Facetime with My Lord

Greetings dear brothers and sisters in Christ Jesus,

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I pray that you all are doing well in mind, body and spirit. God is truly good to us. (even in difficult times. ) Would you agree?

The last few weeks have been somewhat challenging in my spirit. Keeping things bottled up for the most part has not been a wise choice.

Rolling waves come crashing down on me. Again.

“Lord, I don’t know how I am going to get through this but I trust You with the outcome.” These words have been going through my mind over and over as the days pass.

My family lost a loved one last week. My uncle passed away but God bless His soul…. before he became ill and died from cancer on Monday he gave his life to the Lord! Hallelujah!!

Feeling overwhelmed doesn’t even seem like the right word to scratch the surface of how I have been coping with life. Why was I trying to keep it together and stay afloat the best I knew how without crying out in desperation is beyond me. I tend to wear my heart on my sleeve and yet I found myself closing up. Not one word to utter out loud to my Savior; the very One who sustains me. My heart cried out and soon I found myself needing face time with my Lord.

I needed to talk. I needed to pour out. I needed to be held and comforted unlike any other time.

Facetime. Something we all need with the Lord. Not only should we go to Him with our heavy hearts and burdens but also to lift Him up and glorify His name. He is to be exalted, praised and lifted up! Let us share the good news of Christ and all He’s done in us and through us. Amen?!!

As I found this time of retreat and solace beginning to take its place within me, I was still having unsettled peace reside.

I wasn’t giving up control.

My sister Patricia (link) contacted me as well as my other sister Dulcinea (link). They were not giving up on me at all! Each one came in at a time to give me a word of encouragement and shown me love when I wasn’t seeking it. Or so I thought. God’s arms stretch wide and His words of comfort come from afar. He knew just what I needed and though I had alone time with Him, He gave me more. He poured into me through others. All I can say is: timely. God shows up right on time. He’s not a minute too early or a second late. He comes right on time.

My God blessed me. He lifted me up from the hollow and dark place that I had been sitting in and fighting. I tell you and I encourage you all to not give up. I encourage you to rise up from the pit that tries to hold you captive. We are free in Jesus. The chains have been broken. We do not have to be enslaved to things that hurt us. I want to share a portion of a message Patricia sent me. I wish I could add the voicemail that Dulci (Sissy as I call her) sent me but I can’t. I love these women with all my heart. Thank you Jesus for them!! Here it goes:

“I know that it truly is a process at times, but be encouraged by the fact that God’s Word never changes and neither does his love for you. He understands every single bit of what you’re going through and every emotion that you  have, and he can dry every tear and hold you stronger and tighter than anybody can!” 

Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning. (Psalm 30: 5)

Faith Triumphs in Trouble
Therefore, having been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom also we have access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God. And not only that, but we also glory in tribulations, knowing that tribulation produces perseverance; and perseverance, character; and character, hope. Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us. (Romans 5:1-5 NKJV)


Are you in need of FaceTime with the Lord today? Seek Him today while He may be found. Today is of the essence. Tomorrow may never come. Come one, come all and call upon the Name that’s above all names.

JESUS

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Unforgiveness Swept Under the Rug

As I was in the bed unwinding for the night, two men came across my mind. One I forgave immediately and the other……. well let’s just say that I did forgive him years ago but I swept it under the rug. I didn’t want to relive emotional pain over some words and lack of understanding and compassion I felt so many years back.

Over 25 yrs ago I was struck by a car driven by an 18 yr old driving 75 mph in a 25 mph school zone. I was at the cross walk in front of my middle  school. From what I can remember and what I was told, I was knocked about 30 feet. The only thing I suffered was a broken femur. ( thigh bone ) I know it was no one but God who saved me.

I endured 2 years of being on crutches and rehabilitation to learn how to walk again between 2 surgeries. One to fix my thigh and the other to remove the plate and screws attached inside. Wow… these were the years I was just beginning as a teenager and I had a complex about my long and ugly scar.

The day of the accident, all I could think about was the good citizen who came from across the street to cover me with a blanket until the paramedics arrived and thanking God that I was alive. Nothing else mattered then. I take that back! I was wearing a brand new pair of Lee jeans and I was upset that they had to be cut open to see if any broken bones were openly present.  ( excuse my way of thinking as a new teen just beginning to like fashion back in the 80’s in hope that my pants could be spared. Lol ) Between blacking out and coming to, the lingering screams I heard from friends are still with me to this day.

I never knew what happened to the guy who hit me, other than my parents taking legal action against him. Believe it or not, I had no ill feelings towards him. I wasn’t even mad at him for all the pain I endured mentally and physically. I forgave him. I was ok. It was my school principal that I had bad feelings against, all because he made an issue about the school flag coming down because of my accident.

“Are you serious?!!” I couldn’t believe that a flag had precedence over my life. Well that is how it made me feel. It hurt me bad. Oh believe me, it became a big issue enough that resulted in my mom going up to the school to address the principal.

Well to speed this up, I moved on with my life, became a Christian, asked God to forgive me of my sins and along my walk for me to forgive others I harbored unforgiveness towards. Well at least I thought I’d forgiven them all. TRULY forgiven them. Obviously I didn’t.

Needless to say, the other night I truly forgave the man who I harbored anger and unforgiveness towards. I also prayed for him hoping that his life has turned out well in general. I hope and pray he believes in God and has excepted Jesus Christ as his Lord and Savior. I also hope and pray the same for the guy who hit me. I can only hope he doesn’t have any bad feelings towards me for any repercussions he had to face for his negligence. I hope he knows that he is forgiven. My prayers for their salvation has nothing to do with me but the fact that we all have not accepted Christ into our heart. The way we live our lives until we die plays a part as to how we live this life and treat others.

We all make mistakes. We learn and forgive as well as ask for forgiveness. I thank the Lord for placing them on my heart as I chose to act in obedience to forgive immediately. No questions asked. It’s a wonderful feeling to let a wound completely heal. I had the right prescription to heal me though I didn’t realize I was still carrying the pain. Thank you Jesus!

I don’t know why I’ve taken another step in opening up my personal life but I rather be obedient than not. There has to be a reason behind this. All I can say is Thank You Lord for second chances. Thank You for awakening my heart to check under my rug that may harbor anything I have not completely given up. I want a clean temple for the Lord to reside in. My purpose is to be a light unto the world as a child of the Most High and share salvation with others. Sharing my experiences will hopefully let others see that Christians aren’t perfect, yet we strive daily to be Christlike. I’m not perfect but I’m made perfect in Him. It reminds me of why I love butterflies so much. So much is going on inside the cocoon to transform the caterpillar into a beautifull butterfly. Once the transformation takes place, it is then I can truly spread my wings and fly.

Dear friends, if you have any unforgivenness swept under a rug, pray and ask God to reveal it to you so that you will be released from anything that keeps you from being totally set free.

Bless you all on your journey to becoming a better person in the Lord.