Sharing my thoughts and God‘s rescue…..
In regards to my memory loss the other day, God let me know that I wasn’t alone for he was with me. Though I have moments of temporary memory loss never to know what was said to me or what event even occurred ( unless someone was around me to know I wasn’t in the current moment ) His Word has been embedded in my heart and that’s something I’ll never forget.

God gave me peace and rest ( physical and spiritual ) even when I could not understand why such things happen for no reason. Scriptures were given to me for comfort and understanding. My tears of fear and anxiety turned into tears of ” Thank you Lord for blessing me, comforting me through my tears when I felt lost and alone, unable to recapture memories I’ll never know of. Thank you for Your everlasting protection before and after my seizure activity. Thank you for Your promises over my life. ”

I can’t sit, ponder and overwhelm myself with anxiety of the ” could have ” moments that never took place, though FEAR was desperately trying to consume my thoughts because God stepped in and rescued me. I was safely sitting down folding laundry not having moved from that spot. I didn’t fall down the stairs, I wasn’t cooking and a fire could have started, I wasn’t even driving….. potentially putting myself or anyone on the road at risk. So why was I really upset and shedding tears? The root of it all:

I WASN’T IN CONTROL!!

Shame on me for I know better. I’m far from perfect and the Lord knows this. I see why He stepped in and rescued me from myself and the road of mental destruction I could have caused myself that day. For by the Holy Spirit my heart was quickened with the Word and my mind shielded from negative thinking.

God didn’t bring me this far to leave me I know. I’ve been through worse times than this and he brought me out so this little situation is nothing in comparison. I’m doing much better. My boat was rocked just enough for God to say ” Hey! Just wanted to make sure you know that I’m still God and you aren’t. I want you to be aware at all times that you are to lean on Me in everything you face even when you don’t see it coming in advance. Trust Me and Me only.” So…………. okay. I hear you Lord. I know You are building me up, strengthening me, preparing me for greater things ahead. I’m fine with that. I’m past the baby stages in my walk with You. I want what You want for my life. I want to grow more and more in You, seeking you on purpose everyday for wisdom, knowledge, a greater purpose than just living on this earth.

Thank you my God for feeding my soul and spirit with the power of the Word that provides nourishment for my daily needs. My needs are greater than my wants and You provide each and every time. Thank you for giving me Your rest. No matter what’s going inside and out, deep within me Your peace and joy is there to sustain me. Righteousness goes before me, a stedfast foot to pursue holiness keeps me as I yearn to grow closer to you. My life is not my own. It belongs to You. Take me oh Lord and use me for your glory.

Scripture References:

 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.( Isaiah 41:10 NIV)

The Lord God is my Strength, my personal bravery, and my invincible army; He makes my feet like hinds’ feet and will make me to walk [not to stand still in terror, but to walk] and make [spiritual] progress upon my high places [of trouble, suffering, or responsibility]! (Habakkuk 3:19 AMP)

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. (Isaiah 55:8 NIV)

For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, (2 Corinthians 10:4, 5 NKJV)

Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the message of Christ dwell among you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom through psalms, hymns, and songs from the Spirit, singing to God with gratitude in your hearts. (Colossians 3:15, 16 NIV)

For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. (2 Corinthians 4:17, 18 NIV)

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, whot have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28 NIV)

Are you facing any physical challenges or afflictions? Take on faith, hope, courage and patience as you wait on the Lord to see you through.

For we know that if the earthly tent we live in is destroyed, we have a building from God, an eternal house in heaven, not built by human hands. Meanwhile we groan, longing to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, because when we are clothed, we will not be found naked. For while we are in this tent, we groan and are burdened, because we do not wish to be unclothed but to be clothed instead with our heavenly dwelling, so that what is mortal may be swallowed up by life. Now the one who has fashioned us for this very purpose is God, who has given us the Spirit as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come. Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. For we live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord. (2 Corinthians 5:1-8 NIV)

” Dear Lord, I continually thank You for being The Rock, our Foundation, The Well for the thirsty. I pray asking that we will always draw near to You and seek your face, never to grow weary in well doing even when we don’t see physical change for I know You are operating in the spirit of our beings maturing us. May we wait patiently on You, trusting and clinging to your truths, and as we wait, may the condition of our thoughts lead us to speak and act accordingly. In Jesus name ….. Amen. ”

Be blessed and strengthened in the Lord always,

Terra