I pray that all is well with you and that your mindset is in a place of renewing. I want to start off by saying that I am again so thankful that I have been provided with an outlet to express myself and hopefully someone will be touched. My goal is to be obedient to the Lord and follow his rules for my life. Yes, I will slip and fall at times,but the key is to repent wholeheartedly and move forward. I will not allow the things that I allowed to cause me to stumble to hold me back. I say that I caused myself to stumble, because it is a choice that I made out of weakness. For it is by the Lord that I can overcome with his help and not on my own. I will fail each and every time if I try to do anything on my own.
Eph 4:23-24 Amp version tells us ” And be constantly renewed in the spirit of your mind [ having a fresh mental and spiritual attitude ] , and put on the new nature ( the regenerate self ) created in God’s image [ Godlike ] in true righteousness and holiness.
A short while ago I had posted a Facebook message about a dream I had about the most beautiful butterfly I had ever laid my eyes on. I’m not sure how many people read it but inspite of that, I just had to share my happiness. I have a love for butterflies and it’s just something about them that brings me joy! I have seen various colors and types,but this one I seen was one I had never laid my eyes on but it just has this special something about it that shined so brightly within my heart. I can say that I recognized the color palette from my childhood. It’s something I really can’t describe it. I can only say that over time looking back in the last 6 months or so through trials and tribulations in my life, that I see now that God had to allow me to go through some hardships to transform me. I am clay in His hands and the closer I have drawn myself to Him when I have felt emotionally abandoned, the more He shows me. I think this is where the butterfly effect has been coming in to play. Metamorphosis…. this is the best way to describe it. It’s not an easy process from the beginning nor is it pretty depending on how you look at it,but in the end this beautiful, amazing being spreads it’s wings and fly.
I know I have a calling on my life and as hard headed as I can be, it’s time to stop fighting. I want what He has for me but I want the easy route. Who doesn’t? But how can you actual testify to something if you don’t go through the fire? I am assured through prayer and submitting my case before Him that I will come out on top for his glory. Nothing goes unnoticed by Him and he wants the best for his children. Transformation is taking place within me. I am being renewed and restored. My faith and hope is placed in Him. God works on his watch. No mine, not yours. Through this, I am being strengthened and my patience is being challenged as to how I respond to people and situations. This is my passion with a purpose. I want to be everything He has called and predestined me to be. I want all the blessings. I don’t want to miss out. Through this I know that I will lose many things. Dying to myself daily plays a major part. Letting go of anything and anyone that is not edifying must go as well. May I have to courage to go forth and not look back. I am naturally a nurturing person and want to help anyone that I can but it’s a downfall, a weakness if I am not careful. Everyone doesn’t have your best interest at heart and will sneak in like a wolf in sheep’s clothing to try and destroy you. I’ve been burned quite a few times but I realize more and more that I can’t be superwoman and save the day. It’s not my job. I will do my part if that and keep going. The best I can do is pray. I love ya, but I gotta keep going for my journey has not ended and too many pit stops can potentially hold me up. This girl has things to do!
Be blessed and may the Lord’s hand rest upon you.