Take Away & Purge Me O Lord

I woke up early this morning with this song on my heart and I could not help but sing within myself and be at the feet of the Lord. I could not even go back to sleep. Tears streamed as I fell into worship.

May you take a moment to close your eyes and meditate on what this song is about in hopes that you will allow the Lord to remove anything inside of you that keeps you from totally surrendering to him.

Stand fast therefore in the liberty by which Christ has made us free, and do not be entangled again with a yoke of bondage. (Galatians 5:1 NKJV)

“Oh Father above who knows us greater that anyone, the Omnipotent, Omniscient and Omnipresent Master that reigns above and Who knows every grain of sand covered on land, Who knows every stand of hair on our heads, Who never slumbers nor sleeps but keeps watch over us day and night, Who loves us enough to see to our needs, our wants and desires. You O’ Lord is He Who will also break us from the very things that keep us from you when we know deep down inside that we need to step away and let you mold us into the vessels you created us to be. Break every chain that keeps us in bondage, break every yoke that is unclean, demolish every stronghold that says we cannot break free, help us to cast down every imagination that could make us reprobate.

Remove not thyself away from us Lord, please do not close your ears to our pleas, our cries when we fall into sin. Our heart says yes but our flesh is says no. Help us to die to the very things that hurt you, the very things that separate us from you my God. Lord, you tell us that if we love you that we would keep your commandments. Help us! Save us from ourselves. Take away every thing that is not pleasing to you. All fear and doubts we carry is not of you. You did not give a spirit of fear or timidity, but one of power and love and a sound mind.

Let not sickness, death, life uncertainties and challenges keep us from trusting You. No matter what the storms looks like, you can speak to it and it will cease upon Your command. Every thing on this earth must bow down to you, Father. Satan himself cannot do anything to us that you will not allow. Nothing goes unnoticed or comes as a surprise to You. Nothing done even in darkness can hide from you. Every temptation we have comes from a desire rising up like a fury furnace awaiting to smolder us like a fire’s smoke that we cannot see beyond our hand. Let it not choke us and kill us.

We need you Father, we need Your Holy Spirit, we need Jesus more and more each day. May we hasten to throne, let us fall to our knees with a contrite heart repenting of our sins known and unknown asking to be made over, to be clay in your hands that we will be shaped and refined. Let us worship You in spirit and in truth, dance before you as we share with those around us that OUR GOD has found favor in us. Thank you for being the Great I AM, the Lover of our souls, the mighty King that receives honor and glory at all times. You reign on high. Hallelujah! Praises be unto Thy Holy Name.

In Your Son’s name I pray, Amen.”

I will love You, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer; My God, my strength, in whom I will trust; My shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised; So shall I be saved from my enemies. The pangs of death surrounded me, And the floods of ungodliness made me afraid. The sorrows of Sheol surrounded me; The snares of death confronted me. In my distress I called upon the Lord, And cried out to my God; He heard my voice from His temple, And my cry came before Him, even to His ears. Then the earth shook and trembled; The foundations of the hills also quaked and were shaken, Because He was angry. Smoke went up from His nostrils, And devouring fire from His mouth; Coals were kindled by it. He bowed the heavens also, and came down With darkness under His feet.

And He rode upon a cherub, and flew; He flew upon the wings of the wind. He made darkness His secret place; His canopy around Him was dark waters And thick clouds of the skies. From the brightness before Him, His thick clouds passed with hailstones and coals of fire. The Lord thundered from heaven, And the Most High uttered His voice, Hailstones and coals of fire. He sent out His arrows and scattered the foe, Lightnings in abundance, and He vanquished them. Then the channels of the sea were seen, The foundations of the world were uncovered At Your rebuke, O Lord, At the blast of the breath of Your nostrils. He sent from above, He took me; He drew me out of many waters. He delivered me from my strong enemy, From those who hated me, For they were too strong for me.

They confronted me in the day of my calamity, But the Lord was my support. He also brought me out into a broad place; He delivered me because He delighted in me. The Lord rewarded me according to my righteousness; According to the cleanness of my hands He has recompensed me. For I have kept the ways of the Lord, And have not wickedly departed from my God. For all His judgments were before me, And I did not put away His statutes from me. I was also blameless before Him, And I kept myself from my iniquity. Therefore the Lord has recompensed me according to my righteousness, According to the cleanness of my hands in His sight. With the merciful You will show Yourself merciful; With a blameless man You will show Yourself blameless; With the pure You will show Yourself pure; And with the devious You will show Yourself shrewd. For You will save the humble people, But will bring down haughty looks.

For You will light my lamp; The Lord my God will enlighten my darkness. For by You I can run against a troop, By my God I can leap over a wall. As for God, His way is perfect; The word of the Lord is proven; He is a shield to all who trust in Him. For who is God, except the Lord? And who is a rock, except our God? It is God who arms me with strength, And makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of deer, And sets me on my high places. He teaches my hands to make war, So that my arms can bend a bow of bronze. You have also given me the shield of Your salvation; Your right hand has held me up, Your gentleness has made me great. You enlarged my path under me, So my feet did not slip. I have pursued my enemies and overtaken them; Neither did I turn back again till they were destroyed. I have wounded them, So that they could not rise; They have fallen under my feet.

For You have armed me with strength for the battle; You have subdued under me those who rose up against me. You have also given me the necks of my enemies, So that I destroyed those who hated me. They cried out, but there was none to save; Even to the Lord, but He did not answer them. Then I beat them as fine as the dust before the wind; I cast them out like dirt in the streets. You have delivered me from the strivings of the people; You have made me the head of the nations; A people I have not known shall serve me. As soon as they hear of me they obey me; The foreigners submit to me. The foreigners fade away, And come frightened from their hideouts. The Lord lives! Blessed be my Rock! Let the God of my salvation be exalted. It is God who avenges me, And subdues the peoples under me; He delivers me from my enemies. You also lift me up above those who rise against me; You have delivered me from the violent man. Therefore I will give thanks to You, O Lord, among the Gentiles, And sing praises to Your name. Great deliverance He gives to His king, And shows mercy to His anointed, To David and his descendants forevermore. (Psalm 18:1-50 NKJV)


Love Drives Me to Press On

The Greatest Gift

Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing. Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away. When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known. And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love. (1 Corinthians 13:1-13 NKJV)

Love and transparency seem to collide a lot in my life. Even through hurt and pain caused directly and indirectly, God always brings me back to a place in my heart that I cannot reject others. The natural man wants to rise up, take control and fully put up a wall of steel to protect my heart and feelings.

I have learned many times that this will never go the way I planned. I can only block and withhold but for so long. Its just a matter of protecting a wounded heart the best way that works for me.

This is not how God would like for me to handle this.

I have known since I was child that I could not hold on to anger, hurt and pain forever, that I could never hate people but that I can dislike their actions.

We all have shortcomings. There is not one man on this earth without blemish. We are a work in progress if we want to succeed. Not just in this life as human beings, but as servants of the Lord.

There is a greater purpose to just being me, being a wife, a mother, daughter, sister and friend. I have been called by the Lord to be a light in a dark world, to be an example of his love that defeats everything else.

No matter the pain, the tears, rejection, answers that have not been supplied….. I have been given an assignment that I must fulfill. I can’t run away from it no matter how hard I try even if that is something that I truly wanted to do. It’s not what I want. It’s just a hard load to carry.

I can’t do it on my own.

I will always need the Lord to carry me because I have had some weary days and nights with a heart full of sorrow and heaviness dealing with various things. It’s not just about my life but that as well of others including you, dear reader. You’d think that I could not drop another tear over the last month or so, but I have.

There’s no boasting at all. It’s hard to be transparent if pride and ego were factors. I can be transparent because it’s a part of who I am. This is how God designed me. I have questioned Him at times why do I have to love others so much when it can hurt so bad.

These were my thoughts when I was younger. Now it’s just about being at His feet humbling my heart and asking for help to never stray away, to never deny love to those who cross my path, to abide in his love and strength always with wisdom to gain because I don’t want to be selfish. I want to be obedient to every thing asked of me.

If we know each other personally and you have not heard from me, I just needed a little time to gather myself. And for those who don’t know me, God has managed to draw me back to the familiar in his own way, lovingly nudging me along that everything will work out just fine.

This journey I walk as a disciple isn’t easy. God did not promise that all my days would be filled with roses and sunshine but he would be there for me when I call out to him.

Love above all else will keep me going. In Him my trust is placed to work out every good and perfect thing that aligns with his word.

Glory be to God for mercy and grace.

Scriptures to think on:

Therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, put on tender mercies, kindness, humility, meekness, longsuffering; bearing with one another, and forgiving one another, if anyone has a complaint against another; even as Christ forgave you, so you also must do. But above all these things put on love, which is the bond of perfection. And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom, teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord. And whatever you do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him. (Colossians 3:12-17

Let brotherly love continue. Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some have unwittingly entertained angels. Remember the prisoners as if chained with them those who are mistreated since you yourselves are in the body also. Let your conduct be without covetousness; be content with such things as you have. For He Himself has said, I will never leave you nor forsake you. (Hebrews 13:1-3, 5 NKJV)

Jesus answered him, The first of all the commandments is: Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one. And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul, with all your mind, and with all your strength. This is the first commandment. And the second, like it, is this: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. There is no other commandment greater than these. (Mark 12:29-31 NKJV)