It Is Well with My Soul

………… It is well with my soul.

Words cannot begin to describe the depth of my pain. Grief is something else. We’ve all experienced it at some point in our lives but the only true and faithful foundation and anchor to get through it is Jesus Christ.

You can say what you believe all day long but living it is a test of your faith.

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” Hebrews‬ ‭11:1‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

My day came when my dear mother left this earth to go home to be with the Lord May 3, 2018. While it was no surprise to God it took my family and I for an unexpected ride. Life came and went by so quickly in the couple weeks that I went home to see about her. Little did I know that I was going home for reasons far bigger than I could ever imagine.

“For we know that if our earthly house, this tent, is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens. For in this we groan, earnestly desiring to be clothed with our habitation which is from heaven, if indeed, having been clothed, we shall not be found naked. For we who are in this tent groan, being burdened, not because we want to be unclothed, but further clothed, that mortality may be swallowed up by life. Now He who has prepared us for this very thing is God, who also has given us the Spirit as a guarantee. So we are always confident, knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord. For we walk by faith, not by sight. We are confident, yes, well pleased rather to be absent from the body and to be present with the Lord.”

‭‭II Corinthians‬ ‭5:1-8‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

He was preparing me for everything that I imagined and told myself that I didn’t ever want to do.

•watch my Mother take her last breath

•do all the necessary things like paperwork to get her ready for burial

•view her body up close in preparation for her Homegoing service

•bury her beneath the Earth’s soil in the very place I dislike going to. The cemetery.

But what I fail to concentrate on (getting better at doing it) is that “for a time such as this” He had me ministering to her while she was still alive. I practically lived at the hospital for 2wks. I made it my business to pray with her and over her, read the Bible to her and to play/sing praise and worship music. I did this every day. I didn’t know she was going to die. I just knew that she needed the Word instilled in her. It’s all I know to do when facing the unexpected. God is my hope and my strength day to day. Through the good and and the not so good days.

Every time she was being taken away for a procedure she would not let anyone wheel her away until I prayed. Her hope and her faith to get through it all was in God. I take comfort in knowing that I played a part in it because of my obedience to Him. It helped my mother during the roughest experience of her life. She could have easily told me to not pray anymore, to not speak of the God who was allowing her to go through such a painful time. But I can only imagine that she understood in that time that God sat and watched his one and only Son be tortured and crucified for all of the world’s sins. There was a purpose in the temporary pain. Jesus died so that we could live. He bore our sins and our afflictions on the Cross so that we could be set free.

I went back home to my own family just to turn back around 3 days later because things turned for the worse. While I can do away with technology some days I am so happy for it’s good use. On my way to the airport my niece FaceTime me because my mother was asking for me. She ended up in ICU. It was the last time I got to see her awake. It was the last time that I knew of that she could hear me tell her that I loved her and I prayed with her. By the time I made it home and up to the hospital she wasn’t responding to my voice or squeezing my hand anymore and yet I continue to pray, read and play worship music.

I was still believing God for the unexpected and yet I was okay if He decided to take her home. While it still hurts, while the tears still fall down my face, while I grieve with such an agonizing pain in my heart it is well with my soul.

So no more pain, no more suffering, no more condemnation in those who belong to Him. Though our earthly bodies will suffer it’s temporary. We all will leave this life in some way but in Him we take confidence that all will be made new in heaven. This is my confidence. This I hold to be true because God my Father who holds the world in his hands holds me and he holds you too. He will see us through.

This trying time could have made me turn my back on God but it didn’t. It helped me get through the darkest day of my life that I’ve experienced so far. For all that I’ve learned and read and lived on this Christian journey it has become even more real when facing such a hardship. Losing a parent is a hard pill to swallow. They played a part into you coming into this world.

I can only tell you my friend what got me through and is still getting me over the waves of grief that consume me at times. Faith, hope, and prayer. Jesus was right there crying with me and my family. He was right there as my mother went through so much pain until she made her transition from this life to her eternal home. He knows our pain and he knows our struggles personally. He lived it and because He trusted his Father we can do the same thing. It’s a choice.

It is well with my soul because I know that God is faithful and true. He is the God who cannot lie and keeps His promises. This is my story… this is my experience of going through the valley. The key word is through. A friend shared that with me. It’s not a permanent destination. We are passing by and through with expectancy to come out.

I can only hope and pray that my words no matter how the flow of sharing differs from my other posts touches your heart and brings some sense of peace and encouragement if you’ve lost a loved one or come at a time when you will experience it. It’s taken me while to write. I’ve started and stopped. Deleted and tried to ignore and avoid. Grief goes deep but if sharing helps someone else I want to fight through it, wipe my tears away and type. This is where I am and this is my truth.

Be blessed, be encouraged and keep hope even when it seems like it’s fading. God can do all things but fail.

~ Terra

“Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.””

‭‭Deuteronomy‬ ‭31:6‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

* the song Even If by MercyMe connected to my heart before I knew what was about to take place. I don’t believe in coincidence. I believe that God orchestrated it. All of it. How can I not thank Him for it. Even through pain and loss He has a plan.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”

‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭29:11-13‬ ‭NIV‬‬

http://bible.com/111/jer.29.11-13.niv

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Sing Unto the Lord! Rejoice!!!

Good day all! It is good to be alive this morning. Praises to our God for breathing life once again into our very bodies. I want to share a song with you that has me about out of my skin when I hear it. You Reign by Christian band MercyMe was one of the favorite songs I heard them sing some years ago when I went to my very first concert. Yep. I have never been to a concert in my life until a few years ago. It was a Christian concert matter of fact with musical artist singing some of my all time favorite songs that I had been listening to on the radio prior to finding out that a concert was coming to town. (MercyMe, Toby Mac, Barlow Girl, NewSong, Skillet just to name a few.) The awesome thing on top of that was God ministering to my soul. I’ll never forget Winter Jam 2008. It was a night to remember. My friend Heather and I had an amazing time worshipping the Lord with a packed coliseum full of people. Many brought friends along who gave their life to Christ by the end of the show. I can only imagine how the heavens were rejoicing!

I want to encourage you all today to be blessed in the Lord. Remember that He loves you. Nothing will ever change that. Live for today. Get a notepad and jot down or just think on things throughout your day as to how favor has been a part of your life. You are alive and breathing, you have a roof over your head, a working brain, food to eat, praying people around the world interceding on your behalf who don’t even know you, etc. Most of all, you have a Savior who already cleansed you of your sins and welcomes you to a life in Him. Salvation is yours if you have not already received it. What an abundance of blessings you have. They are countless.Take a look around you and reflect. Life may not be looking the way you want it to but you are still here. God is on His throne. He is in control of the heavens and the earth. Surrender your thoughts and smile. God has everything under control.

Glory in the Highest!

“Father, I thank you for being the head of my life, I thank you for a sound mind and a peace that surpasses all understanding. I thank you for the desire to wake up delighted to be before You, to partake in sharing a word of encouragement with all who will receive it, to want to stand in Your rooted Word that will not go out void. I am before You with a sensitive spirit wanting to do all that is asked of me. I ask that You show Yourself to those who are lost, lonely, afraid, depressed, fearful, mourning and stressed out. Meet them right where there are. It’s not by this blog post that my prayers are heard. Someone needs You right now. May your angels provide a hedge of protection around them this very moment. May Your children be selfless and comfort a broken heart, be a shoulder to cry on, a mouthpiece of prayer standing in the gap for a dying soul. Let our voices echo in the heavens and on the earth that You reign forevermore! There is power in numbers as we unite for the sake of the kingdom. Let the demons tremble at the sound of your glory, flee when the name of JESUS is spoken and called upon. Today is ground breaking. Let the earth proclaim Your sovereignty and bow down in honor and reverence. Hallelujah! Praise Your name on High. Let us sing and worship like never before. You are our refuge, our strength, our courage and anchor and we bless You today. In Jesus I pray. Amen.”

Bring The Rain

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What a Mighty God we serve believers! The Lord is good all the time and how excellent is His name. I pray that wherever you are that you call upon Him and praise his name just because He is Who he says he IS.

 

This is one of those rainy days when it’s typical of me to feel drained and lacking energy but oh no! What joy the Lord has placed in my heart today for his eyes are upon his beloveds; His children. He has given me a set of of spiritual eyes and ears as well as a sensitive spirit to speak to the heart of those seeking Him. I try not to be on my on schedule everyday without consulting with the Lord first so though I thought I was going to do something else, he directed me elsewhere. Through the Word, the Holy Spirit speaking to me, praise and worship music all I could do was lift up my hands and said Holy Holy Holy is the Lord God Almighty! One of my favorite songs by a christian band MercyMe is called Bring the Rain. Well it actually rained too in the literal sense! ( is still is by the way ) This songs talks about drawing nearer to God through everything that one could ever go through if it brings them closer to Him to bring him glory.

 

 

It’s those storms, dark valleys, heartbroken days, loneliness, depression, stumbling blocks, times of crying over situations and matters of the heart that seems as if light will never come and joy will never be restored. If difficult times is what is takes to draw me, draw you closer to Him then Bring the Rain dear Lord. It’s temporary and it will not last forever. There is always something to learn during such times as this. Count it joy when you go through. God is working something new in you. Will you catch on and run with it? We are clay in the hands of The Potter.

 

What’s a little rain compared to the beauty, the everlasting change in Christ we can have if we just humble ourselves before him and let the shaping of our Lord work in us. He knows what is in our best interest and it’s His love for us that looks past and beyond our sins, our guilts and shames that we tend to hold onto when He forgave us. He took our sins to the Cross. It’s finished! It’s done! Stop holding on to the things that He has set us free of. We are in bondage no more! Be free to live for the Lord. As long as we are on this earth, we will go through some rainy days. What matters is how we handle those those days. How we react, what comes forth out of our mouths makes a difference. Praise Him through the rain! God had not forgotten about you or your circumstances! Lean not to your own understanding my friends! Bask in the Presence of the Lord! He is our joy, our sunshine, our peace. Be still and know that He is Lord!

Take the time and be STILL. Allow Jesus to speak to your heart today. See what it is that he has to say to you. As the rain falls, it brings growth and a time of change and renewal. It cleanses your heart so you can see more clearer. Take a deep breath…. let go and let God have his way in you.

~ Terra

” Father God, I ask in the name of your Son Jesus that you touch the heart of those seeking you, those looking for brighter days ahead. Give them what they need to make it another day. May Your love, strength, peace and comfort be with them in the middle of their walk. Let them know that they are not alone. You are very present in their time of need. I thank you for blessing us all and giving us a new day to make a difference in how we choose to live. May it all be for Your glory. Amen. “

Please take a listen to this song below and listen to the words. Hope it blesses you just as much as it does me.