It Is Well with My Soul

………… It is well with my soul.

Words cannot begin to describe the depth of my pain. Grief is something else. We’ve all experienced it at some point in our lives but the only true and faithful foundation and anchor to get through it is Jesus Christ.

You can say what you believe all day long but living it is a test of your faith.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Hebrews‬ ‭11:1‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

My day came when my dear mother left this earth to go home to be with the Lord May 3, 2018. While it was no surprise to God it took my family and I for an unexpected ride. Life came and went by so quickly in the couple weeks that I went home to see about her. Little did I know that I was going home for reasons far bigger than I could ever imagine.

“For we know that if our earthly house, this tent, is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this we groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed with our habitation which is from heaven, if indeed, having been clothed, we shall not be found naked. For we who are in this tent groan, being burdened, not because we want to be unclothed, but further clothed, that mortality may be swallowed up by life. Now He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who also has given us the Spirit as a guarantee. So we are always confident, knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord. For we walk by faith, not by sight. We are confident, yes, well pleased rather to be absent from the body and to be present with the Lord.”

‭‭II Corinthians‬ ‭5:1-8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

He was preparing me for everything that I imagined and told myself that I didn’t ever want to do.

•watch my Mother take her last breath

•do all the necessary things like paperwork to get her ready for burial

•view her body up close in preparation for her Homegoing service

•bury her beneath the Earth’s soil in the very place I dislike going to. The cemetery.

But what I fail to concentrate on (getting better at doing it) is that “for a time such as this” He had me ministering to her while she was still alive. I practically lived at the hospital for 2wks. I made it my business to pray with her and over her, read the Bible to her and to play/sing praise and worship music. I did this every day. I didn’t know she was going to die. I just knew that she needed the Word instilled in her. It’s all I know to do when facing the unexpected. God is my hope and my strength day to day. Through the good and and the not so good days.

Every time she was being taken away for a procedure she would not let anyone wheel her away until I prayed. Her hope and her faith to get through it all was in God. I take comfort in knowing that I played a part in it because of my obedience to Him. It helped my mother during the roughest experience of her life. She could have easily told me to not pray anymore, to not speak of the God who was allowing her to go through such a painful time. But I can only imagine that she understood in that time that God sat and watched his one and only Son be tortured and crucified for all of the world’s sins. There was a purpose in the temporary pain. Jesus died so that we could live. He bore our sins and our afflictions on the Cross so that we could be set free.

I went back home to my own family just to turn back around 3 days later because things turned for the worse. While I can do away with technology some days I am so happy for it’s good use. On my way to the airport my niece FaceTime me because my mother was asking for me. She ended up in ICU. It was the last time I got to see her awake. It was the last time that I knew of that she could hear me tell her that I loved her and I prayed with her. By the time I made it home and up to the hospital she wasn’t responding to my voice or squeezing my hand anymore and yet I continue to pray, read and play worship music.

I was still believing God for the unexpected and yet I was okay if He decided to take her home. While it still hurts, while the tears still fall down my face, while I grieve with such an agonizing pain in my heart it is well with my soul.

So no more pain, no more suffering, no more condemnation in those who belong to Him. Though our earthly bodies will suffer it’s temporary. We all will leave this life in some way but in Him we take confidence that all will be made new in heaven. This is my confidence. This I hold to be true because God my Father who holds the world in his hands holds me and he holds you too. He will see us through.

This trying time could have made me turn my back on God but it didn’t. It helped me get through the darkest day of my life that I’ve experienced so far. For all that I’ve learned and read and lived on this Christian journey it has become even more real when facing such a hardship. Losing a parent is a hard pill to swallow. They played a part into you coming into this world.

I can only tell you my friend what got me through and is still getting me over the waves of grief that consume me at times. Faith, hope, and prayer. Jesus was right there crying with me and my family. He was right there as my mother went through so much pain until she made her transition from this life to her eternal home. He knows our pain and he knows our struggles personally. He lived it and because He trusted his Father we can do the same thing. It’s a choice.

It is well with my soul because I know that God is faithful and true. He is the God who cannot lie and keeps His promises. This is my story… this is my experience of going through the valley. The key word is through. A friend shared that with me. It’s not a permanent destination. We are passing by and through with expectancy to come out.

I can only hope and pray that my words no matter how the flow of sharing differs from my other posts touches your heart and brings some sense of peace and encouragement if you’ve lost a loved one or come at a time when you will experience it. It’s taken me while to write. I’ve started and stopped. Deleted and tried to ignore and avoid. Grief goes deep but if sharing helps someone else I want to fight through it, wipe my tears away and type. This is where I am and this is my truth.

Be blessed, be encouraged and keep hope even when it seems like it’s fading. God can do all things but fail.

~ Terra

“Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.””

‭‭Deuteronomy‬ ‭31:6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

* the song Even If by MercyMe connected to my heart before I knew what was about to take place. I don’t believe in coincidence. I believe that God orchestrated it. All of it. How can I not thank Him for it. Even through pain and loss He has a plan.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”

‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11-13‬ ‭NIV‬‬

http://bible.com/111/jer.29.11-13.niv

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Road Prayers Are Not Just For You

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Just when you thought your road prayers were all about you and your needs…the Lord had you praying for others you passed along the way.

Now isn’t that just like us to be selfish? Me me and more me.

But then isn’t it just like God to turn our focus and direction towards someone else who’s standing in the need of prayer?

It sure is and I thank Him for it.

While we are encouraged to take our concerns, worries, fears, things we need to get off of our chest to the Lord and lay them at His feet, he desires for us to pray for others too.

It’s not all about me and it’s not all about you.

The Lord laid a road prayer heavily upon me one day as I was driving along casting my cares upon Him. I went from praying about my circumstances to praying and interceding for those I passed on both sides of the road.

Now in society we can be good for griping about slow traffic, someone doing this ,that or the other and fail to look at the blessings. Example: having a vehicle to drive, safety that the Lord has brought you from point A to point B thus far. Many other things to be thankful for that I can name but I’d like for you to start thinking of some yourself to see what you come up with.

The Lord Almighty flooded my heart and my mind as I drove along. It blew me away. My stresses and concerns didn’t seem so big once I started praying for others that are driving. We may never know where they are going but it’s reassuring to know that we can take our prayers to the Father about them with hopes that they will get answered.

Whether it’s rushing to the hospital, contemplating suicide, trying to make it to work before getting written up one more time, trying to stay awake on the road from working that second job to support their family or even just….. trying to figure out where they belong they ALL need Jesus. Someone is standing in the need of prayer. Someone may be seeking Truth and Peace in the middle of chaos. Someone needs to see that there is a Light in their darkness.

Salvation is available to all. The prayer line to God is always available. This road is accessible and free of traffic jams.

Jesus tells us: The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly.
John 10:10 NKJV

So while it may seem easier to just think about ourselves in the moment, may we take a look at our surroundings and begin to wonder what’s going on in the life of the vehicle next to, in front of, behind and those traveling in the opposite direction of yourself. Ask the Lord to show you what He sees and to give you a heart for those in your path.

Prayer changes many things and it just might save someone’s life. Just think about it. Every time a person confesses their sins and receives salvation the angels rejoice. Now that’s grand to me! When I think about the impact prayers makes in the life of another and just not myself my spirit begins to catch fire with hope and joy because of the Living God who is able to do exceedingly more than I could imagine.

I just thank the Father for turning my one lane road prayers from myself to that of multiple lanes praying for others. I may not ever know what impact my prayers had or will ever have in the life of another road driver (biker, walker) but I do know that my God does and that’s quite alright with me.

Hoping to shed a little light from my heart to yours. I give credit where it’s due and it all belongs to the Lord. I thank the Holy Spirit for being ever present and helping me and giving guidance when I couldn’t see.

Be blessed, be a blessing and be encouraged today in Christ Jesus,

Terra

Heart Cries Unto the Lord……YES

O Lord, You have searched me and known me. You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down, And are acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word on my tongue, But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether. (Psalm 139:1-4 NKJV)

Singing praises and surrendering my all to You O Lord with open hands and teary eyes! I praise You! I glorify Your name in all the earth! There is none like You!! May the Name that is greater than any other be reverenced and lifted up high. Flood my heart with YES to each and every thing that you ask me to say and do. Let courage be my witness and testimony; shackled no more to fear and bondage of this cruel world. I am renewed and transformed in the light of Your will, your ways and your words. Yes Lord, Yes Lord , YES YES YES! My soul, my heart cries out what words cannot utter forth from my lips. I am so thankful for the aid of the Holy Spirit to intercede on my behalf. Rest is found in Thee. Wash over me Lord as I am brought to my knees worshipping your holy name. I love you Lord! Bless me with your prescence… that’s what I long for. Hallelujah!!

Then I will give them a heart to know Me, that I am the Lord; and they shall be My people, and I will be their God, for they shall return to Me with their whole heart. (Jeremiah 24:7 NKJV)

What’s That In Your Mouth?!!

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Your words were found, and I ate them; and Your words were to me a joy and the rejoicing of my heart, for I am called by Your name, O Lord God of hosts. (Jeremiah 15:16 AMP)

Chewing and Digesting

Through my own experiences, though in general, the Word does feed my spirit. Chewing and digesting it ( scripture ) soaks into the innermost being of my spirit. Its not about the quantity of what I read, but the quality; what I am taking from it. There are days when I pray asking God to give me a word for a particular moment that I’m going through or something that’s on my mind as well as just wanting to seek His heart and finding out what it is that he wants to talk to me about.

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This is vital to my daily living just as keeping healthy and taking my vitamins. God is my spiritual dose of nourishment. His Living Word is what keeps me going. All the strength I work in that’s righteous comes from he and he alone. Seeking Him and his presence means everything in what I say and do. I want to be about my Father’s will. His plans are greater than mine and yours. With this said, I am praying that you too take careful consideration as to the things you consume mentally, physically and spiritually.

Therefore lay aside all filthiness and overflow of wickedness, and receive with meekness the implanted word, which is able to save your souls. But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves. For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man observing his natural face in a mirror; for he observes himself, goes away, and immediately forgets what kind of man he was. But he who looks into the perfect law of liberty and continues in it, and is not a forgetful hearer but a doer of the work, this one will be blessed in what he does. (James 1:21-25 NKJV)

“Father God, it is your heart that I seek after daily. I need you desperately. Without you I can do nothing. Teach me your ways that I may live accordingly. I pray for my friends and family far and near that they too will seek after you coming thirsty and hungry. Your Son paid it all on the cross. He blood was not shed in vain. Help me to take up my cross daily and to deny the flesh that has no means to edify my growth in you. I continually ask for your mercy and grace. Your infinite wisdom is greater than anyone’s. I’ve asked you for wisdom and you have granted it to me. May I be wise and not foolish in my own thinking; boasting of things I know not is meaningless. Everything meaningful and righteous that proceeds out of my mouth I credit to you. Praises forever will be in my mouth for you alone are worthy of them. Glory hallelujah!!
In Jesus name… Amen”

If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him. But let him ask in faith, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind. (James 1:5, 6 NKJV)

Bring The Rain

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What a Mighty God we serve believers! The Lord is good all the time and how excellent is His name. I pray that wherever you are that you call upon Him and praise his name just because He is Who he says he IS.

 

This is one of those rainy days when it’s typical of me to feel drained and lacking energy but oh no! What joy the Lord has placed in my heart today for his eyes are upon his beloveds; His children. He has given me a set of of spiritual eyes and ears as well as a sensitive spirit to speak to the heart of those seeking Him. I try not to be on my on schedule everyday without consulting with the Lord first so though I thought I was going to do something else, he directed me elsewhere. Through the Word, the Holy Spirit speaking to me, praise and worship music all I could do was lift up my hands and said Holy Holy Holy is the Lord God Almighty! One of my favorite songs by a christian band MercyMe is called Bring the Rain. Well it actually rained too in the literal sense! ( is still is by the way ) This songs talks about drawing nearer to God through everything that one could ever go through if it brings them closer to Him to bring him glory.

 

 

It’s those storms, dark valleys, heartbroken days, loneliness, depression, stumbling blocks, times of crying over situations and matters of the heart that seems as if light will never come and joy will never be restored. If difficult times is what is takes to draw me, draw you closer to Him then Bring the Rain dear Lord. It’s temporary and it will not last forever. There is always something to learn during such times as this. Count it joy when you go through. God is working something new in you. Will you catch on and run with it? We are clay in the hands of The Potter.

 

What’s a little rain compared to the beauty, the everlasting change in Christ we can have if we just humble ourselves before him and let the shaping of our Lord work in us. He knows what is in our best interest and it’s His love for us that looks past and beyond our sins, our guilts and shames that we tend to hold onto when He forgave us. He took our sins to the Cross. It’s finished! It’s done! Stop holding on to the things that He has set us free of. We are in bondage no more! Be free to live for the Lord. As long as we are on this earth, we will go through some rainy days. What matters is how we handle those those days. How we react, what comes forth out of our mouths makes a difference. Praise Him through the rain! God had not forgotten about you or your circumstances! Lean not to your own understanding my friends! Bask in the Presence of the Lord! He is our joy, our sunshine, our peace. Be still and know that He is Lord!

Take the time and be STILL. Allow Jesus to speak to your heart today. See what it is that he has to say to you. As the rain falls, it brings growth and a time of change and renewal. It cleanses your heart so you can see more clearer. Take a deep breath…. let go and let God have his way in you.

~ Terra

” Father God, I ask in the name of your Son Jesus that you touch the heart of those seeking you, those looking for brighter days ahead. Give them what they need to make it another day. May Your love, strength, peace and comfort be with them in the middle of their walk. Let them know that they are not alone. You are very present in their time of need. I thank you for blessing us all and giving us a new day to make a difference in how we choose to live. May it all be for Your glory. Amen. “

Please take a listen to this song below and listen to the words. Hope it blesses you just as much as it does me.