It Is Well with My Soul

………… It is well with my soul.

Words cannot begin to describe the depth of my pain. Grief is something else. We’ve all experienced it at some point in our lives but the only true and faithful foundation and anchor to get through it is Jesus Christ.

You can say what you believe all day long but living it is a test of your faith.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Hebrews‬ ‭11:1‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

My day came when my dear mother left this earth to go home to be with the Lord May 3, 2018. While it was no surprise to God it took my family and I for an unexpected ride. Life came and went by so quickly in the couple weeks that I went home to see about her. Little did I know that I was going home for reasons far bigger than I could ever imagine.

“For we know that if our earthly house, this tent, is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this we groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed with our habitation which is from heaven, if indeed, having been clothed, we shall not be found naked. For we who are in this tent groan, being burdened, not because we want to be unclothed, but further clothed, that mortality may be swallowed up by life. Now He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who also has given us the Spirit as a guarantee. So we are always confident, knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord. For we walk by faith, not by sight. We are confident, yes, well pleased rather to be absent from the body and to be present with the Lord.”

‭‭II Corinthians‬ ‭5:1-8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

He was preparing me for everything that I imagined and told myself that I didn’t ever want to do.

•watch my Mother take her last breath

•do all the necessary things like paperwork to get her ready for burial

•view her body up close in preparation for her Homegoing service

•bury her beneath the Earth’s soil in the very place I dislike going to. The cemetery.

But what I fail to concentrate on (getting better at doing it) is that “for a time such as this” He had me ministering to her while she was still alive. I practically lived at the hospital for 2wks. I made it my business to pray with her and over her, read the Bible to her and to play/sing praise and worship music. I did this every day. I didn’t know she was going to die. I just knew that she needed the Word instilled in her. It’s all I know to do when facing the unexpected. God is my hope and my strength day to day. Through the good and and the not so good days.

Every time she was being taken away for a procedure she would not let anyone wheel her away until I prayed. Her hope and her faith to get through it all was in God. I take comfort in knowing that I played a part in it because of my obedience to Him. It helped my mother during the roughest experience of her life. She could have easily told me to not pray anymore, to not speak of the God who was allowing her to go through such a painful time. But I can only imagine that she understood in that time that God sat and watched his one and only Son be tortured and crucified for all of the world’s sins. There was a purpose in the temporary pain. Jesus died so that we could live. He bore our sins and our afflictions on the Cross so that we could be set free.

I went back home to my own family just to turn back around 3 days later because things turned for the worse. While I can do away with technology some days I am so happy for it’s good use. On my way to the airport my niece FaceTime me because my mother was asking for me. She ended up in ICU. It was the last time I got to see her awake. It was the last time that I knew of that she could hear me tell her that I loved her and I prayed with her. By the time I made it home and up to the hospital she wasn’t responding to my voice or squeezing my hand anymore and yet I continue to pray, read and play worship music.

I was still believing God for the unexpected and yet I was okay if He decided to take her home. While it still hurts, while the tears still fall down my face, while I grieve with such an agonizing pain in my heart it is well with my soul.

So no more pain, no more suffering, no more condemnation in those who belong to Him. Though our earthly bodies will suffer it’s temporary. We all will leave this life in some way but in Him we take confidence that all will be made new in heaven. This is my confidence. This I hold to be true because God my Father who holds the world in his hands holds me and he holds you too. He will see us through.

This trying time could have made me turn my back on God but it didn’t. It helped me get through the darkest day of my life that I’ve experienced so far. For all that I’ve learned and read and lived on this Christian journey it has become even more real when facing such a hardship. Losing a parent is a hard pill to swallow. They played a part into you coming into this world.

I can only tell you my friend what got me through and is still getting me over the waves of grief that consume me at times. Faith, hope, and prayer. Jesus was right there crying with me and my family. He was right there as my mother went through so much pain until she made her transition from this life to her eternal home. He knows our pain and he knows our struggles personally. He lived it and because He trusted his Father we can do the same thing. It’s a choice.

It is well with my soul because I know that God is faithful and true. He is the God who cannot lie and keeps His promises. This is my story… this is my experience of going through the valley. The key word is through. A friend shared that with me. It’s not a permanent destination. We are passing by and through with expectancy to come out.

I can only hope and pray that my words no matter how the flow of sharing differs from my other posts touches your heart and brings some sense of peace and encouragement if you’ve lost a loved one or come at a time when you will experience it. It’s taken me while to write. I’ve started and stopped. Deleted and tried to ignore and avoid. Grief goes deep but if sharing helps someone else I want to fight through it, wipe my tears away and type. This is where I am and this is my truth.

Be blessed, be encouraged and keep hope even when it seems like it’s fading. God can do all things but fail.

~ Terra

“Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.””

‭‭Deuteronomy‬ ‭31:6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

* the song Even If by MercyMe connected to my heart before I knew what was about to take place. I don’t believe in coincidence. I believe that God orchestrated it. All of it. How can I not thank Him for it. Even through pain and loss He has a plan.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”

‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11-13‬ ‭NIV‬‬

http://bible.com/111/jer.29.11-13.niv

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Happy Blessed New Year 2018

May the hand of the Lord rest upon you, bless you, strengthen and bless you in abundance. May your health become better, your mind become sharper, your heart become stronger and filled with more love and peace and less with stress. You’ve been BLESSED to see a new day… a new YEAR! Take care of yourself, love on others more and extend a helping hand to those less fortunate however it may be. From my heart to yours I pray this new year is prosperous and full of joy. Peace and safety for the path that your foot follows. Guidance and light toward what is good for you mentally, physically and spiritually. 


In Christ, 

Terra 

Birth, Blessings, Wisdom & Friendship 

​For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother’s womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as  yet  there  were none of them. How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand; When I awake, I am still with You. Psalms 139:13-18 NKJV

Two days ago was my birthday. Yup. September 6th… 

Another day to be a little wiser, a little stronger, more loving and thankful. Another day to live the life created for me by my heavenly Father. 

Staying awake until midnight to pray and thank the Father for many things before catching some zzz’s, a peace came over me as I pondered about this life of mine. Getting older and growing wiser isn’t a bad thing. In society we tend to focus on particular numbers when we celebrate a birthday and anniversary but what’s really wrong with the in between numbers?

Nothing. Nothing at all. 

Life can pass us by if we wait to have celebratory times to cherish based upon a particular year or age to do so. What if that day never comes? I pose this question because of a comment made to me. Not that I took offense to it but it just made me think.

“Why not celebrate where I am in life, why not make a big deal to be age __?” 

My Father has counted every hair on my head and has ordered my steps before my life came to be so why not celebrate today each day that I’m given because tomorrow isn’t promised to no one.

Just think about that for a minute.

As a believer and lover of Christ Jesus my Lord and Savior my life is not my own. It is He who lives within me. I am to live this life for Him, to love others and be a light. I’m a wife, mother, daughter and friend. I want my days on this Earth to reflect my life in Him.
Am I living to my fullest potential? Are you? Some of us may feel or believe that we are at the peak of success or have reached a plateau or even still climbing from the bottom but what does it really matter if it’s not done in Christ giving glory and honor and loving with all of our heart, mind, body, soul and strength. What has one hand extended to do for another in His name that wasn’t about you? I have asked myself these questions just as well. 

Daily I desire to be all that I can be in Jesus. I work some days with more emphasis than others but my goal.. my mindset is set on reaching hearts for Him all across the globe. It’s set on being an obedient daughter of His, the wife, mother, neighbor and friend who models the life of the One who chose me and gave me life. Not just my earthly life but most importantly my spiritual life for without Him I am nothing. I am ineffective. I’m suppose to be the hands and feet of Jesus. So when I leave this world at whatever age that may be I pray that what I have left behind is a life worthy of Him that others will want to live the same. 

I’m not here to follow the ways of the world and place a higher regard to what society thinks and feels. This life has a constant measure that changes like a shifting of the wind. The emotions of humans sway one moment to the next. One thing is valued more than the other. It’s not like that with God my Father. His weights and scales are not the same. What’s important to Him is not on the same level of us. 

With that said  I want to see with His eyes, love like Him, allow what’s important to Him to be important to me. Yes life will throw curve balls but I want to celebrate my life in the now, rejoice in the fact, the known Truth that He got me. There’s nothing that comes my way that the Lord has not already taken care of. So I thank Him for the years I’ve seen so far, the wisdom gained, the blessings given and the friendships along the way that steer me in the right direction. 

I encourage you to live and love your life today. Celebrate the husband/wife/children you have been given. You are here today. There is a reason for it. Those ‘golden years’ that society has deemed a day of celebration or that year that it’s okay to party it up because your the age __ may never come. Life can be golden now. Today. Simply because you have Jesus. 

Today the Father has blessed you with life, given you the Son that’s the best gift ever and the Holy Spirit to lead and guide you through this life. Nothing can be more grand. 

God bless you on your path. Be thankful along the way for He’s been good to you more than you’ll ever realize. 

Good Morning Beautiful People!

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This is the day that the Lord has made. Let us rejoice and be glad in it! Happy Monday one and all. Today may not look like you want it to but remember that your steps are ordered by the Lord all you who belong to Him. Not one step, word or thought has been missed by Him. Not everyone has made it to see a new day but YOU have. Take heart beloved! Look to the Lord of our salvation and ask Him to plan out your day. Someone is standing in the need of prayer, a blessing, a hug and a kind smile. You have more to offer than you know. Be blessed and be a blessing! ❤🙏

Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. Let each of you look out not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others.

Philippians 2:3-4 NKJV

Life Withers and Issues Fade Except The Word of God

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The Lord is Everywhere

I Peter 1:22-25 NKJV

Since you have purified your souls in obeying the truth through the Spirit in sincere love of the brethren, love one another fervently with a pure heart, having been born again, not of corruptible seed but incorruptible, through the word of God which lives and abides forever, because “All flesh is as grass, And all the glory of man as the flower of the grass. The grass withers, And its flower falls away, But the word of the Lord endures forever.” Now this is the word which by the gospel was preached to you.

Do we recognize that God is everywhere and in all things? He is the Creator of heaven and earth and all things in it.

This morning when I was reading a devotional plan that I follow on YouVersion called “Now Is The Time: Acts Adult Journey” today’s devotional sat a little deep with me today. It really gave me a lot to think about.

Do our words and actions seem fit for the Holy One that surrounds us? The scripture for this Bible reading was Acts chapter 7. (Stephen was stoned to death for speaking truth.) At the end of the reading a reflection and respond was posed:

REFLECT :

Where do you think God dwells? In church buildings or in the whole universe—including the places where you live, labor, or enjoy leisure? Can we feel God’s presence everywhere? Can we be faithful anywhere?

RESPOND:

Ask God to help you acknowledge him wherever you are, and to be faithful to him. In four different places today, thank God that it is his space—God’s Personal Space (GPS). You do not need to close your eyes to tell him. Take a moment to share this divine experience with others!

Gracious God, thank you that my family, friends, and I are all in your personal space. Please help me to know your personal presence – your GPS – as did Abraham, Joseph, Moses, David, Stephen and so many other men and women.

While I was beginning to feel some kind of way as my morning progressed I went outside to pull weeds. ( I tend do a lot of thinking outdoors for various reasons and to also capture a pic of a butterfly if possible ) Anyways, I walked up the driveway to clean out another flower bed and noticed an overgrown lawn since the neighbors moved out. The real estate company has not been by to maintain the grass. I digress.

The pretty yellow and tall standing dandelions setting against the sky……..

Amazing

Breathtaking

GOD IS IN EVERYTHING.

His presence surrounds me and I’m feeling it in this very moment. It washes away the thoughts of things bothering me. Loving that sibling in the Lord that’s hard to love, putting another kid through college this coming fall as well as accepting the fact that my nest of 5 children will go down to 3, the heartache I bear of knowing that my very best friend lost her mother over the weekend and the list goes on and on.

“The grass withers, the flower fades, But the word of our God stands forever.”

Life changes in some shape or form but God never does and neither does His Word. I can take hold of that and stand firm because it’s true. If I love and trust the Lord with all my heart and all my soul and all my mind and all my strength then I can follow through accordingly with all things. He’s there with me.

He’s present. Right here with me. And you.

Dear friends,  do you feel the presence of the Lord here with you today? Just take a look around and see Him. He’s there. How worthy He is to acknowledge and spend time with. God bless each and every heart this day.  I pray that you are encouraged today in some way. I know that I am.

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart Be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord , my strength and my Redeemer. Psalm 19:14

Blessings in the Butterfly

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Quote credit: Power of the Same

Oh how blessed we are when the Lord leads us. When we take self out of the equation and realize that everything is about Him, things will become less complicated. To Christ we give the glory and honor. To Him we give the praise. Our lives are transformed day to day because He lives within us. I know no one who is in the business of transforming lives greater than Christ Jesus. Butterflies fly great distances when their mission serves a purpose.

My dearest brothers and sisters reading this, I encourage you to examine your heart day to day and see what it is that the Lord has for you to do. I will be doing this myself. As humans our flesh craves to be selfish… to do what we want to say and do. It’s natural but it’s not right especially when we belong to Jesus. We don’t belong to ourselves. We belong to Him so our thoughts and desires should align with his will and his purpose.

We are new creatures. We should be dying to self daily. I love butterflies more than you could ever know for various reasons. But when I think about them in the context of my life in Christ, I am changed.
I am transformed.

I am able to bloom, fly and do all that I am empowered to say and do because He’s given me a brand new life. My life song is  different. It should be different. Yours should be also. So let us shift our thought process. What we do should not be of greater concern than Who is leading us. We would not be able to do what we do or be affective in the way that we are without Him. Remember that our life and what we do is not about us. It’s all about Jesus.

“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2

Butterfly blessings,
Terra

Merry Christmas to All!

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From inside my door I have captured so many great memories, revelations, blessings and friendships.  It’s because of YOU my dear readers from all across the world.  I thank you for your support, love, prayers and encouragement over the year. God surely has blessed me time and time again!

I want to wish you all a Merry Christmas in the name of the Father, Son and Holy Spirit as we reflect on the reason why we celebrate this time of year!! I pray that you and yours enter into a New Year growing more and more intimate with He who has done more than we could ever grasp in a lifetime.

Continue to walk and talk in love, build one another up and serve with a whole heart filled with gratitude as if doing unto the Lord always. Seek His heart and ways that it will be edifying to the Kingdom. May His mercy and grace be with you, His peace and joy reside within yet shine out for the entire world to see! Be that light set up on a hill and tell those who will listen what the Lord has done in your life!

With love, prayers and encouragement I extend to you all so graciously in Christ our King,

Terra

For unto us a Child is born, Unto us a Son is given; And the government will be upon His shoulder. And His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace. (Isaiah 9:6 NKJV)