be made in someone’s life if we choose not to move. I encourage you to move forward even if you have to do it afraid .

Blessings to you,

Terra 🦋

Choose Joy

Choose what you will but remember that each choice will either help, hurt or hinder you from growing. I Choose Joy and His name is Jesus. My life, my happiness, all that I am and do is found in Him. No one or nothing else. People will fail you because we ALL make mistakes and are far from being perfect.

Life happens and can change from one minute to the next. Today is a gift from the Lord even if it started off bad for you. You are alive and breathing, right? You have a roof over your head, clothing on your back, food in your mouth and obviously a phone/laptop/computer to read this message. Someone is mourning a loved one who didn’t wake up to a new day, someone is stressing how to make ends meet, someone is worrying over a child who didn’t come home last night.

 
With all that is within you, I encourage you to choose Joy today while blood is still running warm through your veins. You can walk, talk, and live in the truth. You have more than some in this world. You are blessed even if you don’t see it or realize it. 

Jesus and the gift of salvation that He paid the ULTIMATE price for us all is the best thing that I could ever attain. Without Him I could not write something positive even when I am going through a hard day. Without Him, I cannot be the best wife, mother, friend and neighbor to the best of my ability. 

Many are about self but I am called to be selfless and to help others and love on them and to let them know that they too have the freedom of choice. 

Choose this day how you want the rest of your day and life to be. It’s not up to anyone else. You have the power and control to filter what goes in and out of your life. 

God bless you this day and all that He gives you for tomorrow isn’t promised to any of us. 

In Christ, 

Terra 

Wellspring of Wisdom 

Photo credit: Divine Creations Photography/self

Understanding is a wellspring of life to him who has it. But the correction of fools is folly. Proverbs 16:22 NKJV

We all need counseling whether we think we do or not. The Living Word is filled with thought provoking messages to us. 

Question is will we listen. The Book of Proverbs gives us many insightful lessons to gainfully understand and learn that are worth applying to our daily living. 

Are you willing to draw out the counseling that lies within the heart? To overlook it will only hurt you in the long run. It’s not worth learning after the fact. It’s not that someone will need to say ‘I told you so’ in order to bring you shame but to let you know that wisdom has its purpose and that they’ve  learned some things along the way. 

Don’t run from wise Biblical counseling. The truth may be uncomfortable at first because the flesh and the carnal mind does not want to align with it but I can tell you first hand that the Lord knows what He’s talking about. 

This wellspring of Wisdom continues to flow. It never ends and will bring the light of life into you each day as you seek to follow it. 

Encourage and strengthen your heart always in Christ Jesus. Allow Him to take you into the deep. Live and learn to the fullest. 

Give instruction to a wise man, and he will be still wiser; Teach a just man,  and he will increase in learning. “The fear of the Lord  is the beginning of wisdom, And the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding. For by me your days will be multiplied, And years of life will be added to you. Proverbs 9:9‭-‬11 NKJV

Oh Deer!

The Lord God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer’s feet, And He will make me walk on my high hills. To the Chief Musician. With my stringed instruments. Habakkuk 3:19 NKJV

……….. yesterday was rough. The day before too. Geez.

Life will bring ups and downs. Things you see and hear can bring happiness or sadness to your heart.

As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God? 

Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

Psalm 42:1‭-‬2‭, ‬5 NIV

Of course we are all for the good stuff. No one wants to feel pain, hurt or go through hardships but they ultimately work out for our good when we trust the Lord. We cannot always have sunny days expecting to see rainbows without a storm.
Oh but how faithful is God! He’s always with us. How blessed I feel when words, sights and wonders are shown to comfort my heart when I don’t understand or comprehend the actions of others. Now it’s not that I personally was affected ,but that my heart was hurting for innocent children and the lack of care by others regarding them.

I am thankful for being created in the image of God because the characteristic traits I have been given allows me to work as His hands and feet for those in need. I use to ask myself as a young girl why do I care so much or even why I cry or become bothered in my spirit when someone is hurting or suffering. No one else I seen acted like me/wore their heart on their sleeve/gave two bits about how others were being treated. I felt like I was the ‘odd man out’ when around them at times.

I digress. But let’s move on.

Lately the Lord has brought butterflies of plenty across my path as reminders that I am transformed in Him. Yesterday it was a majestic looking deer. Can you believe it?!! How I wish that I could have snapped a pic of it as I was driving home with 2 of my daughters. Oh well. At least I was left with a vivid memory of what this beast looked like. Joy flooded my heart as I heard a word from the Lord come to the forefront of my mind. Amazing!

OH DEER!

My daughters were obviously tickled pink by my vocal expression of delight in seeing this deer as it seemingly pranced across one side of the woods onto the other while giving me time to observe it. It actually stood there for a moment the closer I drove near it. I. was. in. awe. 

Such beauty and strength this deer has. I simply cannot put into words how I felt in that moment. My heart was refreshed. A spring of heavenly water washed over me. I was not feeling as if I was thirsting in a dry land anymore… wondering what would happen next in the situation that weighed my heart down.

My heavenly Father has already worked it out. I have to trust and believe that. I pray for those walking in darkness to one day come into His precious Light. All I really can do is pray from a distance and be a light and helping hand when present as well as from afar.

So what am I saying to you dear hearts?

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding;

Proverbs 3:5 NKJV

I encourage you to seek the Lord for that refreshing and flowing water that never ends. It will spring up a well that causes you to dance, to sing unto Him and praise his name. He knows all and sees all before it ever takes place. Nothing is new under the sun. Nothing shocks him. Does it hurt His heart to see wrongdoing? Yes it does. If he cares then so should we. At the end of the day we all have choices and I pray that one day we come to a full realization that God loves us and wants us to live a life pleasing to Him with passion and purpose loving one another and taking care of each other.

He loved us enough to send His Son down to show us and teach us about right and wrong. How we should live and treat one another. He intimately paid the price for his love and actions by going to the Cross to die for our sins. But He rose from the grave with victory! Nothing and no one could keep him down. Hallelujah! He left us with a Comforter to lead and guide us, to bring comfort and support when we need it.

The Word of God is our blueprint. We can navigate through circumstances that will leave us inspired, encouraged with hope and  refreshed in our souls when it’s feeling dry. It will lead us to those quiet waters to take in and become energized once again. We can and we will be strengthened in the Lord like the majestic deer if we continue to trust and allow Him to take the lead through life’s forests and the terrains you may walk across.

God bless you. I will keep you in my prayers day and night.

With a Jesus love from my heart to yours,

Terra 

Enjoy this wonderful song that I just love and allow it to fill you up! Have a happy and blessed day in Jesus.

Through it all….I Worship You

Words can’t seem to describe the thankfulness that is running through me. Its really hard to do it but I want to allow others to feel what I feel to the best of my ability.

The wonder, the love, the power, the gentleness, endless mercy and grace, peace, joy even through hard times I know that I know that the Lord Almighty goes before me and is a keeper of His word.

He can do all things BUT fail.

I worship You Lord not just for blessing and protecting me but because of Who You are and who I am not. I am nothing without you. I cannot sustain day to day without You. When hard knocks come, when the wind blows extremely harsh in my life it seems and I feel as if I will topple over …You O Lord, my Rock and sure Foundation keep my foot from slipping.

I worship You! I worship You with all that I have within me…. I bless You Lord. Hallelujah!

When I have yet to hear a word back from You I know that I am heard because my faith tells me so. When I fail You time and time and again You continue to love and encourage me. I am not worthy of nothing but You give me your best and that alone brings tears to my eyes O giver of Life. My Creator, Father God, Abba my soul cries out with a heart of thanksgiving.

My life is Yours dear Lord. Please help me to live my days with great love and sincerity as a reflection of my love for You. You are worthy of all of our praise. Not just today but everyday. Glory to God!

Dear beloved as you read my words, I would like for you to reflect on the goodness of the Lord in your life and of your loved ones. He has been quite generous to us all. We do not deserve anything but because of His unfailing love and His remarkable ability to see us past all of our faults He is worthy of  a dance, a shout, a Hallelujah, Glory to God and whatever else you feel led to say and do. A God Who does not love conditionally but unconditionally, a Father and Creator who saw me and called us His own before we were even formed within the womb of our mothers. The Lord saw us in all our mess and still chose us. He has called us His people. I bless Him this day and I desire for my relationship to go nowhere but deeper and more intimate. I pray that you do as well.

Give glory and honor to Him brothers and sisters even when your day is not going it’s best. Sometimes your praise will turn your outlook around. I know this for myself. Hallelujah!

Oh, sing to the Lord a new song! Sing to the Lord , all the earth. Sing to the Lord , bless His name; Proclaim the good news of His salvation from day to day. Declare His glory among the nations, His wonders among all peoples. For the Lord is great and greatly to be praised; He is to be feared above all gods. For all the gods of the peoples are idols, But the Lord made the heavens. Honor and majesty are before Him; Strength and beauty are in His sanctuary. Give to the Lord , O families of the peoples, Give to the Lord glory and strength. Give to the Lord the glory due His name; Bring an offering, and come into His courts. Oh, worship the Lord in the beauty of holiness! Tremble before Him, all the earth.
Psalms 96:1‭-‬9 NKJV