As I was in the bed unwinding for the night, two men came across my mind. One I forgave immediately and the other……. well let’s just say that I did forgive him years ago but I swept it under the rug. I didn’t want to relive emotional pain over some words and lack of understanding and compassion I felt so many years back.
Over 25 yrs ago I was struck by a car driven by an 18 yr old driving 75 mph in a 25 mph school zone. I was at the cross walk in front of my middle school. From what I can remember and what I was told, I was knocked about 30 feet. The only thing I suffered was a broken femur. ( thigh bone ) I know it was no one but God who saved me.
I endured 2 years of being on crutches and rehabilitation to learn how to walk again between 2 surgeries. One to fix my thigh and the other to remove the plate and screws attached inside. Wow… these were the years I was just beginning as a teenager and I had a complex about my long and ugly scar.
The day of the accident, all I could think about was the good citizen who came from across the street to cover me with a blanket until the paramedics arrived and thanking God that I was alive. Nothing else mattered then. I take that back! I was wearing a brand new pair of Lee jeans and I was upset that they had to be cut open to see if any broken bones were openly present. ( excuse my way of thinking as a new teen just beginning to like fashion back in the 80’s in hope that my pants could be spared. Lol ) Between blacking out and coming to, the lingering screams I heard from friends are still with me to this day.
I never knew what happened to the guy who hit me, other than my parents taking legal action against him. Believe it or not, I had no ill feelings towards him. I wasn’t even mad at him for all the pain I endured mentally and physically. I forgave him. I was ok. It was my school principal that I had bad feelings against, all because he made an issue about the school flag coming down because of my accident.
“Are you serious?!!” I couldn’t believe that a flag had precedence over my life. Well that is how it made me feel. It hurt me bad. Oh believe me, it became a big issue enough that resulted in my mom going up to the school to address the principal.
Well to speed this up, I moved on with my life, became a Christian, asked God to forgive me of my sins and along my walk for me to forgive others I harbored unforgiveness towards. Well at least I thought I’d forgiven them all. TRULY forgiven them. Obviously I didn’t.
Needless to say, the other night I truly forgave the man who I harbored anger and unforgiveness towards. I also prayed for him hoping that his life has turned out well in general. I hope and pray he believes in God and has excepted Jesus Christ as his Lord and Savior. I also hope and pray the same for the guy who hit me. I can only hope he doesn’t have any bad feelings towards me for any repercussions he had to face for his negligence. I hope he knows that he is forgiven. My prayers for their salvation has nothing to do with me but the fact that we all have not accepted Christ into our heart. The way we live our lives until we die plays a part as to how we live this life and treat others.
We all make mistakes. We learn and forgive as well as ask for forgiveness. I thank the Lord for placing them on my heart as I chose to act in obedience to forgive immediately. No questions asked. It’s a wonderful feeling to let a wound completely heal. I had the right prescription to heal me though I didn’t realize I was still carrying the pain. Thank you Jesus!
I don’t know why I’ve taken another step in opening up my personal life but I rather be obedient than not. There has to be a reason behind this. All I can say is Thank You Lord for second chances. Thank You for awakening my heart to check under my rug that may harbor anything I have not completely given up. I want a clean temple for the Lord to reside in. My purpose is to be a light unto the world as a child of the Most High and share salvation with others. Sharing my experiences will hopefully let others see that Christians aren’t perfect, yet we strive daily to be Christlike. I’m not perfect but I’m made perfect in Him. It reminds me of why I love butterflies so much. So much is going on inside the cocoon to transform the caterpillar into a beautifull butterfly. Once the transformation takes place, it is then I can truly spread my wings and fly.
Dear friends, if you have any unforgivenness swept under a rug, pray and ask God to reveal it to you so that you will be released from anything that keeps you from being totally set free.
Bless you all on your journey to becoming a better person in the Lord.
Someone is in need of Your presence right now. I don’t know who I’m praying for but my heart and spirit is calling me to intercede on their behalf…. to stand in the gap. I cry out to You to come rescue them in their time of need. Cover them with Your love, be a hedge of protection around them, The Rock, The Fortress, a place of refuge, the mother, father, sister, brother, the friend, Comforter, their everything that they need to make it through.
Hear my plea O Lord for tears are present. Hurt, pain and grief has struck their soul, doubting and wondering how they will make it. Most Holy One, I know you can make a way out of no way. Let them know that You are with them. Your presence is near. You have not forsaken them. I plead the blood of the Lamb, I rebuke those negative spirits. They have no choice but to flee in the name of Jesus.
Thank You for hearing my prayers. My love is with those who seek You even if they are unaware that they need to call on You. Bless them and keep them safe in Your arms. Peace be still. This storm soon shall pass. In Your everlasting Name I pray. Amen.
In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. (Romans 8:26 NIV)
The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him. (Lamentations 3:25 ESV)
Wait on the Lord
For a few minutes I sat in silence shedding tears over the unknown and then started to feel some anxiety due to my concern and fear about a mammogram test I have to retake. I realize that I can’t just TALK the talk, I have to WALK it as well. I know God has me in His hands and I shouldn’t fret over anything.
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7 NKJV)
I believe He is allowing storms to come into my life to build me up. My character is developing more and more on a spiritual level. This I know. It’s just taking those storms head on and not giving way to my emotions for I should not let them rule over TRUTH. God’s Word is bond.
I stand on the promises for my life that He has already put in place for me. I refuse to let the enemy use a weakness I have to consume me. No matter what the outcome may be, I know God is with me. Thinking back to a Bible lesson my husband taught recently, the scripture verses apply to what I’m feeling and thinking at this very moment. Thank you Holy Spirit for bringing this back to my mind:
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. (Philippians 4:8, 9 NIV)
Thank you Lord for being present in my life, for You provide comfort and truth through Your Word.
17 Unless the Lord had been my help, I would soon have dwelt in [ the land where there is ] silence. 18 When I said, My foot is slipping, Your mercy and loving-kindness, O Lord, held me up. 19 In the multitude of my [ anxious ] thoughts within me, Your comforts cheer and delight my soul! ( Psalm 94:17-19 AMP)
I’m just as human as anyone else and I am wanting to continually learn and grow from my mistakes through my storms. I will never pretend to be someone I’m not. Christ knows we have emotions and as humans, we allow them to overtake us at times. Learning from the storms and being of good courage in Lord through them, will help us to overcome, walk and talk in confidence, trust and truth.
[Not in your own strength] for it is God Who is all the while effectually at work in you [energizing and creating in you the power and desire], both to will and to work for His good pleasure and satisfaction and delight. (Philippians 2:13 AMP)
Dear friends, SPEAK the Word of God in and over your lives. Death and life are in the power of the tongue. ( Proverbs 18:21 AMP ) We are given power through Christ and the Word. Use it. Encourage yourself with it. Don’t let it sit off to the side and be ineffectual. The enemy wants nothing more than to use the negative thoughts you harbor against yourself. Refer back to Philippians 4:8,9. Take back the joy and peace the evil one took from you and stand your ground in Christ.
Be careful what you think, for your thoughts become your words.
Be careful what you say, for your words becomes your actions.
Be careful what you do, for your actions become your habits.
Be careful what becomes habitual, for your habits become your destiny.
” My God, I thank You for sending Your Son down to earth in the form of Man to ultimately be a sacrifice for our sins that we would have a choice to live in freedom and salvation for eternity. I pray for others who are going through any circumstance at this time ,as it is taking a toll on them, that they would let go and let You take control and guide them into peace. Whether it’s dealing with finances, medical issues, wayward children, marriage, school, people, emotions and the list goes on….. nothing is too hard for You to handle and fix. No way is greater than Yours O God. May Your peace that surpasses all understanding of worry, fear and distress be mine, be theirs in the name of Jesus. Amen “
In honor of Breast Cancer Awareness Month and The American Cancer Society ( and all supporting foundations around the world ) I dedicate this to those going through, those who’ve physically won and lost the battle. To the families affected, I pray your strength and support as you travel down this road with them . May you hearts and trust be grounded in the Lord. He can do ANYTHING but fail.
Psalm 143:3-4 NIV
3 The enemy pursues me,
he crushes me to the ground;
he makes me dwell in the darkness
like those long dead.4 So my spirit grows faint within me; my heart within me is dismayed.
* the enemy will continue to pursue you for he knows God has great plans for your life and the work you will do for His kingdom. You ARE a threat to the enemy and his plans. Know that. He will not stop until he succeeds. Don’t allow him to destroy your inner being, to miss out on the blessings God so greatly wants you to have an enjoy as well as share with others.
* verse 5 talks about remembering the days of old; meditating on all of God’s goodness and the work of His hands.
Though we go through and deal with troubled times past and present, inner turmoil that haunt us, commit sin that we think is unforgivable ( except blasphemy against the Holy Spirit ) God doesn’t change his plans for our lives. He has placed a calling on the life of the chosen way before conception and birth took place. Your life was already written. Your sins were already known ahead of time. Do you really think that the Lord can’t use you? There is nothing that can separate you from the love of God. Take control of your thoughts, bind up those negative spirits and feelings such as fear, worry, stress, anger, generational curses, self pity, doubt, resentment, hurt, lack of faith, an unforgiving heart towards someone and turn what was meant for bad into good. Pray. Seek the Lord for wisdom, discernment, leadership, righteousness, healing and deliverance for it’s time for those shackles to come off so you can live a life of abundance and prosperity in love, freedom, peace and joy in the Lord.
Take trust in the One Who is your Rock, Strong and High Tower, Strength, your Fortress and Stedfast Love. Let go and let God. He is your Redeemer, Deliverer, refuge in the storm. He is your Shield of protection. Lay your cares and concerns at the feet of the Lord. Cry unto Him until you are set free. Let Him wipe away your tears and comfort you for the victory has been won. Just claim it and receive it. Speak life and blessings over yourself and others. Watch the Lord work on your behalf!
” Father I pray that any and all hindrances that keep your children from walking in the calling You spoke over them be broken. May those chains be shattered that freedom may reside and take place in their hearts and lives. Show them any hidden pain and unforgiveness that lies dormant, so nothing is left uncovered for healing to take it’s place. Let Your Word shine truth in their hearts and act as a beacon of hope, always knowing that there is promise in everything You say. In Jesus name. Amen
Scripture References to ponder and cling to………
Jeremiah 29:11 NIV
” For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Psalm 139:16 NIV
Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
- Free from the Strongholds of Curses (polamuzyka.wordpress.com)
- Psalm 27 (brakeman1.wordpress.com)
- Free from the Stronghold of Torment (polamuzyka.wordpress.com)
- Equipped with Armor: Staying Grounded Through Spiritual Warfare (livingsimplyinabundance.wordpress.com)
- Overcoming Fear (lightandsalvation.wordpress.com)
Sharing my thoughts and God‘s rescue…..
In regards to my memory loss the other day, God let me know that I wasn’t alone for he was with me. Though I have moments of temporary memory loss never to know what was said to me or what event even occurred ( unless someone was around me to know I wasn’t in the current moment ) His Word has been embedded in my heart and that’s something I’ll never forget.
God gave me peace and rest ( physical and spiritual ) even when I could not understand why such things happen for no reason. Scriptures were given to me for comfort and understanding. My tears of fear and anxiety turned into tears of ” Thank you Lord for blessing me, comforting me through my tears when I felt lost and alone, unable to recapture memories I’ll never know of. Thank you for Your everlasting protection before and after my seizure activity. Thank you for Your promises over my life. ”
I can’t sit, ponder and overwhelm myself with anxiety of the ” could have ” moments that never took place, though FEAR was desperately trying to consume my thoughts because God stepped in and rescued me. I was safely sitting down folding laundry not having moved from that spot. I didn’t fall down the stairs, I wasn’t cooking and a fire could have started, I wasn’t even driving….. potentially putting myself or anyone on the road at risk. So why was I really upset and shedding tears? The root of it all:
I WASN’T IN CONTROL!!
Shame on me for I know better. I’m far from perfect and the Lord knows this. I see why He stepped in and rescued me from myself and the road of mental destruction I could have caused myself that day. For by the Holy Spirit my heart was quickened with the Word and my mind shielded from negative thinking.
God didn’t bring me this far to leave me I know. I’ve been through worse times than this and he brought me out so this little situation is nothing in comparison. I’m doing much better. My boat was rocked just enough for God to say ” Hey! Just wanted to make sure you know that I’m still God and you aren’t. I want you to be aware at all times that you are to lean on Me in everything you face even when you don’t see it coming in advance. Trust Me and Me only.” So…………. okay. I hear you Lord. I know You are building me up, strengthening me, preparing me for greater things ahead. I’m fine with that. I’m past the baby stages in my walk with You. I want what You want for my life. I want to grow more and more in You, seeking you on purpose everyday for wisdom, knowledge, a greater purpose than just living on this earth.
Thank you my God for feeding my soul and spirit with the power of the Word that provides nourishment for my daily needs. My needs are greater than my wants and You provide each and every time. Thank you for giving me Your rest. No matter what’s going inside and out, deep within me Your peace and joy is there to sustain me. Righteousness goes before me, a stedfast foot to pursue holiness keeps me as I yearn to grow closer to you. My life is not my own. It belongs to You. Take me oh Lord and use me for your glory.
So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.( Isaiah 41:10 NIV)
The Lord God is my Strength, my personal bravery, and my invincible army; He makes my feet like hinds’ feet and will make me to walk [not to stand still in terror, but to walk] and make [spiritual] progress upon my high places [of trouble, suffering, or responsibility]! (Habakkuk 3:19 AMP)
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. (Isaiah 55:8 NIV)
For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, (2 Corinthians 10:4, 5 NKJV)
Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts. (Colossians 3:15, 16 NIV)
For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:17, 18 NIV)
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, whot have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28 NIV)
Are you facing any physical challenges or afflictions? Take on faith, hope, courage and patience as you wait on the Lord to see you through.
For we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now the one who has fashioned us for this very purpose is God, who has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come. Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. For we live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord. (2 Corinthians 5:1-8 NIV)
” Dear Lord, I continually thank You for being The Rock, our Foundation, The Well for the thirsty. I pray asking that we will always draw near to You and seek your face, never to grow weary in well doing even when we don’t see physical change for I know You are operating in the spirit of our beings maturing us. May we wait patiently on You, trusting and clinging to your truths, and as we wait, may the condition of our thoughts lead us to speak and act accordingly. In Jesus name ….. Amen. ”
Be blessed and strengthened in the Lord always,