“My heart is overflowing with a good theme; I recite my composition concerning the King; My tongue is the pen of a ready writer.”
Psalms 45:1 NKJV
I’m not a writer or runner… but I have something to say and somewhere to go.
Some years ago I gave in to God’s plan to write. To blog. To reach and encourage the nations. It wasn’t my plan but I jumped in with both feet to make it happen. Eventually with both feet to be quite honest because I never heard of a blog nor did I have a desire to write anything past a line or two regarding my thoughts for the people who took time to read.
And let’s talk about this running thing. Yeah. Umm hmm. I’m not one of those either. But I got somewhere I’m trying to go. Mentally, physically and spiritually.
“I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 3:14 NKJV
“Don’t you realize that in a race everyone runs, but only one person gets the prize? So run to win! All athletes are disciplined in their training. They do it to win a prize that will fade away, but we do it for an eternal prize. So I run with purpose in every step. I am not just shadowboxing. I discipline my body like an athlete, training it to do what it should. Otherwise, I fear that after preaching to others I myself might be disqualified.”
1 Corinthians 9:24-27 NLT
I’m not a writer or runner. Or so I think I’m not and yet here I am. Still writing and running for the Lord. I felt like I wanted to kinda toss the blog aside… maybe even delete it. (Girl are you crazy?!!) I wanted to slow down my run but it doesn’t feel right slowing down or simply stopping in the middle.
Grief grabbed a hold of me in such a way that’s it’s a struggle some days. So if you didn’t know I’ll catch you up . May 3,2018 my Mom went home to be with the Lord. No more cancer to fight. No more. Not ever again. I told God that I was okay with Him taking her because she belonged to Him and knowing that she had salvation which is a key factor for all of our eternity she would be in good hands.
With that said it still hurt. It still pains my heart to know she’s not here with me. I can’t call her to talk or laugh or even make trips to visit one another. But I know that she would not be happy if she knew that I stopped writing and running. She knew that there was always something special about me as she used to say. She knew I had a desire to uplift hearts and share Jesus in some type of way. I digress. Forgive me.
I say that I’m not a writer or runner but God knew me and his plans for me before my conception. I really need to pause more often and think about this when my low days strike. “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11 NIV
More important than how my mother saw me is how God sees me and loves me and how there is still purpose in and through my pain even in such a season that I endure. I don’t want to stand still as if in stagnant water. It does me no good. I was sitting in church service yesterday and some things that were said struck me and I really must be proactive about change even when I don’t feel like or it doesn’t feel good.
Life happens and it will continue to do so bringing the highs and the lows, the good and the bad and the unimaginable. But God…
He is faithful and just and I can testify to that even in one of the darkest times of my life. I still trust Him and I keep hope even when I can’t see what lies ahead. It’s just hard pushing ahead for me at times. Oh and laziness plays a factor too for me. Just keeping it real. (sigh)
So if you’ve been with me a while I appreciate you hanging in there and bearing with me. If we are new to one another here on the blog I say Welcome and I thank you for stopping by and taking time to read. It’s still my heart’s desire to pray and encourage all that I meet along the way. My writing and running may be different by my heart is still the same. The leading of the Holy Spirit goes before me so I can never take credit. I am just a vessel wanting to be used to bless others.
I pray that whatever it is that you may be facing that you will begin to know that the Lord will be with you if you allow Him to be. He will get you through it all. I am still seeing it for myself and I can testify that He is still moving in my life and of those I have met /prayed for. Today isn’t over. Keep hope and faith even when you don’t see evidence of change. It’s coming.
Warmest thoughts, prayers and love in Christ Jesus for you beloved one. Take care,
🦋Writer, Runner, Child of God, Wife, Mother & Friend🦋