Order My Steps Dear Lord

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Many plans are in a man’s mind, but it is the Lord’s purpose for him that will stand. (Proverbs 19:21 AMP)

Let’s go back back in time…a little before 1991, the year I graduated from high school.

I grew up not really knowing the Lord with a solid foundation though I had a taste of going to church and seeing what a bit of it was about.

I had this desire in my heart when I was just a kid (around 10yrs old) to want to live my life for God even though I did not know where, why or how I came to feel the way I did. I even said to myself that I wanted to become a Nun! Little did I know about them, but I knew that they dedicated their lives to serving Him. I went to a Baptist church at the time I believe, so I’m sure I would have surprised them had I asked about becoming a Sister. ( Nun )

I use to dream about one day getting married to this Christian man and our first child was going to be a baby girl. We were always sitting in the pews holding her and listening to the sermon.

I never been to the beach my entire life growing up, but I knew that I wanted to get married on the beach. To a military guy at that. The whole nine yards! Yeah you can say that I was very descriptive as to what I wanted. My friends from high school said I always talked about wanting to have 10 kids. I STILL don’t recall saying that but I always knew that I wanted a lot of children.

Where in the world did all these thoughts come from?!!

For years I dreamed this same dream…. never to see the face of the man I was to marry. He was just a shadow image. Nothing else.

As prissy as I was (I still am by the way) who’d think that I would go off to the Army. My mom could barely get me to do the dishes without wearing gloves simply because I didn’t want to mess up my nail polish! I was respectful and all, I just thought things would work better with protected hands!

Anyway, a year passed after I graduated and l joined the U.S. Army. I signed my John Hancock on the dotted line, raised my hand in oath and before you knew it, this little Ohio girl was off to start her life. Little did I know, the life and career path I chose for myself would ultimately change a couple years later. I met my future husband, we both attended church together with the desire to live for Christ, fell in love and talked about our future.

Everything about my life I wanted and desired, I wanted the Lord to be the head of it. I wanted his perfect will. I remember praying and telling the Lord that I loved Tim and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him BUT if he was not the man for me then I would not marry him as hard as I know it would be to let him go, I would give up my desire and plans just to have his ( God’s ) perfect plan for my life.

As a couple, we waited to hear from the Lord. It was His will that we be joined together as man and wife, it was His will that I was to not re-enlist and commit more years to serving my country as a soldier, it was His will that I become a mother to 6 children and be a stay at home mom while my husband be the sole provider and head of household not just as a man, but a God fearing man who would lead his family in the way God planned him to.

Me becoming a wife, a MOTHER to many when my doctor told me as a teenager that I would likely be infertile and not be able to have children was a dream come true! My heart, my desires, my prayers, my direction wanted to be aligned with the Lords even before I knew him personally.

Man says one thing but the Lord has the final say. My stair-step children are proof that God is ABLE! Though I never worried as a teen, I just knew that I was going to give birth to children one day after I married. No one could tell me any different. It was a confidence and assurance of faith.

As I sat in the car this morning, I began to write this inspiration while waiting for the school doors to open up while looking at my kids as they laughed and talked.

I am where I am suppose to be.

This feels really good to know that I have not totally gone off of my own GPS over the years, but that of the Lord’s. We can never go wrong if we truly want our lives to be successful. The road is long and the journey isn’t always foreseen, but God sees it all. Past. Present. Future.

It’s not about the educational degrees, the finer things in life, the status quo of this world that makes me successful or complete. It’s not even about being married and have children though all the listed above are great blessings, it’s about being a child of The Most High. To have salvation, to live my life serving Him and doing His will until I am called home is the greatest gift I could ever receive. I am complete in God as long as I have Him.

Well I believe I am done right about now. Just thought I would share with you all a bit about my life and the musings that run through my head every now and then.

To God be the glory. I am thankful for another day of life. Speaking of His goodness can go on and on if its the Lord’s will that I see another breath, but if not…my thoughts, prayers and writings are found throughout this blog.

Be blessed and thankful for the small things. Look to God and ask Him to search your heart. Let Him make you over.

Let’s Order Our Steps In The Lord.

In Christ with love,
Terra

Delight yourself also in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart. (Psalm 37:4 NKJV)

“O Lord, You have searched me and known me. You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off. You comprehend my path and my lying down, And are acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word on my tongue, But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether. You have hedged me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is high, I cannot attain it. Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence? If I ascend into heaven, You are there; If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there. If I take the wings of the morning, And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, Even there Your hand shall lead me, And Your right hand shall hold me. If I say, Surely the darkness shall fall on me, Even the night shall be light about me; Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You, But the night shines as the day; The darkness and the light are both alike to You. For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mothers womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them. How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand; When I awake, I am still with You.” (Psalm 139:1-18 NKJV)

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❤Sending You a Love Letter❤

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So who says that I have to know you to love you?!!

Dear Beloved,

I know we are kinda strangers and all….but I have such a love for you that it’s not on the normal side of this life!

God placed this love deep down within me.

I find myself thinking about you, praying for you and even shedding tears. I rejoice with you when you have good news to share and my heart mourns with you when you are sad. I ask myself what is it about you that draws me near.

“Terra, why on earth do you spend time thinking about people in the midnight hour when you could be sleeping? What about when you could just be relaxing and having some Me, Myself and I time?!!” Have you considered your agenda that’s already filled to the max? ( yes I talk to myself in my head of course! )

These are a few of the questions I ask myself and the answer is JESUS.

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You are such a precious and valuable treasure that the Lord loves! I can love you because he loved me first. I sit and wonder how your life is going, wondering if there is anything I can say or do to be a friend, a comforter, a shoulder to cry on or just be an ear to listen and hear you out. I pray for your family and your circumstances. I often pray for your salvation and your wellbeing. You name it and I’ve likely already prayed about it or it’s going to be prayed about.

When you come to mind, I can’t help but ask the Lord to meet your needs. I am so curious about you that I inquire of Him things that I can do as His vessel to be of service to you. I thank the Holy Spirit for guidance. I can’t do much without the greatest GPS to lead me. God is so good.

There is nothing I expect from you in return. It blesses my heart to bless you. Lord knows that I want the best for you and your family. I pray, asking that your life is blessed, that a hedge of protection surrounds you and that every thing you do that is of good standing with the Lord prospers.

Be filled with love, joy, hope and faith!

Beloved, just know that someone in this world loves you even if you think you aren’t loved or deserving of it. God loves you more than anyone on this earth and will never leave you.

Don’t turn your back on Love. God is the Master of Unconditional Love. I can’t love you quite like Him but with all that I have that’s been poured into my soul, I share with you. He gifts me with many blessings that I can’t help but pour back out to you.

Love never stops giving even if you try to fight it. Jesus Christ is the greatest example of Love. I want to be more like him each and every day. May my love and light shine that you will see it and receive it.

Hold on to your faith, cling heavily to the hem of Christ, be stedfast and immovable when life gets rocky. Call on the name of the Lord and he will come to you. Ask Him into your life if you have never met him. Repent and receive. He will welcome you with open arms.

I stand in hope that you are doing well today. I love you and I’m praying for you. If you need me, I’m not too hard to find.

Sincerely,
Terra

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The Lord your God in your midst, The Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing. (Zephaniah 3:17 NKJV)

Following Directions: Just whose GPS are you using anyway?!!

I can’t begin to tell you how good God is. Just when we think we can get over a little bit…… NOPE! He will surely put us in our place. Sometimes His discipline may seem harsh but it is done in a loving way and it is for our own good. Trust and believe that I know this. Am I hardheaded? Yes I am and I know I’m not the only one out there who isn’t. Am I trying to become less of that way? Sure! Nothing happens overnight, but putting myself in a position to let God pilot ALONE seems to work much better. He seriously does not need a co-pilot at all!!

When we come to a time of rest on our journey the mode of prayer, reflection and regrouping seems to come into play. We know what we want to do and where we want to go spiritually but it all should be carefully sought after with guidance of the Holy Spirit, taking none of our own decisions into account because we will likely end up in a ditch somewhere waiting for a tow truck to come pull us out. So the question we should ask ourselves  is “Just whose GPS are we using, God’s or our own?” To follow our own will ( directions ) most likely will put us back at the beginning of our journey in some form. We tend to think with our own thoughts and feelings. We begin to sway back and forth as to what to do, which way seems easier and will get us to our destination the fastest all the while, we are just setting ourselves up to become frustrated and without peace in our heart. To follow God’s will, that path is straight leading us in the right direction the entire time WITH peace. In Colossians 3:15 it says ” And let the peace (soul harmony which comes) from Christ rule (act as umpire continually) in your hearts [deciding and settling with finality all questions that arise in your minds,in that peaceful state] to which as [members of Christ’s] one body you were also called [to live]. And be thankful (appreciative), [giving praise to God always].

With this personal lesson learned once again, I really need to slow down more and think before I take any action. I thank God for coming to my rescue. He saved me from myself, the stress I was putting myself under and got me back on track. Did I learn something from this? You best believe I did because I hit a pothole big enough to wake me up out of the lane I was traveling in. You too can learn from my lesson if you haven’t already. There is always room for growth in us all. When we make a mistake, admit it and ask God to get us back on course. His GPS works sooooo much better!

My prayer for us both is that we allow God to set our course before us and that we are willing to be compliant. May our hearts and minds be set on Him and all that he has for us leaving no room to be co-pilots on our journey in this life that we live. Obedience is a key factor to moving in the right direction. May the grace of the Most High be enough for us as we realize that he is God and we are not. We don’t deserve but the love shown and given should be appreciated. He’s brought us a mighty long way and He isn’t done with us yet.

Blessings to you in the name of Christ our Risen Savior……..