Separation Anxiety

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II Timothy 1:7 NKJV

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.

Here I am sharing the diary of my thoughts as of late. It’s quite something when separation anxiety plays a major part in your life and your spiritual walk.

The last couple weeks have felt as if fear has been gripping me at the throat. Two reasons to be exact. Actually three. One being my husband leaving state for a short period of time to go to medical school as he is working on his doctorate. The other being concerned about an upcoming appt for a yearly annual exam followed up by a mammogram. *I’ll be getting to the third reason soon enough.

Regarding my husband, I love him to pieces so it’s always hard to see him leave without me and our children. You’d think I would be use to it as we are now a retired Army family.  We both were soldiers. After 19yrs of marriage, I still shed tears before he leaves anywhere out of town and my mind rolls like a tide wondering and worrying if he is safe on the highways.

These emotions should not rule over me. At all.

The above scripture repeatedly played in my mind as I allowed it to filter into my heart. My husband told me that God is still God and that He is always in control. He told me this not once but twice. The second time was as the days passed upon the arrival of my up and coming appointment to the doctors office.

“Lord I am tired of letting You down as well as myself. I claim Your truths, promises and healing yet I find myself still emotionally consumed with feelings of the unseen and unknown.”

Deuteronomy 31:8 NKJV

And the Lord , He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed.”

Boom. Here comes my third reason. The reason that landed me where I should have not landed. The reason that I listed last so that it will make sense.

My separation anxieties would not have me all in a frenzy had I kept my focus on God and not my fears. It’s natural to be concerned about others and situations but I should not allow them to choke me up.

I allowed my thoughts to run rampant. I allowed myself get away from standing still in the presence of God and giving Him my complete trust while letting go of how I felt I could cope with my emotional state.

Simply put, I can do nothing without Him. This I know yet I did not completely relent until the day of my appointment.

CANCER. (lump in my throat)

Thinking that I may be the next woman in my family to have breast cancer and/or ovarian cancer made my stress level skyrocket. My mom and sister are survivors of breast cancer. My paternal grandmother died of ovarian cancer.

“I can’t catch a break to save my life. Sheesh. I’d be the very one to die from breast cancer if my test came back confirming my worst fear.” These were the thoughts running through my mind. Shame on me. I should never feel insignificant to God. He loves me.

Battlefield of the mind. I am at war with myself and the adversary. I press forward to think on good things as scripture tells me.

Philippians 4:8 NKJV

Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are  noble, whatever things are  just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are  lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there  is any virtue and if there  is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.

… yet I’m still fighting to keep my head above water. Speaking of water, I think about the story when Jesus tells Peter to come to Him out in the open sea. Peter stepped out and walked on water until the the winds blew. His fear, his lack of faith caused him to begin to sink until Jesus pulled him up. (Matthew 14:22-32)

Let me back this whole thing up for a minute. When I find myself withdrawing to grow closer to the Lord, the enemy is on my heels. If he being Satan did it to Jesus then I definitely am not being excluded to be tested and tried. This makes me think back to the biblical story of Job. That man surely went through some storms in his life yet He did not turn his back on God despite all the mental, physical and emotional hardships he suffered. He knew God was still a faithful and loving Father though he knew not why he was suffering.

With all this being said, I need to stick even closer to the Lord. I know this life will not keep me from suffering all things that come my way. Whether it’s through word or affliction I must continue to speak the word of God in my life and over it. I must believe Him for the unseen and unknown even when I’m growing weary.

I’m far from perfect but I continue to strive to live out my life pleasing Him who has purposed every aspect of my life that He would get the glory. His Holy Word tells us: Romans 8:28 ESV

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.

So to sum up my thoughts, I took action like never before as I prepped myself to leave the house and as I traveled the highway. I thank the Holy Spirit for bringing my mind and heart into remembrance of scriptures to help, affirm and comfort me through the last couple weeks and to encourage me to fight for my life in Christ.

Words cannot explain the experience I encountered with the Lord before I reached my destination.  One thing I do know is that I was at peace and my mind was settled. I still am. Praise in His presence through worship and prayer carried me unlike any experience I can remember. Though I have yet to know my test results, I know that I know that I know that I am healed and whole whether I receive it in this life or when I go home to be with Him however it may be that I am taken. It doesn’t have to be sickness that we die from. Freak accidents and evil happens everywhere. I could die of natural causes. Better yet, He can just take me home because it’s my time. None of us know the day or hour that we will leave this world so I pray we focus on Him and the life and ministry we are called to carry out. May we love one another and share the Gospel of Christ with those who do not know Him.

I am more than a conqueror in Christ Jesus. Victory is mine. It’s yours too dear believer. We have been given power and authority in Jesus’ name.  We are not defeated unless we throw in the towel.

Remember these words please and cling tight to them. God’s word is truth and He cannot go back on what He says.

Romans 8:38-39 ESV

For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

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Psalm 121: Do Not Fret! God Has Your Back!!

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This is a power and uplifting song that stems from Psalm 121 that I have attached myself to since I gave my life to the Lord years ago. Jesus IS our Help!
Be encouraged today for God has each and every one of us still here for a reason and purpose!

Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “Therefore I hope in Him!” (Lamentations 3:22-24 NKJV)

Why should I worry, why should I fret
Look at all the ways he’s made
And every promise kept.
I look to the hills from which cometh my help
I’ll tell you where my help cometh
Tell you where my help cometh
Tell you where my help cometh
It cometh from the lord…
Jesus is my help
Jesus is my help
My help, hy help

Facetime with My Lord

Greetings dear brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus,

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I pray that you all are doing well in mind, body and spirit. God is truly good to us. (even in difficult times. ) Would you agree?

The last few weeks have been somewhat challenging in my spirit. Keeping things bottled up for the most part has not been a wise choice.

Rolling waves come crashing down on me. Again.

“Lord, I don’t know how I am going to get through this but I trust You with the outcome.” These words have been going through my mind over and over as the days pass.

My family lost a loved one last week. My uncle passed away but God bless His soul…. before he became ill and died from cancer on Monday he gave his life to the Lord! Hallelujah!!

Feeling overwhelmed doesn’t even seem like the right word to scratch the surface of how I have been coping with life. Why was I trying to keep it together and stay afloat the best I knew how without crying out in desperation is beyond me. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and yet I found myself closing up. Not one word to utter out loud to my Savior; the very One who sustains me. My heart cried out and soon I found myself needing face time with my Lord.

I needed to talk. I needed to pour out. I needed to be held and comforted unlike any other time.

Facetime. Something we all need with the Lord. Not only should we go to Him with our heavy hearts and burdens but also to lift Him up and glorify His name. He is to be exalted, praised and lifted up! Let us share the good news of Christ and all He’s done in us and through us. Amen?!!

As I found this time of retreat and solace beginning to take its place within me, I was still having unsettled peace reside.

I wasn’t giving up control.

My sister Patricia (link) contacted me as well as my other sister Dulcinea (link). They were not giving up on me at all! Each one came in at a time to give me a word of encouragement and shown me love when I wasn’t seeking it. Or so I thought. God’s arms stretch wide and His words of comfort come from afar. He knew just what I needed and though I had alone time with Him, He gave me more. He poured into me through others. All I can say is: timely. God shows up right on time. He’s not a minute too early or a second late. He comes right on time.

My God blessed me. He lifted me up from the hollow and dark place that I had been sitting in and fighting. I tell you and I encourage you all to not give up. I encourage you to rise up from the pit that tries to hold you captive. We are free in Jesus. The chains have been broken. We do not have to be enslaved to things that hurt us. I want to share a portion of a message Patricia sent me. I wish I could add the voicemail that Dulci (Sissy as I call her) sent me but I can’t. I love these women with all my heart. Thank you Jesus for them!! Here it goes:

“I know that it truly is a process at times, but be encouraged by the fact that God’s Word never changes and neither does his love for you. He understands every single bit of what you’re going through and every emotion that you  have, and he can dry every tear and hold you stronger and tighter than anybody can!” 

Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning. (Psalm 30: 5)

Faith Triumphs in Trouble
Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us. (Romans 5:1-5 NKJV)


Are you in need of FaceTime with the Lord today? Seek Him today while He may be found. Today is of the essence. Tomorrow may never come. Come one, come all and call upon the Name that’s above all names.

JESUS

Lift Every Voice Giving Thanks Unto the Lord!

I was glad when they said unto me, “Let us go into the house of the Lord.” (Psalms 122:1)

Joy unspeakable joy!!

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You know, it does not take for Sunday to come around for us to praise God, to have a joy come over us as we are filled in abundance with the presence of the Lord. We can achieve that all week long when we go before His presence.

This is something I like to experience everyday as much as possible. You can too.

Moments upon standing back up on my feet after my morning prayers, a smile surfaced. My heart began to melt in the love of Christ. This longing to commune with Him started dancing inside of me. Wow. “It’s not even 6am yet and I want to sing and dance! Thank you Lord! Today is going to be awesome. Yessss!”

I encourage you today to allow the Lord to minister to your heart. If a scripture or song comes over you just let it pour out and saturate you. Don’t fight it. Sing a new song unto the Lord. Thank Him for this new day you have. Think about where He has brought you from, think about the things that could have stolen your life but God blocked it. Praise Christ in all things be it good or not so good. You are alive. You are here today for a reason. God has allowed His sun to shine down on you one more day. The Word tells us: Through the Lord’s mercies we are not consumed, Because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; Great is Your faithfulness. “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “Therefore I hope in Him!” (Lamentations 3:22-24 NKJV)

Lift up your voice and give thanks to Jesus!

Below is a song that I would like to share with you all. It’s been around a long time and I still find myself getting goosebumps and teary-eyed as I lift up my hands and praise the Lord. He has been better to me than I have been to myself. He never turns His back on us when we choose to turn our back on Him. He is the same yesterday, today and forevermore. I am nothing without Him. I cannot take this journey in life by myself expecting to come out fine. Snares are waiting to trap us; waiting to keep us bound and hopeless. The enemy is a lie! Rebuke the lies of the adversary; the evil one and tell them to flee. Nothing is too powerful or strong that the Lord cannot set us free from. Claim freedom! Claim your liberty and sing! Tell the captives that you are free and it’s all because of Jesus!

Praise ye the Lord everyone! Praise Him for He is truly worthy of it all.

Scriptures of praise:

Oh, sing to the Lord a new song! For He has done marvelous things; His right hand and His holy arm have gained Him the victory.(Psalm 98:1)

Oh, sing to the Lord a new song! Sing to the Lord, all the earth. Sing to the Lord, bless His name; Proclaim the good news of His salvation from day to day. Declare His glory among the nations, His wonders among all peoples. For the Lord is great and greatly to be praised; (Psalms 96:1-4)

Sing to the Lord a new song, And His praise from the ends of the earth, You who go down to the sea, and all that is in it, You coastlands and you inhabitants of them! (Isaiah 46:10)

post shared from my website: livingabundant.us

Parched and Weary

“Heavenly Father, I thank you for waking me up with a sound mind thirsting to get my day started in You. Lord, I thank you for shaking my soul to cry out in prayer for the precious sheep that are dearly loved by Thee. Lives are living in despair, hopelessness, bondage and fear. This is not how You would have us to live. Day in and day out we can choose You! Day in and day out we can choose to have our thirst quenched from the pain and sorrow, the anger and frustration that we endure from this old world. Father, I don’t want to see your people give up. I do not want to see them live in mental torture. Our physical bodies shall perish one day but Lord our minds can be kept in You. I know this to be true. Hallelujah!! I am standing on faith that those who are parched and weary come to You. I pray that no matter what life brings that we can find the strength to crawl and receive rest, regain a new strength, a peace of mind just beyond the river. Jesus, Your precious Son, is waiting for us! This is our hope. He is our Hope. We will not be left nor forsaken. It is time to come. It is time to stop trying to do things on our own. We need you Lord. We need you right now. May the lame, the deaf, the leper, the sinner, the prisoner, the one fighting addiction, the one who is trapped in their mind come. Let all who are sick and in need of a Savior come. He’s waiting to take us in His arms to love on us and heal us. Just beyond the river we will find rest. Thank you Father God for waking me up and stirring my spirit to call on You. Not just for myself and my family within my walls but for all of Your children around the world who are crying out and are lost. Receive my prayers this day O Lord in the mighty name of Jesus I pray, Amen.”

Jesus says: “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30 NKJV)

My fellow brothers and sisters in the Lord, I come lifting you up in prayer praying for your strength and steadfastness in the Lord to be a light in this world sharing the love of Jesus with many. Pray for the nations, pray for the hearts that have turned away from the Lord for whatever reason. Pray for yourselves that you would not lose hope on your own journey with Christ. Though we all grow a little weary and parched at times we know where to go. Jesus is our eternal rest and peace. He will quench our thirst when we are running low. This is a time of refreshing! Let us all follow through with the purpose that God gave each of us. Let us feed His sheep. This is His will. We would not be where we are today had it not been for someone sharing the Gospel with us however it came to us. He chose us so let us show our love and faithfulness back to Him out of obedience and draw men unto Him for salvation, peace and rest in Christ Jesus. Much love to you I send this day,

Terra

“But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.” (John 4:14 KJV)

Testimony’s Corner

 

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Testimony’s Corner.

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Greetings one and all! As promised, I set up Testimony’s Corner on my front page two  clicks over from the Home menu. I am looking forward to this new addition that God is enabling me to partake in with you all as we share our testimonies with one another while giving praise, glory and honor to God!

Praise the Lord and Welcome!!

~Terra

Arise With A New Mind And Don’t Complain

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Photo credit: Divine Creations Photography

Every day is a new day. It may not be what you want or how you make like it but it is here among the living. When I began to think on the goodness of the Lord when I arise in the mornings, I have to humble myself and praise Him who is my Everlasting Hope and Treasure.

Eyes to see, ears to hear and a body that is able can overcome any obstacles in Christ Jesus for He is our hope. Our strength for today lies within Him. He is our Refuge, our Shelter in storms and our Foundation to keep a steady mind and foot during adversities. My heart has been prayerful for you dear reader. Know that God is present and sees all things. My words seem as if they are few to me in my own mind and sight because I can pour our much more but my heart is full with eagerness, faith, hope and prayer that you will have a good report amongst yourselves as you think about just how good the Lord has been to you.

Just like the above picture I took, I see each day and moment as a bud awaiting to bloom next to the flowers that have already came forth. What I am trying to say is that reflection should take place upon the many blessings God has already given you. Life itself is one of them so that is a daily blessing. All of your good days should outweigh your bad days as the song belong states. Do not forget and become unthankful for what you already have. Difficulties will come and storms will arise but trust in the One who has already delivered you. His mercy and grace has covered a multitude and for that we ought to just say Thank You Lord for there are many souls lost and walking in darkness who have yet to realize that He is able to sustain those who call upon Him.

May your thoughts today and everyday begin to align with the God’s Word and promises. The Bible tells us: Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the Lord your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6 NKJV)

Lyrics to I Won’t Complain :

[Verse1:]
I’ve had some good days
I’ve had some hills to climb
I’ve had some weary days
And some sleepless nights
But when I look around
And I think things over
All of my good days
Out-weigh my bad days
I won’t complain

[Verse2:]
Sometimes the clouds are low
I can hardly see the road
I ask a question, Lord
Lord, why so much pain?
But he knows what’s best for me
Although my weary eyes
They can’t see
So I’ll just say thank you Lord
I won’t complain

[Chorus:]
The Lord Has been so good to me
He’s been good to me
More than this old world or you could ever be
He’s been so good, To me
He dried all of my tears away
Turned my midnights into day
So I’ll just say thank you Lord

[Adlib:]
I’ve been lied on
But thank you Lord
I’ve been talked about
But thank you Lord
I’ve been misunderstood
But thank you Lord
You might be sick
Body reeking with pain
But thank you Lord
The bills are due
Don’t know where the money coming from
But thank you Lord
Thank you Lord
Thank you Lord

[Chorus:]
I want to thank God
Has been so good to me
He’s been good to me
More than this old world or you could ever be
He’s been so good
He’s been so good
He’s been so good
So good
So good
So good
So good
To me
He dried all of my tears away
Turned my midnight into day

[Ending:]
So I’ll just say thank you Lord,
I won’t complain