A Time to Remember

When sorrow is sitting heavily on your chest and you ask the Lord how much longer and why He’s allowed you to experience such heartache and pain….

Remember when you were carried through prior sorrows. Sorrow and grief won’t look the same or last the exact amount of time but remember that He carried you. He never left you alone.

Memories and dreams will come that seemingly put you back at square one but remember. God carried you before and He’ll do it again. He’s faithful to the end. He’s a God that cannot lie.

Remember that all things work for our good. God’s reasons and plans are greater than our temporary pain and our understanding that cannot be matched to His. (Romans 8:28, Isaiah 55:8:9)

Keep the faith, keep believing and don’t doubt. Won’t He do it? Yes He will.

Do you remember?

“I will lift up my eyes to the hills— From whence comes my help? My help comes from the LORD, Who made heaven and earth. He will not allow your foot to be moved; He who keeps you will not slumber. Behold, He who keeps Israel Shall neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD is your keeper; The LORD is your shade at your right hand. The sun shall not strike you by day, Nor the moon by night. The LORD shall preserve you from all evil; He shall preserve your soul. The LORD shall preserve your going out and your coming in From this time forth, and even forevermore.”

Psalms 121:1-8 NKJV

I’m Not a Writer or Runner. Am I??

“My heart is overflowing with a good theme; I recite my composition concerning the King; My tongue is the pen of a ready writer.”
Psalms 45:1 NKJV
https://www.bible.com/114/psa.45.1.nkjv

I’m not a writer or runner… but I have something to say and somewhere to go.

Some years ago I gave in to God’s plan to write. To blog. To reach and encourage the nations. It wasn’t my plan but I jumped in with both feet to make it happen. Eventually with both feet to be quite honest because I never heard of a blog nor did I have a desire to write anything past a line or two regarding my thoughts for the people who took time to read. 

And let’s talk about this running thing. Yeah. Umm hmm. I’m not one of those either. But I got somewhere I’m trying to go. Mentally, physically and spiritually. 

“I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 3:14 NKJV

“Don’t you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! All athletes are disciplined in their training. They do it to win a prize that will fade away, but we do it for an eternal prize. So I run with purpose in every step. I am not just shadowboxing. I discipline my body like an athlete, training it to do what it should. Otherwise, I fear that after preaching to others I myself might be disqualified.”
1 Corinthians 9:24-27 NLT

I’m not a writer or runner. Or so I think I’m not and yet here I am. Still writing and running for the Lord. I felt like I wanted to kinda toss the blog aside… maybe even delete it. (Girl are you crazy?!!) I wanted to slow down my run but it doesn’t feel right slowing down or simply stopping in the middle. 

Grief grabbed a hold of me in such a way that’s it’s a struggle some days. So if you didn’t know I’ll catch you up . May 3,2018 my Mom went home to be with the Lord. No more cancer to fight. No more. Not ever again. I told God that I was okay with Him taking her because she belonged to Him and knowing that she had salvation which is a key factor for all of our eternity she would be in good hands. 

With that said it still hurt. It still pains my heart to know she’s not here with me. I can’t call her to talk or laugh or even make trips to visit one another. But I know that she would not be happy if she knew that I stopped writing and running. She knew that there was always something special about me as she used to say. She knew I had a desire to uplift hearts and share Jesus in some type of way. I digress. Forgive me.
I say that I’m not a writer or runner but God knew me and his plans for me before my conception. I really need to pause more often and think about this when my low days strike. “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 NIV


More important than how my mother saw me is how God sees me and loves me and how there is still purpose in and through my pain even in such a season that I endure. I don’t want to stand still as if in stagnant water. It does me no good. I was sitting in church service yesterday and some things that were said struck me and I really must be proactive about change even when I don’t feel like or it doesn’t feel good. 

Life happens and it will continue to do so bringing the highs and the lows, the good and the bad and the unimaginable. But God… 
He is faithful and just and I can testify to that even in one of the darkest times of my life. I still trust Him and I keep hope even when I can’t see what lies ahead. It’s just hard pushing ahead for me at times. Oh and laziness plays a factor too for me. Just keeping it real. (sigh) 

So if you’ve been with me a while I appreciate you hanging in there and bearing with me. If we are new to one another here on the blog I say Welcome and I thank you for stopping by and taking time to read. It’s still my heart’s desire to pray and encourage all that I meet along the way. My writing and running may be different by my heart is still the same. The leading of the Holy Spirit goes before me so I can never take credit. I am just a vessel wanting to be used to bless others. 

I pray that whatever it is that you may be facing that you will begin to know that the Lord will be with you if you allow Him to be. He will get you through it all. I am still seeing it for myself and I can testify that He is still moving in my life and of those I have met /prayed for. Today isn’t over. Keep hope and faith even when you don’t see evidence of change. It’s coming. 

Warmest thoughts, prayers and love in Christ Jesus for you beloved one. Take care,
Terra 
🦋Writer, Runner, Child of God, Wife, Mother & Friend🦋






Made to Crave: Praise the Lord

I was made to praise Him. I crave to praise Him even when my flesh doesn’t want to.
For by Him all things were created that are in heaven and that are on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or dominions or principalities or powers. All things were created through Him and for Him.”
‭‭Colossians‬ ‭1:16‬ ‭NKJV‬‬
The world is forever changing but God remains the same. I wasn’t sure how life was going to be after my Mom passed away. May 3rd it will be the 1yr anniversary of her going home to the Lord. I can say that I’m still grieving and yet relieved that I’m not in a deep pit of  emotional pain because I have my God to hold on to when the wave of emotions hit me.
I honestly can’t say where’d I be if I hadn’t had the Lord by my side. I don’t know how anyone makes it without Him. Not just during the good times but definitely through the bad.

“Lord help us to seek Your face. Help us to crave the praise that you are worthy of receiving.

Some days I feel like a thread unraveling all the while trying to keep it together thinking on the positive. To think of Jesus and the message of the Cross it’s as if I can see and feel the fibers of my being connecting again. They are broken and busted. Just loose. Heaviness from the weight of affliction has caused me to feel and think that it’s hard to get my life back together. Some of those thoughts are mine and I believe the enemy plays a part in trying to keep me suppressed.

Have you ever felt that way? Is this a season you are currently experiencing? Know that you are not alone. Jesus knows our pain more than anyone. Knowing this I take heart because I know that He is faithful and true and I believe that He will see us through our valleys. (the keyword is through) He saw me through the worse pain I have yet to see and experience. And what seems kinda weird is that when I left my hometown after 2wks to go back to my own home is that I couldn’t wait to get back to my church… to be amongst the saints in corporate worship praising God. I sought God whilst I was home caring for my mother in the hospital, praying for her daily, reading her the Word while she was awake and sleeping and singing praises to Him. Even in the mist of the unknown and unforeseen I craved to praise Him. I did so not just to have Him hear my prayers and answer them but simply because He’s God.

Over the course of a year I’ve cried much, laughed often and sat in remembrance of many things. I’m still here. I made it! God was with me and he still is. My eyes well up with tears right now. It’s that joy that the world can’t steal from me. The Lord has still been faithful and has not left me when the nights become hard but oh I can rise up and praise Him because sweet joy has come in the morning! Life happens. We can’t stop it but we have an assurance to make it day to day with Him if we just lean into his arms and allow him to do what he does best.

I’ve made it (I still am) and I know you can too. Don’t give up on Him. Continue to seek to praise and glorify the Name that’s above all names. Stay hungry. Crave praise and watch what happens.

“Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭34:8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

Faith Persevering in Trial

“I waited patiently for the LORD; And He inclined to me, And heard my cry. He also brought me up out of a horrible pit, Out of the miry clay, And set my feet upon a rock, And established my steps. He has put a new song in my mouth— Praise to our God; Many will see it and fear, And will trust in the LORD. Blessed is that man who makes the LORD his trust, And does not respect the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies. Many, O LORD my God, are Your wonderful works Which You have done; And Your thoughts toward us Cannot be recounted to You in order; If I would declare and speak of them, They are more than can be numbered. Sacrifice and offering You did not desire; My ears You have opened. Burnt offering and sin offering You did not require. Then I said, “Behold, I come; In the scroll of the book it is written of me. I delight to do Your will, O my God, And Your law is within my heart.” I have proclaimed the good news of righteousness In the great assembly; Indeed, I do not restrain my lips, O LORD, You Yourself know. I have not hidden Your righteousness within my heart; I have declared Your faithfulness and Your salvation; I have not concealed Your lovingkindness and Your truth From the great assembly. Do not withhold Your tender mercies from me, O LORD; Let Your lovingkindness and Your truth continually preserve me. For innumerable evils have surrounded me; My iniquities have overtaken me, so that I am not able to look up; They are more than the hairs of my head; Therefore my heart fails me. Be pleased, O LORD, to deliver me; O LORD, make haste to help me! Let them be ashamed and brought to mutual confusion Who seek to destroy my life; Let them be driven backward and brought to dishonor Who wish me evil. Let them be confounded because of their shame, Who say to me, “Aha, aha!” Let all those who seek You rejoice and be glad in You; Let such as love Your salvation say continually, “The LORD be magnified!” But I am poor and needy; Yet the LORD thinks upon me. You are my help and my deliverer; Do not delay, O my God.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭40:1-17‬ ‭NKJV‬‬
https://www.bible.com/114/psa.40.1-17.nkjv

Through the Pain Lift Him Up

For every sunset there’s a sunrise coming up

Hey there beloved one that’s going through some stuff. How are you today? Maybe you’re saying “I’m just making it/ I am getting by/I am not doing well. I don’t know how I will go on.” Maybe you are just silent. Like me. You just don’t know what to say. But then again if you catch me on a good day and I am thinking clearly I will tell you with a smile that all is well not realizing that I’m still making it, I’m still hoping, still keeping the faith in the Almighty God, still loving others praying them through their situations whatever it may be to include losing a loved one. I can’t keep silent always. He’s all I know and all I trust to believe in to get through every single day that I face.

Grief sucks. Mourning a loved one takes time. There is no timeline. At least that’s what I hear. All of this is new to me. BUT GOD..

He’s getting me through every last emotion and thought that I face since losing my Mom. It’s been almost 6mo and yet it feels like the very day she took her last breath. My chest is literally hurting as I reflect in this moment. Geez. (still going to keep typing no matter what). Through the pain lift Him up. I’m talking about my Jesus. May He be glorified always whether it’s a good day or a bad day.

It’s been a rough few days mentally. Trying to figure out what to do, how do I get back into what I was called to do. Write and encourage. The flesh side couldn’t figure it out. Praying and talking to God having honest moments with Him. It’s not that I didn’t want to write though I’ll admit that I can procrastinate. A lot. Bad habit. Sorry. Grief just wasn’t on my list of things to talk about.

Little by little I’ve received the Word here and there in various ways. The final megaphone moment was through a friend. The Lord allowed me to dream about her in the most simple way. Her daughter was eating a Pop Tart or something as we sat outside in her yard talking it up with laughter. Weird dream but it’s true. That dream turned into me saying that I was going to call her. I got busy and guess what? She called me! The Lord works in mysterious ways I know but He has to be like “Ok Terra, I’m going to speak a little louder for you to know that I hear you. I’ve been hearing you but I’ll make it a bit clearer.”

Long story short, talking with my Sister in Christ, my military connected friend for at least 10yrs now brought clarity to my funk/my stuck in the mud spot that I couldn’t figure out. The Lord gave her what to say to me whether she realized that she was calling me for more than what she thought she was. She lifted my spirits as only she can do by loving me, listening to me, giving me the Word, sharing her experiences, making me laugh all without a cup of tea or sitting physically in each other’s face. A phone call goes a long way. It really does.

Colossians 3:16“Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord.”

“Write what you know. Glorify God for that is what we are here for.” Not her exact words but you follow what I’m saying I believe. She gave me a bunch of nugget truths yesterday that I cannot quote exactly but my heart is filled to the overflow. I can write about what I know. I should not quench the Holy Spirit when I know what I had already been receiving yet wanting to play “Let’s Make a Deal”. My way doesn’t work. This I know but I didn’t want to write about it. I didn’t want to talk about my pain no more than what I last wrote about. I just didn’t want to face the truth. Not then. Not on days that I felt good. I simply wanted to keep silent. I didn’t want weakness to consume through my writings though I knew it could help someone else.

I had to repent right then and there. I was in my feelings but I truly thank the Lord for patience, love and mercy. He saw my pain, met my needs right where I was. But I had to relinquish my hold. Free fall into His arms. This new season is foreign to me. But if I want to be set free completely I have to do what I know to be true because His Word is love and light and I believe it. I know I can draw strength from it. You can too.

“but He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you [My lovingkindness and My mercy are more than enough–always available–regardless of the situation]; for [My] power is being perfected [and is completed and shows itself most effectively] in [your] weakness.” Therefore, I will all the more gladly boast in my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ [may completely enfold me and] may dwell in me. So I am well pleased with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, and with difficulties, for the sake of Christ; for when I am weak [in human strength], then I am strong [truly able, truly powerful, truly drawing from God’s strength].”

‭‭2 CORINTHIANS‬ ‭12:9-10‬ ‭AMP‬‬

(sigh) Well my friend I hope my thoughts, words of encouragement by sharing truths in the Lord can help you in some type of way. Jesus is all I know. I said it before and I’ll keep saying. I’ll keep lifting Him up , praising Him and magnifying His Name that’s above all names. Through the pain you will get through it. I know that I am.

Grief sucks. And yet I still move on. You can too. I’ll be praying for you. No matter how far across this earth you may from me God hears prayers near and far and will answer. He’s faithful and never changing. He’s loving, patient and kind. Give Him your cares and concerns and most of all your heart. You will see just how good He is. There’s always a bigger picture than what we see.

God bless you,

Terra 💕🦋

It Is Well with My Soul

………… It is well with my soul.

Words cannot begin to describe the depth of my pain. Grief is something else. We’ve all experienced it at some point in our lives but the only true and faithful foundation and anchor to get through it is Jesus Christ.

You can say what you believe all day long but living it is a test of your faith.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Hebrews‬ ‭11:1‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

My day came when my dear mother left this earth to go home to be with the Lord May 3, 2018. While it was no surprise to God it took my family and I for an unexpected ride. Life came and went by so quickly in the couple weeks that I went home to see about her. Little did I know that I was going home for reasons far bigger than I could ever imagine.

“For we know that if our earthly house, this tent, is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this we groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed with our habitation which is from heaven, if indeed, having been clothed, we shall not be found naked. For we who are in this tent groan, being burdened, not because we want to be unclothed, but further clothed, that mortality may be swallowed up by life. Now He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who also has given us the Spirit as a guarantee. So we are always confident, knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord. For we walk by faith, not by sight. We are confident, yes, well pleased rather to be absent from the body and to be present with the Lord.”

‭‭II Corinthians‬ ‭5:1-8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

He was preparing me for everything that I imagined and told myself that I didn’t ever want to do.

•watch my Mother take her last breath

•do all the necessary things like paperwork to get her ready for burial

•view her body up close in preparation for her Homegoing service

•bury her beneath the Earth’s soil in the very place I dislike going to. The cemetery.

But what I fail to concentrate on (getting better at doing it) is that “for a time such as this” He had me ministering to her while she was still alive. I practically lived at the hospital for 2wks. I made it my business to pray with her and over her, read the Bible to her and to play/sing praise and worship music. I did this every day. I didn’t know she was going to die. I just knew that she needed the Word instilled in her. It’s all I know to do when facing the unexpected. God is my hope and my strength day to day. Through the good and and the not so good days.

Every time she was being taken away for a procedure she would not let anyone wheel her away until I prayed. Her hope and her faith to get through it all was in God. I take comfort in knowing that I played a part in it because of my obedience to Him. It helped my mother during the roughest experience of her life. She could have easily told me to not pray anymore, to not speak of the God who was allowing her to go through such a painful time. But I can only imagine that she understood in that time that God sat and watched his one and only Son be tortured and crucified for all of the world’s sins. There was a purpose in the temporary pain. Jesus died so that we could live. He bore our sins and our afflictions on the Cross so that we could be set free.

I went back home to my own family just to turn back around 3 days later because things turned for the worse. While I can do away with technology some days I am so happy for it’s good use. On my way to the airport my niece FaceTime me because my mother was asking for me. She ended up in ICU. It was the last time I got to see her awake. It was the last time that I knew of that she could hear me tell her that I loved her and I prayed with her. By the time I made it home and up to the hospital she wasn’t responding to my voice or squeezing my hand anymore and yet I continue to pray, read and play worship music.

I was still believing God for the unexpected and yet I was okay if He decided to take her home. While it still hurts, while the tears still fall down my face, while I grieve with such an agonizing pain in my heart it is well with my soul.

So no more pain, no more suffering, no more condemnation in those who belong to Him. Though our earthly bodies will suffer it’s temporary. We all will leave this life in some way but in Him we take confidence that all will be made new in heaven. This is my confidence. This I hold to be true because God my Father who holds the world in his hands holds me and he holds you too. He will see us through.

This trying time could have made me turn my back on God but it didn’t. It helped me get through the darkest day of my life that I’ve experienced so far. For all that I’ve learned and read and lived on this Christian journey it has become even more real when facing such a hardship. Losing a parent is a hard pill to swallow. They played a part into you coming into this world.

I can only tell you my friend what got me through and is still getting me over the waves of grief that consume me at times. Faith, hope, and prayer. Jesus was right there crying with me and my family. He was right there as my mother went through so much pain until she made her transition from this life to her eternal home. He knows our pain and he knows our struggles personally. He lived it and because He trusted his Father we can do the same thing. It’s a choice.

It is well with my soul because I know that God is faithful and true. He is the God who cannot lie and keeps His promises. This is my story… this is my experience of going through the valley. The key word is through. A friend shared that with me. It’s not a permanent destination. We are passing by and through with expectancy to come out.

I can only hope and pray that my words no matter how the flow of sharing differs from my other posts touches your heart and brings some sense of peace and encouragement if you’ve lost a loved one or come at a time when you will experience it. It’s taken me while to write. I’ve started and stopped. Deleted and tried to ignore and avoid. Grief goes deep but if sharing helps someone else I want to fight through it, wipe my tears away and type. This is where I am and this is my truth.

Be blessed, be encouraged and keep hope even when it seems like it’s fading. God can do all things but fail.

~ Terra

“Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.””

‭‭Deuteronomy‬ ‭31:6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

* the song Even If by MercyMe connected to my heart before I knew what was about to take place. I don’t believe in coincidence. I believe that God orchestrated it. All of it. How can I not thank Him for it. Even through pain and loss He has a plan.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”

‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11-13‬ ‭NIV‬‬

http://bible.com/111/jer.29.11-13.niv

Facetime with My Lord

Greetings dear brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus,

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I pray that you all are doing well in mind, body and spirit. God is truly good to us. (even in difficult times. ) Would you agree?

The last few weeks have been somewhat challenging in my spirit. Keeping things bottled up for the most part has not been a wise choice.

Rolling waves come crashing down on me. Again.

“Lord, I don’t know how I am going to get through this but I trust You with the outcome.” These words have been going through my mind over and over as the days pass.

My family lost a loved one last week. My uncle passed away but God bless His soul…. before he became ill and died from cancer on Monday he gave his life to the Lord! Hallelujah!!

Feeling overwhelmed doesn’t even seem like the right word to scratch the surface of how I have been coping with life. Why was I trying to keep it together and stay afloat the best I knew how without crying out in desperation is beyond me. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and yet I found myself closing up. Not one word to utter out loud to my Savior; the very One who sustains me. My heart cried out and soon I found myself needing face time with my Lord.

I needed to talk. I needed to pour out. I needed to be held and comforted unlike any other time.

Facetime. Something we all need with the Lord. Not only should we go to Him with our heavy hearts and burdens but also to lift Him up and glorify His name. He is to be exalted, praised and lifted up! Let us share the good news of Christ and all He’s done in us and through us. Amen?!!

As I found this time of retreat and solace beginning to take its place within me, I was still having unsettled peace reside.

I wasn’t giving up control.

My sister Patricia (link) contacted me as well as my other sister Dulcinea (link). They were not giving up on me at all! Each one came in at a time to give me a word of encouragement and shown me love when I wasn’t seeking it. Or so I thought. God’s arms stretch wide and His words of comfort come from afar. He knew just what I needed and though I had alone time with Him, He gave me more. He poured into me through others. All I can say is: timely. God shows up right on time. He’s not a minute too early or a second late. He comes right on time.

My God blessed me. He lifted me up from the hollow and dark place that I had been sitting in and fighting. I tell you and I encourage you all to not give up. I encourage you to rise up from the pit that tries to hold you captive. We are free in Jesus. The chains have been broken. We do not have to be enslaved to things that hurt us. I want to share a portion of a message Patricia sent me. I wish I could add the voicemail that Dulci (Sissy as I call her) sent me but I can’t. I love these women with all my heart. Thank you Jesus for them!! Here it goes:

“I know that it truly is a process at times, but be encouraged by the fact that God’s Word never changes and neither does his love for you. He understands every single bit of what you’re going through and every emotion that you  have, and he can dry every tear and hold you stronger and tighter than anybody can!” 

Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning. (Psalm 30: 5)

Faith Triumphs in Trouble
Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us. (Romans 5:1-5 NKJV)


Are you in need of FaceTime with the Lord today? Seek Him today while He may be found. Today is of the essence. Tomorrow may never come. Come one, come all and call upon the Name that’s above all names.

JESUS

Lamenting…… I can’t help but cry out

( crying and trying to keep it together )

First I want to say that this is straight from my heart. If there are any errors in my spelling or grammar, please forgive me. This is just raw feelings I cannot hold back.

I wonder if I am beginning to understand just a bit more of how God feels knowing that his children; his creations are dying every day without salvation that has been freely given to us by his Son Jesus. I gotta tell ya… this has been a week full of emotional highs and lows, learning and growing, planting and harvesting. My heart has been feeling sorrow and I never could really put my finger on why. God spoke to me in one word as I was walking past the kitchen this morning. LAMENTING

( This is where I break into full tears and go to my knees crying out for people I don’t even know )

Really. It’s time to come up out of our comfort zone and be about God’s business. We are called to go out and share the love of Christ, take care of the homeless, sick, shut in, the orphans, those lost in darkness who don’t even know who Jesus, let alone if they even believe in him. There is so much work to be done. No, we cannot force people to acknowledge Christ, repent and receive salvation and to live a life pleasing unto the King but we can be the mouth, the hands and feet in the Body of Christ, going about the earth being an example of the One we profess to be our all and all. Are we walking our talk? Are we showing a lifestyle that mirrors Christ to the best of our ability? If not, it is time to step out and find out.

I had the opportunity to go with my husband to pray over a woman in person who’s husband is dying of cancer that he never knew he had until he went into the hospital to have surgery for one thing, just to find out he has stage 4 lung cancer. She’s spiritually saved. He isn’t. So many emotions running through my mind, tears overflowing in my heart crying out to God pleading that some how, some way , this man’s life would be spared. That he will have the opportunity to accept Jesus into his life and receive salvation. I cried for this man out of love as if he was a member of my own household. I haven’t had the chance to meet this man in person because he is very ill. He was sleeping at the time, so it was not an appropriate time to do anything to disturb him because he is dealing with so much and in pain. A dear friend I have come to know ( Natalie ) came to mind and I emailed her in route to the home of the ailing. I’m so grateful that she received my message  before getting to the destination. I told her about what’s going on and she has been praying for this family as well since that day. It was on the way back home that my eyes were opened just a bit more to try and comprehend the LOVE Jesus has for us. It breaks our Father’s heart to see his beloveds hurting and in pain, struggling and leaving this earth sometimes by choice to never receive His love and eternal life with him. For me to love ONE person enough to cry my heart out until I was ready to puke, doesn’t even touch the surface of everyone in the world that Christ bore sins for and died a horrible death on the cross JUST so a way could be made for those to be in union with Father God and live with in heaven after they leave this earth. I can’t begin to imagine the magnitude of love and sacrifice He gave just for us.

How much are we willing to give of ourselves and our time to love thy neighbor as thyself?

You know what? God is a good God, an amazing Father, a merciful and grace filling Love in my life who patiently teaches me his ways even when I don’t understand, even when I stumble, even when my priorities are not in order every day. Through all this crying I have been doing, it’s typical for my body to start showing signs of a seizure because of the stress that crying does to me. But it has not come to pass. Thank you Father.

How my heart grieves; the sorrow that is weighing me down is actually making me stronger in Him to go out do works for the Kingdom. My actions speaks louder than words.

I’m not trying to break anyone’s Christmas spirit,but if you would, reflect on where you are in your life right now. If it wasn’t for Jesus coming into your life, where would you be? There are many people suffering mentally,physically and spiritually right now. Christmas shopping is the last of their worries. Someone has lost a loved one, someone is suffering from a bad case of depression, someone is grieving and mourning, someone is fighing for their life somewhere out there in this world. I can’t help but cry with them and over them, pleading their case before the Lord; taking their afflictions before his feet asking for healing and deliverance. I don’t have to know you to love you. It’s through Christ Jesus that I am able to truly love on you and want the best for you. So if you don’t know Christ at all, I pray that ministering angels are sent to you to be by your side and to speak his love into you. And if we ever cross paths, I will surely do my part to show His love and help you the best I can.

To God be the glory forever and always. Praises to I AM, The Holy One, my Fortress, the Great Physician, Healer, King of kings and Lord of lords in all the earth. Blessings of comfort and guidance from the Lord be with you.

Terra