………………. reckless abandonment.
The exact words quenched my thirsty soul as if I was walking through a desert in search of water.
I found it. Or rather it found me in an email. Can you believe that?!! God has his own ways of getting our attention. Sometimes the most obvious ways I still don’t catch onto for some reason. I can say that I’m so glad that He doesn’t give up flagging me down.
For a while now I’ve been in prayer about some things seemingly never getting a reply. Countless times it’s been “God, here I am again asking for an answer” in so many words. No reply.
Time passes by, events occur and seasons change in a spiritual sense and yet I still kept asking. Not like an annoying bee buzzing around His face but like a child in need of answers that the heart is longing for. The ache just wouldn’t go away.
“Daddy, Abba Father do you hear me?”
Slowly my questions are being answered. Then again perhaps I missed some that were already answered but I became distracted by other things while in wait.
How easily I allowed myself to get distracted and caught up. Ugh. Frustration showed it’s ugly head and I struggled with sleeping, thinking and emotionally functioning. The problem is that I went down the wrong path in waiting. Shame on me.
Believe me when I say that I don’t always get it right but I thank the Lord for His indispensable grace. I thank him for patiently waiting on his child to get back on track. To get my focus back in line.
“Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.” Psalm 119:105 KJV
Now it’s not that I have not been reading my Bible or praying because I have. My focus had been more on the storms than on the One Who calms the storm. (what revelation as I write this. Wow. Thank you Holy Spirit)
Reckless abandon to the Almighty in all my ways. I throw up my hands without a care for the opinions and thoughts of others simply because my loyalty should be to Him, his thoughts and desires for my life. I am to please Him. Not man. My worship, my praise, my prayer and my direction has been thrown into the loving arms of the Savior who beckons the call to my obedience. Whatever He says I’ll do. (prayerfully I am listening carefully and also obeying at all times)
Now therefore hearken unto me, O ye children: for blessed are they that keep my ways. Hear instruction,and be wise, and refuse it not. Blessed is the man that heareth me, watching daily at my gates, waiting at the posts of my doors. For whoso findeth me findeth life, and shall obtain favour of the Lord. Proverbs 8:32-36.
By no other means can I get to the Father except through Christ. By no greater means can I be comforted and guided than by the Holy Spirit. I stand in need at all times. May I never forget that.
Reckless abandon and feeling relieved.
Is this your story or can you relate? Dear heart I encourage you on in prayer to be relentless, to have reckless abandonment to the Lord in all your ways. He knows that we will struggle, that we will fall, become discouraged and even tire while waiting but in doing so I rather we err on the side of the Lord than to fall into complete sin never giving an ounce of faith or a seed of hope to He who is able to supply all of our needs. God will not leave or nor forsake us. It’s in the waiting that we grow and our intimacy can grow stronger if we just hold on and don’t give up. These last days are so important. Will we continue to trust and believe that His timing and answers are right for us. He knows what we need and when we need it. Keep holding on and stay steadfast in prayer.
Your sister in arms,